Rating: M
Warnings: Slash, Mpreg,
Pairings: SS/HP
Genres: Romance, Angst, Humour, Drama, Horror, Thriller
Summary: Severus Snape walks in on a certain boy wizard in the bathroom and realises just how much he wants to be with him. He sets out to prove his feelings wrong, but ends up falling deeper in love.But Severus is a cold man, terrified of rejection- can he learn to trust the love of his life before it's too late?
A/N: Whoops...I know I should be writing more for my other fic, but I just can't concentrate. But I have loads of this fic already written, so I figured it couldn't hurt to have another on the go...Plus, I really needed to write something about Harry and Severus!
Life, Love, and Everything in Between
by SweetMercy
Chapter One: Christmas Surprise
Severus Snape was not a happy man.
Severus Snape was irritated, frustrated, aggravated, infuriated, exasperated and, frankly, was down right annoyed.
He was also disgusted by the fact that he felt some what 'horny', as teenagers say nowadays. You horny devil...
Yeah, well, the devil had to have something to do with this all right! I mean, please! It was Potter he was lusting after here! Harry James Potter. That was just…wrong! He was practically old enough to be his father! No, wait a minute…he was old enough to be his father! And besides, it was James Potter's son for crying out loud! And they virtually looked the same. But had he ever found James Potter attractive? No he had not!
Severus sighed and stopped his pacing in favour of collapsing onto the bed. The silk covers were cool and soft against his burning skin but it did nothing to calm him. He brought his hands up to his tired face and cringed inwardly at the thoughts swimming around in his head. Every time he closed his eyes he saw him; saw Potter standing there all…cute and fuckable.
Argh! No! I did not just think of Potter as 'cute'.
He snickered darkly to himself as he listened to his thoughts. He'd called him 'fuckable', yet he was worried about calling him 'cute'!
Well, duh! 'Cute' is such a feminine word, a voice said to him; Severus Snape does not use the word 'cute'.
What was he going to do? Severus Snape had found himself in many a difficult position before; he'd lied to the Dark Lord's face and gotten away with it, he'd lied to the Dark Lord's face and not gotten away with it, he'd been interrogated by the Ministry, he'd been interrogated by the Death Eaters, he'd been forced to torture, forced to rape, forced to kill; he'd even had the fact that he was 'queer' shouted all over the school by Sirius Black and James Potter. But this…this was something else.
He, Severus Snape, was lusting after Harry Potter. Yearning, longing, craving, wishing, hoping, praying. He needed Harry Potter. He wanted Harry Potter. And he was disgusted with himself.
And how had all this come about, you ask? Why was Severus Snape feeling such emotions? It was all because Severus Snape had simply needed the toilet.
He had opened the bathroom door and there, in the middle of the room, had stood Harry Potter. A very naked Harry Potter.
In those few split seconds where they had been both frozen to the spot, Severus had had just enough time to see that nature had been very kind to the boy hero. His muscular legs had possessed a comforting strength and his skin had shone with utter radiance. And as for what sat, no, dangled like sweet temptation between those heavenly legs…again, nature had been very kind indeed.
But, as always has to happen, the moment had passed and his senses had started to catch up with his brain. He'd averted his eyes as he'd muttered hurried apologies (quite out of character, Severus! he remembered chiding himself), only to see the image of naked Harry in the mirror over the sink. Feeling the colour rising in his face, (really Severus!), he'd forced his eyes to focus on the bathroom wall whilst Harry had fastened a towel (about bloody time!) around his waist. And then what had the brat gone and done? Apologised! Had said sorry as if it was his fault that Severus had walked in on him!
And that's why Severus Snape was lying stretched out across his bed at Grimmauld Place with his hands covering his face. He felt rather perverted to be feeling such things. After all, Potter had only just turned 17. And 17 wasn't much up from 16 really, was it? Yeah, ok, so 17 was the age of consent in the wizarding world and it wasn't like what he was feeling was illegal or anything but…
He signed again and ran his hands over his weary face, feeling the faint lines that age had produced in him beneath his fingers.
Potter may be legally an adult now but the facts still remained that A) Severus was 20 years older than him, (21 to be precise), meaning he was 38 years old, rapidly approaching 40 and his mid life crisis; B) He was the boy's teacher – correction; he was the boy's nasty old Potion's Professor who was despised by many (for reasons he was proud of); and C) The boy he wanted to be with was the one and only Harry Potter, boy-who-lived, The Chosen One, the one destined to kill the Dark Lord, the son of his enemy, the godson of his most hated enemy, the boy who was least likely to see something in his evil teacher, the boy who was probably as straight as they come; he was Harry James Potter, Harry – the thorn-in-his-side, the bane-of-his-adult-existence – Potter.
But what annoyed Severus Snape more than anything? It was the very obvious reality that he could no longer ignore the fact that Harry was now a man; all the evidence was there, he'd seen it when he'd walked in on Harry in the bathroom. And Merlin help him – hell, Godric, Rowena, Helga, and Salazar help him! – he wanted that man. And not just for one night either. He wanted that man for eternity. He wanted to wake up next to him, hold him in his arms, whisper sweet nothings in his ear, walk down the streets hand in hand with him, to show him off to the world, to show everyone who he was in love with and who, in return, loved him. He wanted Harry Potter all to himself.
And it hurt like hell to know that he could never have him.
Hope that was a decent beginning. I already have this story planned out so I know exaclty where I want to take it. Please Review! I will be so grateful!