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"MakeDamnSure"

You've got this new head filled up with smoke
I've got my veins all tangled close
To the jukebox bars you frequent
The safest place to hide
A long night spent with your most obvious weakness
You start shaking at the thought you are everything I want
'Cause you are everything I'm not

And we lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close (How close is close enough?)
We lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close

I just wanna break you down so badly
Well I trip over everything you say
I just wanna break you down so badly
In the worst way

My inarticulate store bought hangover hobby kit
It talks, it says, "You, oh, you are so cool."
It says, "The shade across the bed, you are red, violent red."
You hollow out my hungry eyes
You hollow out my hungry eyes

And we lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close (How close is close enough?)
We lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close

I just wanna break you down so badly
Well I trip over everything you say
Well I just wanna break you down so badly
In the worst way

I just wanna break you down so badly
Well I trip over everything you say
I just wanna break you down so badly
In the worst way (worst way)

I'm gonna make damn sure that you can't ever leave
No, you won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far from me
I'll make damn sure that you can't ever leave
No, you won't ever get too far from me

You won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far...

I just wanna break you down so badly
Well I trip over everything you say
Well I just wanna break you down so badly
In the worst way (worst way)

I'm gonna make damn sure
I just wanna break you down so badly
I just wanna break you down so badly (damn sure)
In the worst way (worst way)

I stared at the crowd after I sung the song. They were cheering and cheering. But yet the did not know the real me. Why there was a burn scar on my leg. Why I had cuts all over my arms. Why I wore a black piece of cloth on my shoulder so that the ends moved when I walked or the wind blew. Suddenly something caught my eyes as I scanned the crowd. A hooded figure. Arms crossed in an all too familiar posture. I blinked my eyes and he was gone. ' Was I seeing things?' I thought to myself. I shook it of and faked smiled. An act I put on too much.

" Thank you everyone! Now for the struggle battle you all have been waiting for!" I waved and ran off the stage. I was attacked by a group hugging me all at once.

" You did AWWWWSSOME!" Olette cried. Pence patted me on the back and Hayner punched me playfully in the arm. Roxas just smiled.

" Uhhh... Thanks guys... Do you mind If I can be alone for a while?"

" Sure!" Olette answered for everyone. I did not smile and I walked into the Alley. I leaned against the cool wall and slid down slowly. I put my hand over my pocket and reached in. My hand clasped around a cool metallic object. I haven't done this in a while. I snapped the knife open and poised the tip of the blade at the corner of my wrist. I was about to move the blade but a gloved hand suddenly stopped me from doing so.

I quickly looked up startled. I saw a cloaked figure. " Who... Are you..."

" My name is of no importance.." The man simply replied in a monotone voice.

" What do you want with me?" I asked.

" An offer. And I need to tell you something that is quite important." His bass voice echoed through the alley. He cleared his throught. " Star, You died in that fire."

" Then how the hell am I here now?" I demanded.

The man chuckled in a fake sounding way. " You are what I am, a Nobody. Someone who dies becomes a heartless. But someone with a strong heart becomes a nobody. And you in fact my dear did have a strong heart." I gulped as he continued. " A Nobody can feel hate, rage and sorrow. And can only remember love, joy and all the rest. My offer is to join my Organization 13. That is what Axel's confrontation with you was about. Our goal is to open Kingdom Hearts so we can receive our hearts back. If you join, you can be Star again. And Love Riku?" I shivered at the name and thought. What did I have to lose? If I was really dead.

" Hey, Xylia!The Superior wants to see you!" Demyx said in a sing song voice as he poked his head into the library. A blond haired girl slowly looked up from a book emotionless. Her hair was tied up with a piece of black cloth and she wore the normal Organization attire.

Saïx looked up from the other end of the table. " Demyx stop your foolishness this instant." He said emotionless.

Demyx mock saluted " Yes Sir!" grinned and walked out the door. Xylia sighed and closed the book softly. Not to long ago she was called Star. She placed the book down on the table and walked out of the room leaving her silent " Reading buddy" She ventured through the castle to Xemnas's study.

