A/N: Hey everyone! I'm finally back! I'm so sorry it took so long to update my story… for a while I didn't have internet access but I'm very happy that I do now… I'll be able to update a lot quicker than before! Hopefully I can update once a week, but if not then two weeks at the most… I decided to make this chapter longer than the previous two chapters since it has been so long. And I hope you all enjoy it! -smiles-
Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto, but I do own a Kakashi T-shirt and wrist bands! -
Snow Chapter 3: Contemplation/ Doctors Appointment
As Sakura coughed and struggled to breathe, to fill her lungs with air again, Sasuke calmly left the room and returned with a glass of water, telling Sakura to drink it and to calm down. Nodding her head, Sakura did as she was told and took the water from Sasuke's hand and took a few gulps, refreshing her dry throat. Calmly Sakura took a few breaths and set the full glass of water down on her night stand.
"Thank you, Sasuke." she said not looking up from her gaze on the floor. She didn't want to look up, too embarrassed by herself the way she had cried so hard over a meaningless dream. But it wasn't meaningless. Not to her. Seeing her lover dead on the bed like that, all covered in his own blood. It was absolutely horrifying.
"Hn." was the response Sasuke gave. He didn't feel the need to say anything more. Even if he did want to say more he wouldn't. That's just the way he was. So cold and distant, but caring when he wants to be and in his own way.
"You should get some sleep Sakura." she looked up when he said this and barely nodded. She wasn't sure if she would be able to sleep. It almost scared her to think about sleep and what came with it.
"You're right!" she smiled happily, lying badly. Sasuke could easily see through her fake smile. He could see and hear the fear and the uneasiness about her. She really was annoying. The way she lies just to make others happy and so they won't worry about her. It only made them worry more.
Wait….. Did he just admit that he was worried about her?
Sasuke let out a breath, this annoyed him so much. He hated dealing with emotions and he especially hated dealing with emotions about others!
"Good night Sasuke." Sakura's voice cut into his thoughts, pulling him back to reality.
"Night." was all he said and quietly left Sakura's room and returned to his own.
Sakura laid back down on her bed clutching her pillow tightly, trying not to cry again. Breathing deeply, breath after breath, she slowly slipped back into a dreamless sleep.
... The next day… ...
Waking up the next morning Sakura got out of bed to get ready to go to the hospital. Walking into her bathroom she locked the door and got into the shower to clean up before she left. She was supposed to be there at eight o'clock in the morning, and at the moment it was six fifty-two. Sakura had a little over and hour to get there leaving enough time to have breakfast and get dressed.
After about fifteen minutes Sakura stepped out of the shower and dried herself off. Then walking into her bedroom from the bathroom she sat on her bed for a second before getting up and walking over to her dresser. Opening the top drawer Sakura pulled out a white bra and put it on and then pulled out a matching pair of underwear with a tiny pink bow on the front. Slipping those on she closed the drawer and then opened the next one and pulled out a pair of black pants and slipped them on. Next she closed the drawer and opened the last and final drawer pulling out a light pink top that fit over her seven month large stomach.
Quickly brushing her hair she walked out to the kitchen and began making a meal for three. She figured as soon as she started to cook Naruto would smell it and wake up. And knowing Naruto he would start whining and asking when it would be done. And all of that would wake Sasuke up causing Sakura to need to make more food making her late to her doctor's appointment. So better safe than sorry.
Sakura pulled out a frying pan from one of the lower cabinets in the kitchen then placed it on the stove turning it on to about 4 ½, medium heat. Then she got out a medium pot and placed it on the stove as well. Walking over to the refrigerator she opened it and took out the eggs and the package of bacon. Closing the door she behind her she walked back to the stove and placed a few strips of bacon in the pan. As the bacon cooked she got out a spatula and a large spoon from one of the drawers close to her, then she cracked open a few eggs on the side of the pot she had placed on the stove and let the yolk of the egg fall into the pan.
After about fifteen minutes Sakura had finally finished making breakfast for Naruto, Sasuke and herself. And as she had predicted Naruto came out of his bedroom down the hall and began complaining very loudly that he was hungry and that the food she made smelled good.
