1997.12.01

Entry 13

Well, I've figured out who Harry fancies… well… loves.

: The sun wasn't even up when Harry crept into Hermione's room. He watched her sleep for a few seconds before he ran his hand through her hair. Her eyes fluttered open softly and he smiled at her.

She smiled back as her heart sped up. Her eyes closed again before they snapped open. She sat up, "No, not again, you will not drag me from this room in my knickers," she said as she clutched her blankets to her body.

Harry slipped his robe off revealing his crisp white shirt with the all of the buttons unbuttoned and his tie hanging untied over his shoulders. He wore a white shirt underneath that was tucked into his dark gray trousers.

"Let's go then," he said as he held out his robe to her.

She rolled her eyes at him and got out of bed. She let him slip the robe over her shoulders before she was pulled from the room, the pace a little slower this time. She followed him through the corridors and up the stairways, his hand holding hers tightly sending tingles through her entire body.

He stopped at the top and pulled out yet another weathered piece of parchment. Hermione held it softly in her hands as she read the words.

Hullo Lils!

Hullo James.

Love you.

Love you as well.

Hermione looked up at Harry, a little confused. He looked at her, his eyes on fire and little beads of sweat forming on his neck. She felt her heart speed up, unsure of why he'd shown her the short note.

Harry placed his hand on her jaw, cupping it softly. He smiled at her crookedly as he bit his lip. He caressed her cheek with his thumb.

Hermione brought her hand up to his.

"Hermione," he said softly before he took her free hand in his own, his other hand still cupping her jaw. He kissed the top of her fingers, "I love you."

Hermione smiled, her eyes starting to water, "I love you," she replied.

Harry stepped into Hermione, their bodies pushing against each other and he lowered his head. His lips hovered over hers as he kept his gaze locked on her eyes. "Can I kiss you?" he asked softly.

Hermione let out a soft laugh, "You better," she replied before his lips closed the distance, their eyes fluttering closed.

They both felt the world fade away, their hearts beating so fast they were sure the entire school could hear. It felt as if little sparks were exploding on their lips. Seconds later, their lips parted and Harry's tongue slipped into her mouth, setting off another shockwave in their bodies.

Hermione moved her hands to his waist and pulled his body into hers as she pushed herself onto her toes deepening the kiss. :

It's me. I…

I'm really lost for words. I was so surprised when he took me up there. The note, he showed me another note from his parents, it was so romantic. It was really short but it was just James and Lily saying they loved each other. I was so confused, it was just, a shock. I never expected Harry to fancy me. He loves me. Harry loves me and I love him. It's a shock. A complete and utter shock. I mean, I know I've loved him for a while, but how could I have missed that?

I was so focused on him liking other girls, always crossing myself off the list. I always just thought I wasn't pretty enough for him, not his type, just his friend.

Ron and Ginny knew. They knew this entire time and didn't say a word to me. I wonder how long he's fancied me. When did he first start biting his lip and blushing? When did I finally notice it?

How could they not tell me! That's like their job, to tell me things! How many times have I helped Ron with his schoolwork and Ginny and I are best friends, she should've told me!

I'm glad Harry told me. It would've been like we were children if he'd had one of his friends tell me. Like we were still too immature to approach each other.

He was definitely braver than I was. I wonder if he thought I fancied him as well. Maybe he did, but then maybe he didn't if he's waited this long to tell me. Maybe he was afraid I wouldn't fancy him back. I suppose that's why he dragged me out of bed last month in my knickers. Maybe he got scared and couldn't say it.

Though, I must say, I've never seen Harry scared or afraid. He'd never had his heart on the line before. I don't think he's ever been in love, not with Cho.

I'm glad he said it though. I'm glad I didn't have to spend the rest of my life watching him love with another witch while I was hopelessly in love with him. I'm sure I would've found someone, but Harry feels like the One. I'll only write that in here. I don't want to say it out loud and have it come back to me. What if I meet someone that I love more than Harry? Then I'd have lied.

I love Harry more than anything, though. When I realized how I felt about him, I also realized I never stop thinking about him, that I sometimes think about spending the rest of my life with him. And when he's not around I wonder what he's doing, I wonder if he's safe, I wonder if he's thinking about me.

Do those things mean he's the One? How do you know, how can you tell? Is it just something you know deep in your heart? Or does it creep up on you and scare you from behind?

If it's deep down in you heart then I know Harry is the One. Deep down in my heart I feel so much love for him that the world would stop spinning without him.

I wonder if he feels the same way. What if boys are different? What if they love a lot of girls, not just one? Ron loved Stella and they broke up last year. He's with Susan now and he loved Stella. His feelings faded, will Harry's?

Maybe I'll ask Ron, he'll know how Harry's feeling and now that Harry's told me he loves me, Ron will be able to tell me everything. He'll be able to be one of my best friends again and we won't have to keep a secret. And Ginny! I'll have Ginny to talk to about it! Not that she wasn't always there, but now we both know.

I'm really so happy that he loves me! I can't stop smiling and I'm so happy. I just, my heart is jumping, it's doing the Sirius Black happy dance. Ron kept making fun of me in class because I kept biting my lip and looking off into space.

Lavender said I was glowing, which Ginny didn't agree with, but she did say I seemed different. She also said I should get my robes hemmed and it was then I realized that I had been wearing one of Harry's robes all day.

I'm off to bed now, I can't wait until Saturday, Harry's promised we'd spend the whole day together.