Well, hopefully you like it! To those out there, I'm sure there are many stories out there dealing with the possibilities of what happens after EVA, but this is my interpretation. So I'm making sure that there can be no similarities with other authors but I'm hoping it turns out well, this is my first story for EVA that I've written...

There is some sexual references and some language...so ti's a borderline PG-PG-13 story. Well, enjoy!

Prologue

It finally happened, everything that had been done, all the accomplishments that had been made had finally came to feed its purpose. The project that NERV tried to deny and not allow to happen had happened, and the world as we know it had changed forever. Now they had finally reached what seemed God's domain, Instrumentality, everything, becoming God themselves. Nothing seemed to make sense anymore; the Angels, Evas, everything….what the hell was it all? One boy, two girls, the world resting on his hands. He was the beast that shouted I at the heart of the world, only to try and create a world in which he could live in peace and happiness. Yet, was it really happiness that he seeked, the thing he so desperately desired? Or was it the healing of the wounds in his heart that his father created, creating a lapse to where he could never grow to love himself nor someone else.

With the piercing of the hands…and the ego borderline reaching the critical condition…everything seemed to happen to where you got the feeling everything wrong was going to happen…

He had the choice of allowing the others, humanity, to live or for him to live in eternal solidity, he wanted to run away. So desperately wanting to find a way away from the pain to where in the end, he chose the solidity…

In the abyss of the darkness,

I'm alone….

I'm alone by myself….

Yet why do I feel as though I don't like it here?

The questions rose through his mind in the world where he truly was alone.

The Human Instrumentality project had been done, Third Impact had happened and he was the cause of it. Now the burden was laid on his shoulders.

I hate it, I hate this feeling….

He was asked if he wished to stay in the world where only he was there…because he hated himself and never wanted to face his fears. He was the coward, wimp, sneaky boy he had claimed to be, and he felt no one loved him…

But was that true?

He felt it pang at his heart like searing hot tongs…but still he couldn't let it loosen its grip…

You only believe that everyone hates you, but you hate yourself, that's why you can never be happy…

Damn it….I know but doesn't everyone hate me?

You only choose to believe that…

But why? Why do I always run away?

Because you can't love yourself, that is why you're alone…

I know that! I run away because I feel as though I can never feel happiness…

Then it is your choice…but you can love another, it's ok…because you create yourself in the eyes of others…

So I can see my as myself and that can be perceived in the sight of others…does that mean…?

That you can love another too..

I hate myself, but I can learn to love myself. If I learn to love myself…then I can be loved by others! Yes, I want to be loved! Because I am the one that creates my own image in the minds of others, I am the controller of my existence, my shape, my being. So I want to love myself!

"I want to be back on Earth. But what will happen to the others?" asked Shinji with a chill and a new peace in him. It was something that he always wanted but never could have...a sense of happiness and peace.

"They can come back if they choose too…they only have to have the will to become a human again…"said Ayanami with a smile, Shinji slowly descending back to Earth.

The Beast Had Shouted I at the Heart of the World, to come back to become the saviour of humanity. To try and undo the mistakes he had made, to try and release the burden he truly faced on his shoulders. In this eternal solidity to where it was only he and he alone could he finally figure out the problems, the ways to heal not only from others…

But with himself…

The next thing he knew, there he was there lying on the sandy beach…and next to him was another human, the girl that he least expected…

Asuka….