"Sakura-Chan! That food smells sooo good!" he semi-yelled semi-said quietly, but that seems to be impossible for even him.
"Naruto, don't you know how to be quiet? It's very early in the morning. People are sleeping!"
"Eh? What time is it?" Naruto asked scratching his head in confusion.
"It's seven twenty-six, Naruto. Don't you ever look at your clock in the morning?" sighed Sakura.
Naruto just continued scratching the back of his head only this time as he laughed nervously. Sasuke walked into the room looking as stotic as ever.
Sakura smiled like nothing had happened the night before, "Good morning, Sasuke-kun!"
Sasuke looked over at her and nodded not noticing the added suffix on his name, "Morning."
"I made some breakfast for everyone so just get your plates it you're hungry, alright?" Sakura smiled again. Sasuke and Naruto just nodded and went over and began making their plates.
"Good morning, teme." Naruto said to Sasuke as he finished making his plate and walked over to the table to eat.
Sasuke nodded in response, "Dobe" he said as a 'good morning' to Naruto. Even though they are a lot older than twelve and thirteen they still continue to call each other the 'nicknames' they had given each other when they were that age.
Sakura quickly got her plate as well and ate her food as quick as she could, but not fast enough to look like she was dieing of hunger or fast enough to make her throw up. Since she was pregnant she knew what she should and shouldn't do when eating.
After a few minutes Sakura finally finished her meal. Sasuke was still working on finishing his food and Naruto was almost done with his seconds. He could still eat as much and as fast as a few years ago when he was twelve. I don't think he will ever change.
Sakura quietly got up and placed her now empty plate in the sink. It was Naruto's turn to wash dishes today. Sakura grinned a little to herself. She loved to hear Naruto whine about having to do the dishes and then finally give up looking defeated. It always made her smile. She also loved the way Sasuke would hit him to make him be quiet. She just couldn't help but laugh at that. The only time she doesn't enjoy Naruto's whining and Sasuke getting angry and hitting him is whenever she's not feeling too well from her pregnancy. It tends to make her depressed being an unwed mother and it's not like she can confide in anyone about it because of the secret relationship she had, had with Kakashi. She couldn't stand to have lost him and then to find out that she's pregnant with his child…
"Sakura" Sasuke's voice cut through her thoughts bringing her back to reality.
"Huh?" she blinked in confusion.
"You're going to be late." realization dawned on Sakura as soon as Sasuke said those words.
"Oh my God!" Sakura exclaimed with wide eyes. With her mind racing Sakura ran to her bedroom and grabbed her purse and rushed to the door almost forgetting to put on her shoes and coat before she left. Sasuke shook his head and Naruto cracked up laughing clutching his sides as he fell back in his chair hitting the floor hard. Before disappearing out the door Sakura gave him a glare.
"Naruto! You're doing dishes for the rest of the week!" Sakura yelled slamming the door behind her angrily.
Naruto groaned and whined that it wasn't fair, and unfortunately for him today was only Monday. Sasuke let out a small smirk and then walked back to his room to get his training gear so that he wouldn't have to listen to more of Naruto's obnoxious whining.
As Sakura rushed down the currently empty streets of Konoha that were covered in snow, Sakura thought about what Kakashi would say, if he was still around, about her having a baby, his baby. Would he be happy or would he not like it? Would he have left her? No… Kakashi would never do that to anyone, would he? The thought brought tears to her eyes. Would Kakashi have totally abandoned her and the baby so that their secret wouldn't be found out? No, he wouldn't have done that to her and their unborn baby. He couldn't. Kakashi was a loving, caring person. He would have gone through the pain and humiliation with Sakura if he was still here, wouldn't he have? Sakura couldn't help but be negative about it all. Right now she just didn't understand it. Why did Kakashi have to die at a time like this? She never even got to tell him that she was pregnant. Did he just give up on life all of a sudden during that mission? Didn't he know that she would always be there for him? Sakura would have given up her life for him if need be.
