Disclaimer: I don't own Ludwig Kakumei.

Nostalgia

To this day, I wonder what drew me to you. Why did I fall in love with you, the one thing that I could never have? Why, why…

All I know is that your face fills my mind… You're all I can see.

The way you sassed me, all haughty and aloof. Screaming violently to cover your tears…

You were pretty, sure. But you weren't the most beautiful of all or anything. No curves whatsoever to speak of. So why is it that I wanted to save you so badly? Like I had to… Like there's no other choice. Wanted it, and dream vainly of being with you forever…

I never considered myself a sentimentalist. Much less a romantic. But for you, I wanted to be that knight in shining armour. I wanted to make you happy. I wanted to take you home with me and have conversations with each other everyday. Yelling, screaming, teasing and laughing together… I wanted it so much.

And from the very beginning, I knew that I couldn't have you.

We were separated by too much; time, place, thorns… It's amazing that we ever even got to meet, with all this…

And yet, we did. It's as if someone up there is laughing, mocking us, toying with our feelings.

I wonder if it would have been better off if I never knew you. That way, I would never have truly loved. I would blissfully go about trying to find the sexiest women with the nicest bustline possible to be my bride, never mind if I love them or not. And continue to bully poor Wilhelm forever. But, to have never met you, to have never laid my eyes upon you…

No, it's better this way.

Should I be happy that I made you happy before you died? I should… But that wasn't enough. Not for me. I wanted you alive, here by my side. For once, I truly wanted someone to be there and alive, not just another dead woman to gaze upon like a fascinating specimen. I wish… Somehow… If you could just be with me…

There's no happy ending for this fairytale. And yet, yet… Why do I still think of you? Dream of you…

"What are you thinking about, Lui?"

"… A field of heather-flowers."

A/N: Squeeee… I wrote the first LuiIdike fic! I ah-dore this couple. :sighs: It's so sad that they couldn't be together… Idike is probably the only girl that Lui will ever truly fall for. It wasn't for a pretty face, or cup size this time, you know? That's what convinced me that Idike was the girl that Lui truly loves. XD

Hmm… I mainly wrote this to contribute to the Ludwig Kakumei fandom, since I worship the manga. (Continue this, Yuki Kaori-sama. :begs: ) And… I add more of a variety to the type of fanfics in this fandom. I mean, LuiWill is cool and all but… The master/servant thing in Yuki Kaori's stories is getting pretty tiring. LuiWill is so reminiscent of Cain/Riff, you know? Don't get me wrong, I love LuiWill too, but it's just too much… I'm attempting to go straight for a while… :smiles: Don't quote me on that.

And… That is all. XD I feel this fanfic is way too disorganized… x.x Lui thinks weird. O.o And I'm afraid I made him a tad OOC. :dies: I tried to the best of my abilities though, honest! Sides, people usually act weird around the one they love… Eheh. X.x