A/N- Okay, guys. This is it. It's been a great ride, but it's time to say goodbye. I'll miss it, and I hope you guys enjoyed it.
Goodbye, De mon Coeur au Tien…
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Epilogue – I told you I couldn't do it without her
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Tom stumbled out of the double doors, a sight to be seen. His normally gelled, perfect hair was disheveled in every direction, his normally clear eyes were clouded with pain and distraught, and he could barely even stand on his own two feet. By some miracle, he made it to his car without falling and breaking his gorgeous ex-boybander face.
Tom sat back in the driver's seat of his Viper, his mind blurry with memories. Every moment he had spent with Jude was running through his mind, every detail crystal clear. Every breath that left her delicate mouth, every strand of hair she brushed out of her bright blue eyes, every moment she spent wanting what he was afraid to give.
But he wasn't afraid anymore. But now it was too late. What he was truly afraid of was now the sad reality. A life without Jude. A life he knew was not worth living. A life he never thought would truly come. A life he was stuck with forever.
But maybe not.
The only thing in his mind was the image of Jude's smiling face. But that was all he needed, right? To remember her?
Kwest wanted him to forget. Portia wanted him to forget. Brigitte wanted him to forget. Sadie…well, deep down, she didn't want to forget her sister and move on. Tom knew it. But Kwest was "helping her heal".
How could she heal? Didn't she love her sister? Tom's heart was broken into a million tiny pieces and if he let it heal, Jude would really be gone. He wouldn't be able to remember the smile that lit up his life for two years. If he let his heart heal, he'd forget her. And he couldn't forget the only girl he'd ever loved.
Healing was not an option. Not for anyone who truly loved Jude. He owed it to her to keep her memory alive, if he body couldn't be. He would fix his mind on her for the rest of his life, if meant he could keep Jude with him forever.
Because he truly wasn't strong enough to live his life without her. He never had been. Everything in his life truly came down to Jude. From staying at G Major, to being with Sadie, to facing all of his fears. Everything he had accomplished and failed at, it had all been because of Jude.
This realization hit him like a stone. Life was not possible without Jude. Every single thing he wanted in his future had her in it. A family. Their own studio. A house with a big yard. Everything had all been for her. Jude.
Tom reached down and put the car in drive, pulling away from the curb. He felt the car moving unsteadily down the road, shifting with each passing foot. But he didn't care. The only girl he had ever loved was under six feet of dirt, and his soul was mourning.
His left hand slipped off the steering wheel, falling to his lap. His eyes drifted to the passenger seat, a vivid image of Jude's sleeping body filling his mind. He smiled and remembered when he finally told her a little bit of how he felt. But she had been asleep. Just his luck, right?
But Lady L uck had never been with him, really. If you think about it. From the death of his mother, to screwing up his life with Boyz Attack, to hurting Jude, to hurting Brigitte, to losing Jude.
He had nothing left.
Tom concentrated back on the road, his mind set on that final thought. I have nothing left. I have nothing left. I have nothing left. Closing his eyes, he pressed his right foot down to the floor, the familiar and exhilarating rush filling his body.
"I'm coming, Jude. I love you," he whispered, as he felt his body crash forward against the steering wheel and his mind went black.
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("Taps" sounds in the background) De mon Coeur au Tien… (sighs) May it rest in peace. Leave me one last review! Is it bad I feel like something's dying now that this fic's done? I don't know what I'm gonna do when "Bulletproof" is finished… :(
I love you guys. Your support meant the world to me, and I'll miss every one of you! What did you think?