Looking up from the ground Sakura noticed she was standing in front of the Konoha Hospital. 'I'm here already?' slowly Sakura walked up the steps and through the double doors. The nurse at the front desk smiled at her.
"Good morning Sakura-Chan. Tsunade-sama is waiting for you." Sakura nodded and smiled back at her co-worker and friend.
"Thank you, Misha-Chan." Sakura said briefly and headed down the white hallway and into one of the small rooms. After a few minutes Tsunade came into the room holding a clipboard of paper with Sakura's information on it.
"Good morning Sakura." Tsunade said looking up from the clipboard. "How is my favorite apprentice today?" Sakura smiled at Tsunade's question.
"I'm doing okay, Tsunade-shishou." she smiled at her sensei. Tsunade smiled and nodded.
"Good, good." she said as she looked back down at the clipboard in her hand to remind herself of what they were to do today. She smiled to herself, then look back up at Sakura. "Okay Sakura. Are you ready to see whether you baby is a boy or a girl?"
"Hai, Tsunade-shishou! I'm ready." Sakura smiled softly, her tone softening as she spoke. "I've been ready for quite a while." Tsunade heard the motherly tone in Sakura's voice and smiled. Her student that she had practically raised was truly becoming a woman, a mother no less. Tsunade was proud of Sakura, and she believed that she could handle being a mother. She had the perfect patience for a job as tough and as stressful as this one that she would have only in a matter of a few months.
"Alright Sakura, just lay down on the bed and relax for me. You know the procedure you've done this plenty of times with your patients." Tsunade smiled as Sakura laid down on the bed with pillows behind her back to help her sit up a little bit as this certain procedure required her to do. Tsunade sat down behind her, and turned on the ultrasound machine. As she waited for it to turn on completely she walked over and pulled out some rubber gloves, pulling them on she grabbed the gel needed. Unscrewing the cap she put some on a square piece of cotton.
"Now this will be a little cold, alright?" she warned Sakura before rubbing the gel on her pregnant belly. Sakura nodded to her knowing how cold it was to the skin. Tsunade then rubbed it on her stomach, and looked over to the machine seeing that it was now ready for use. "Okay, now, would you like to know the gender or do you want to wait a while for me to tell you?" Tsunade asked her all the questions required of a medical specialist to ask a patient.
"Tsunade-shishou, you know that I want to know it now. I just told you that moments ago!" Sakura said slightly angered that Tsunade had asked her again even though she knew that she was only doing her job.
"Calm down Sakura. No need to get worked up over a simple question." Tsunade reasoned. Sakura nodded.
"Gomen Tsunade-shishou. I didn't mean to. Its' just the damned hormones." Sakura tried to explain herself, feeling a little embarrassed with herself.
"I know it is." Tsunade chuckled slightly as Sakura's blush turned the shade as her hair. Oh how Sakura really hated having pink hair at the moment.
Tsunade placed the detector (a/n: I haven't a clue what that thingy is called so I'm calling it a detector lol -) on Sakura's stomach and moved it around slowly until she could see the baby on the screen. When the baby appeared she smiled.
"Look Sakura." she said softly. "There's your baby." Sakura smiled softly and began to break into tears realizing that Kakashi would never be able to see his son or daughter. Sakura layed her head back as she stared at the tiny being that lives within her womb. She began to imagine what it would have been like if Kakashi was alive and he had come with her. It would have been perfect. Her tears wouldn't be over something as sad as this, but over the fact that she would have a future with Kakashi and their child for as long as they lived. They would raise their child to be a strong shin obi just like they are. Kakashi would say that she has made him the happiest man in the whole would, and that would make her equally as happy. But… none of that would happen because he was gone. She knew she to move on, but how could she? He was the father of her child and once was her secret lover who loved her for her, and didn't care what anyone else thought if they were to find out about them. Sakura wouldn't have cared either, she loved him for him and they both needed each other equally. Sakura needed him now, but she couldn't have him back no matter how much she prayed.