Xylia opened the door and spoke softly. " Superior, you wanted to see me?"

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I stood in front of the Real Twilight town's Mansion with my hood up. I was leaning on a fallen pillar waiting for the keyblade Master to attempt to break Roxas apart from him. From what I learned Diz used a nobody girl named Namine to mess whith him, thus the Roxas I know. Plus he was apart of the Organization and Axel's best friend. Suddenly, a spikey haired brunnet boy with a duck and dog came noisealy out of the mansion. My jaw dropped. That was Sora, Riku's friend. He looked allot like Roxas, or Roxas looked like him

Sora noticed me and walked carelessly twords me. His clothes looekd a little too small for him. " Hey, do you know where we are?" I slowly nodded. " Then tell me please."

I cleared my throught and lightly tapped his head. " Roxas! Come on out! I don't wanna harm Sora!"

Sora jumped back " What the! Who's Roxas? And how did you know my name! And who are you anyways!"

I sighed " My name is St- I mean Xylia... You don't need to know who Roxas is and... Riku. That's how I know who you are."

Sora suddenly grabbed my shoulders and shook me slightly " Riku? Do you know where he is?"

I sighed and looked down. " No, I don't."

Sora let go. " Oh, Sorry." He scratched the back of his head. My eyes started to sting.

" I need to go... goodbye Sora." I conjured a portal and stepped into it quickly.

I stumbled onto my bed in my room and shook as if I was crying. My eyes hurt as it got blurry. Was I going blind? I screamed in agony as the light from the night stand hit my blue orbs. I covered them with a gloved hand and blindly reached to the switch and sighed in contentment as the darkness cooled them. If I could cry I would, you know I would. I blindly reached for the blindfold I used as a hair tie and actually used it as a blindfold. My corn silk blond hair cascaded down to my shoulders. I was sick of it! I ran to the bathroom and reached around for the scissors.

Chop.

chop

chop.

Locks of my hair fell to the ground. Riku had said he loved it, my ugly hair. When there was an uneven cut that just barely reached my ears I fumbled around for the black hair dye I had. I followed the directions sloppily and received black hair with chunks of blond. I slid down the wall and locks of hair flew everywhere. I picked up the scissors and pulled the black glove off and cut into my porcelain skin. Cut never like I have before and It felt good. We didn't have hearts but we did bleed, a benefit.

Ding

ding

ding.

Dinner time, Heck we had to eat right? I painfully pulled myself from the floor and brushed the hair off. And walked to the dining room. On my way I met Xigbar.

" hey, Whoa! Sweet what happened?" Xigbar gasped.

I turned his way and replied in a monotone voice. " I'm blind in the light. The light burns my eyes now."

A hand on my shoulder, Axel's hand. " Maybe you should stop cutting yourself too."

I shrugged the hand off " I don't need your fake empathy,Axel."

" Aw, baby! I love you!"

" No you don't, None of us can love." and I left and walked into the dining room.

Riku

Riku

Riku

Why do I keep dreaming of him? I can't love him because I have no heart. I need to stop sleeping if I keep this up, really I do. I sat up as I heard the door click open. " Go away" I mumbled.

" aww, and I thought you cared." Axel. Why is he so screwed up?

" Go away."

" nope."

" I said go away."

" Like i said before-" I was cut off by a small flame flouting in front of my face. Shit, he sure dose know my weakness.

" Why did you do that to you hair?" I leaned over me, causing me to lie down. His hand caressed my cheek. " I liked it." His red lips brushed against my own silky pale ones.

" Get the fuck away from me Axel." i tried to push him off but he was too strong. He continued with his fake lust. He couldn't really feel the way he said he was. A bony hand trailed down my body. No reaction. I felt nothing at all. He forcefully kissed me. His disgusting tounge in my mouth. My lips felt swollen. When he broke I gasped and screamed as loud as I could. I wanted this creep away right now.

The door opened and Saïx's monotone voice loomed through the dark room. " Axel, stop your cocky foolishness and leave. You are disgusting." Thankfully, he left. I was never going back to sleep.