Harry walked into the Room of Requirements to see it in the form of their usual hangout. A song he had never heard before was playing and she was just sitting in the dark, probably crying, but he couldn't tell.
Run Away!
I'm all alone but that's okay
Turn around!
I'm gonna leave this stupid town.
Let it go!
Just Callin' ahead to let you know
That I don't care
Cuz now I'm gone and it's your fault.
Cuz now I'm gone and it's your fault.
"Hey Harry. We saw these guys live one time…" She said weakly. He was right, she was crying.
"Hey 'Mione. I'm not going to ask if you're okay," she snorted, "but I would like to know how you're holding up."
"Crappy… I wasn't supposed to see him again." She said softly. "He left, and it hurt. And it didn't stop hurting. I finally get over him, and then h-he shows back up. I mean, what the Fuck? Who does he think he is?"
It started outDidn't know what to expect
It ended hard
And he wanted to forget
She was the girl
He had always dreamed about
He got the balls
To finally ask her out
Shot him downBroke his heart
Broke his heart
(broke his heart)
Standing there all alone
And he's all alone again
Again
"He's a jerk is who he is." Said Draco from the doorway.
"Absolutely. I wouldn't touch him with a nine-foot pole, and we all know what a hooker I am. I mean, I dated Harry for Circe's Sake." Said Davis with a smile. Hermione gave a feeble laugh.
"Come on you guys, as much as I'm sure she appreciates the gesture, a good laugh is probably not what she needs right now." Said Kenzie.
"You want us to leave Mione?" Asked Allen, getting up from where he had been sitting on the ground.
"No… I just… I don't want to think about it. I just want to forget for now. I'll face it later of course. But just for now…"
"We get it 'Mione. I know a couple things that we could do, but you don't look like you're in the mood to mosh so… what do we need for a calm numbness Dray?
"Hmm a calming drought would, needless to say, calm us, but we'd still have our brain going. Our best bet is gillyweed and maybe a stiff drink to get you going.""Sounds good to me." Grinned Blaise.
"You just want some gillyweed." She half sobbed half laughed."Just a little. But still, not a bad idea?"
"No, it's not."
He packed his bagsAnd now he's out the door
His sweet shoes and
Car's from 74
He tried to leave
And got into his car
The tier's flat
And he didn't get to far
Tried to leave
No one knows, no one cares
(no one cares)
Sick of any, sick of it
And he's all alone again
Again!Ten minutes later found the entire group sitting in a circle around a table that held a bottle of fire whiskey, seven shot glasses, a bag of gillyweed, and a small glass pipe.
"To forgetting." Said Kenzie lifting her glass.
"To forgetting." The rest echoed before throwing back their glasses.
Run Away!
I'm all alone but that's okay
Turn around!
I'm gonna leave this stupid town.
Let it go!
Just Callin' ahead to let you know
That I don't care
Cuz now I'm gone and it's your fault.
Cuz now I'm gone and it's your fault.
Colors, sounds, all of it was there, but it wasn't. The gillyweed was working and she felt herself slowly dissent into nothing. She was nothing. Her friends? Things that happened to breath as she did. The school? A giant building.
Nothing.
Nothing.
Nothing.
Dumbledore? Guy with a funny name. Voldemort? Even funnier name. Isaiah? Ha!
Nothing is nothing is nothing.
She laughed in a dull way, which made her laugh even more. A dull laugh? Who'd ever heard of such a thing? Next to her Draco gave a dizzy sort of giggle, and that set them all off.
It bubbled up from her chest and consumed her, the laughter. She couldn't stop. It was loud and horse from her crying. Loud loud loud. And Rich, much too rich, like triple chocolate cake that you can only eat half of before you have to put it down or puke. Too much for her tiny body to contain. It almost hurt bursting forth from her as it was. She laughed until it became something of a scream. It was still a laugh on the outside, but to her it felt more like a call for help, for anything.
I've got to get way
Run away!
And this call, this sick pathetic laughing, was all she had. She soon began to encourage it, because it was her last thread, if she did have this laugh she would fall.
She would fall and there would be nothing, she would be alone in her nonexistence, as alone as she was now, but she wouldn't have the laugh to keep her company. Just silence, cruel silence. And after that… she didn't know what, and that was just as scary.
I've got to get way
Run away!
I've got to get way
Run away!
I've got to get way
Run away!
I've got to get way
Run awaaaay!
When Harry woke up several hours later the Come and Go Room was nearly empty except for Alan, who always seemed to get more out of these sorts of things.
Shaking his head, he walked over to him and shook him awake.
"Wha-huh?"
"I'm going back to my dorm, you need help getting back to yours?"
"Nah, I'll sleep it off here, danks." And then he sat back to sleeping.
Harry stood and retrieved his jacket before heading for the door. "Don't let anybody in that Alan wouldn't want in, in." he asked the room as he left.
The castle was quiet and he probably would have found his stroll a little suspenseful, as he usually did, if not for the gillyweed that now just made it seem peaceful. All illusions were shattered when he opened the portrait.
"-think I notice, because I do!"
"What? You know what? I change my mind: you are an idiot! Harry is my best friend just as he is yours! I'm no more attracted to him than you."
Ron hesitated and all three of them knew why. That was a low blow for Hermione but she gave no indication that she knew.
"Then where are you sneaking off too then? And what about him? He just happens to go missing the same nights as you? And you can't come up for an excuse for dinner tonight."
"You know what Ron? You're just such a-a …ahhh! I don't even know what to say to you! What do you think happened tonight? You think I just stormed out of dinner because I just had to have him?" Said Hermione exasperated.
"I don't know what happened but it would be nice if somebody told me!"
Harry decided he'd better sleep it of in the Come and Go room as well.
Hey all. If you've read 'My Secret Summer' then you'll recognize the band R58 whose song was used in this chappie.