Tsunade furrowed her brow as she watched her student cry over something that she couldn't help her with. She didn't know what was wrong, and she wished that Sakura would tell her what she was upset over, but she knew that wouldn't happen; Sakura was way too stubborn to tell her.
"Sakura," Tsunade interrupted Sakura's train of thought getting her attention.
"Y-Yes, Tsunade-shishou?" Sakura choked back her sobs as she wiped ferociously at the tears that didn't seem to want to stop falling.
"Sakura, your baby is a girl." she smiled at her trying to tear Sakura away from her saddening thoughts. Sakura smiled brightly, still crying a little.
"Really, Tsunade-shishou??" she squeaked out with joy filling her face washing away the sorrow as if it had never been there. The only evidence that it had been on her face was the tear stained face and her puffy eyes. "I wanna see!" she said excitedly.
Tsunade smiled and pointed out the baby's head and then the legs and the arms. Sakura smiled, she was so happy that she was having a little girl. Ever since she was little she had wanted to have a daughter some day and now she's finally giving birth to that daughter she had dreamed about so many times before. Of course then she had been dreaming that she would marry Sasuke, and it would be his child. She had big dreams back then. Sasuke would be hers and he would finally show her affection and allow her to see his real self. In reality she really had gotten her wish, but with Kakashi, and she couldn't be happier. She just wished Kakashi was still alive, and with her to share her dream.
"Sakura, your next appointment is next month." Tsunade said pulling Sakura out of her thoughts. Sakura looked over at her and nodded. "Lets get this gel off of your stomach now." she smiled and took a rag and dipped it into a small bowl of water then ringing it out so that it was damp, and wiped the gel off of Sakura's belly. "Alright, there you go." she smiled again.
"Alright Tsunade-shishou. Thank you." she said getting up from her spot in a daze. "I suppose that I'll see you then." Tsunade nodded, and walked her to the door of the hospital room. "Good-bye Tsunade-shishou."
"Good-bye, Sakura." she smiled and walked away to her next patient. Sakura made her way to the desk where she's to pay for the appointment and then slowly making her way to the door after paying, and then walking back out into the still cold streets of Konoha.
When she stepped out of the doors the first face she saw was that of Ino's. the blonde kunoichii yelled out to her and smiled brightly.
"Sakura!" she screamed while waving. "Sakura what are you doing here at the hospital?" she questioned.
"You don't know?" Sakura raised an eyebrow. "I just saw what sex my baby is." Ino's face brightened.
"Well, what is it?" she squealed excitedly. Sakura took a second to decide whether or not she should tell her, and just let her continue guessing.
"That's for me and the baby to know! You to find out!" Sakura went for the second choice. For now she wanted to let Ino keep guessing. It would be just too much fun.
"Aww! Sakura, come on! You have to tell me I'm your best friend!" Ino whined.
"Who said that you were my best friend?" Sakura joked. Ino's eyes widened and Sakura began laughing and laughing.
"That's a mean joke." Ino said sadly.
"I'm sorry Ino-Chan. I just want everyone to find out when the baby is born, okay?" Sakura said sweetly.
"Okay fine, but don't expect me to tell you anything for a while." Ino said implying her secrets that she normally shared with her Sakura shrugged.
"Okay, that's just fine with me Ino pig." Sakura smirked. "I'm sure that you'll tell me eventually." Ino smiled back.
"You're right, but that won't happen until the baby is born, forehead girl." Ino smirked.
"That's okay, I can wait three months." Sakura said smirking in return. Sakura threw her arms around Ino in a hug and Ino copied her actions, smiling.
"Sakura-Chan, wanna get a bite to eat?" Ino asked pulling away slowly. Sakura smiled and softly spoke.
"I'd love to Ino-Chan, but I've already eaten. We can go some where and you can eat I'll just have some tea, 'kay?" she compromised with Ino wanting to have some time to talk to her friend.
"Okay! How about we go to the tea shop down the road from my mom's flower shop?" Ino suggested. "It may not look it at first but they serve really good food there too!" Sakura nodded happily holding on to her stomach.
"Now I wish that I hadn't eaten this morning. It sounds like the food is delicious!" Sakura whined as they headed away from the hospital and in the direction of the teashop Ino had told Sakura about. Ino smiled and laughed; it had been a while since she had talked to her best friend. She missed it.
Taking a deep breath of the cold winter air Sakura felt chills run down her spine causing her to remember when Kakashi would walk her home after she got off of work in the winter and put an arm around her shoulders to 'keep her warm' as he would say. He didn't want her to catch a cold, that was his excuse. Sakura always enjoyed it and knew why he was really putting his arm around her. It made her happy to think of how much he had loved her, but then again it made her sad because she knew that he'd never put his arm around her again. Everything reminded her of him, nothing would allow her to forget him. She could almost hear his voice saying her name, it sounded so nice.
"Sakura." she smiled again.
"Sakura!" Ino almost yelled, getting frustrated with her friend. She had spaced out again into her thoughts. Sakura blinked.
"Huh?" Sakura asked looking over toward Ino.
"Sakura we're here, the Konoha Tea Shop." Ino told Sakura calmly. "Man when you space out you really space out! Where do you go when you start thinking, huh?" Ino placed her hands on her hips raising a blonde eyebrow.
"Oh, I'm sorry Ino…" Sakura said quietly. "Let's just have some tea now, shall we?" Sakura placed her best smile on her face trying to hide her sorrow and disappointment. Ino nodded and they both headed inside the warm shop sitting themselves down at a booth next to the window. After ordering their tea and Ino's food Ino tried to think of something to talk about that would get Sakura's mind off of what ever she kept spacing out about.
"Hey Sakura guess what?" Ino smiled brightly at the pink haired girl in front of her.
"What?" Sakura asked half-heartedly. Ino frowned slightly felling concerned as to how Sakura's mental health was.
"Shika-kun and I are going out now!" Ino giggled happily causing Sakura to roll her eyes a little annoyed with how Ino could be. She just had to rub the relationship thing in her face! Ino didn't know it but that's what she was upset about! Losing someone that she had loved! She'd been left all alone and was broken hearted about everything and no one would leave her alone by herself so that she could think! Tsunade had made her move in with Sasuke and Naruto so that they could keep an eye on her. It's not like she was going to kill herself!! She hated it all! All she wanted to do was mourn over her loss, but no! They thought she might get herself sick or do something to herself! Why did anyone ever fucking care? They need to leave her alone and maybe everything would be fine!
"That's great Ino, but you've already told me before. Did you forget?" Sakura snapped at her feeling angry and upset. "I'm gonna go. See you around Ino-Chan." Sakura got up from the booth and walked out the door needing to get away, leaving a shocked Ino behind.
She needed to go to the memorial stone, she needed to be alone with her thoughts, just needed to cry for a little while. Sakura hurried down the streets of Konoha to the place that she regularly visited now that Kakashi was gone. She would mourn for him and for herself. She's had so much loss in her life she couldn't take it, but Kakashi was there to cheer her up, to love her and to make her happy. He made everything alright again, but when he died her world came crashing down around her. First Sasuke left her, then Naruto too, sure she has both of them back now but they left her none-the-less. After Naruto left her parents were killed on a mission, it was bad enough that they were never home but then they were gone forever. And now Kakashi has left Sakura too, she felt like she was going to die of sorrow, her heart ached so badly. She has suffered so much and she can't even get a break.
She was almost to the memorial stone as tears stung her eyes. She was tired from running and the cold bitter air made it worse on her. She needed to get there, she need to keep going. Her body wanted to stop so badly, but she continued to push herself harder. Nearing the clearing where the cold stone memorial resided she smiled bitterly to herself as her mind blanked and her vision turned to black. Her body was worn out from emotional stress and from the physical stress she had put on it to get there, running through snow, making it colder than it really was. She knew she shouldn't have done it, but she really didn't care at the time. She collapsed onto the ground landing on her back as she passed out and fell into the snow falling into a cold deep sleep. No one knew she had gone there, nor did they know where she was at all.
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