Distractions

I can't let myself be distracted. There are too many tings I still have to do. I can pull through, if I just focus. There are just so many things to distract me, though. I have to stop remembering how her lithe form felt under my own. There can be no more recalling the soft little gasps that escaped from her mouth. I need to stop thinking of how she called out my name over and over in pure ecstasy. There are still marks along my back from her nails, but those will eventually heal. I have to forget her. There can be no more secret meetings and tender embraces. I have to forget Tifa Lockhart. There's only one problem. I love her…

"Reno…don't leave yet. Just stay a bit longer…" Tifa mumbled softly, grabbing onto Renos' wrist. He gulped nervously, already feeling guilty about what he had to do. Shaking his head sadly, he murmured quietly, "You know I can't, Tifa… What if someone sees me? It's bad enough that I had to come onto the Highwind. You should have come into town, you know… It would have been simpler that way…" Tifa sighed and looked up at him with desperate eyes. Reno gave in and lay back down beside her, wrapping his arms tightly around her nimble form.

"I know all that… But the risk of getting caught was a little…exciting… Don't you think?" Tifa questioned, snuggling into his arm. Reno chuckled quietly, knowing Cloud slept right next door, and gave her a small smirk. "And that's how I know you've been around me too long. I've started to corrupt you…" He murmured, and lightly tapped her on the nose. Tifa gave him a small smile and stuck out her tongue in his direction. "You know you thought it was fun. Every second there was the threat of getting caught. The thrill of risking everything for a single moment of passion…it got you even harder, didn't it?" The suggested made him recoil slightly. He never imagined her to say something like that… He really was getting to her. It was definitely time to let her go.

Tifa gently nipped at his neck and smiled as she burrowed her face into his neck. Reno gave her a small smirk and tucked a long lock of hair behind her ear. "There's something we have to talk about…" Tifa murmured quietly. Reno cast his eyes downward, not wishing to meet her gaze. "I know… There's something I think we should talk about, too…" Tifa swallowed the lump in her throat and gazed up at him with questioning eyes. "Ok, you go first." She whispered, inching closer to him.

This was going to be hard. He couldn't even look at her. As he sat up in the bed, he turned away from her, facing her wall. "Tifa…we can't do this anymore…" He murmured. Tifas' face fell, and tears brimmed in her eyes. With everything she had, she hoped she had heard wrong. "What…?" "No more secret meetings; no more midnight rendezvous; no more sneaking around behind our friends' backs. I just can't do this anymore, Tifa… I have a job, a nice, steady job-" Tifa cut him off, "You're a Turk! How can that be 'a nice, steady job'? Everyday we're apart, I wonder whether I'm going to see you ever again! I'm always wondering where you are, and if you've found someone to replace me!" Tifa whispered harshly as she sat up, holding her bed-sheet close to her naked body beneath.

Reno squeezed his eyes shut; he knew this was wrong. "Exactly…there are too many distractions, for me and you. Neither of us can do what we're supposed to be doing, because we're too busy thinking about the other. Every minute, I'm wondering if that ass, Cloud, has tried to jump your bones; if you've been seriously injured, or killed. I never know where you are, and it kills me, Tifa…" Tifas' eyes brimmed with tears and she placed a hand against her stomach. "But, Reno…" She started, but he was already getting out of her bed. He pulled on his pants, and murmured, "We can't do this anymore, Tifa… You and I both know that. All we are to each other is a distraction."

Tears trailed down her cheeks and she slammed her fist on the bed, "No!" She looked up at him and pleaded, "Please, Reno, don't leave me… You can't. Not now… You can't leave me now, Reno. I need you…" Reno glanced down at her, and shook his head sadly. "I'm sorry, Tifa…I really am. But…we just can't do this anymore. I'm sorry." He knelt down, and clasped her hands in his. Tifa looked down at her bed sheets as sobs slowly overtook her body. He gently kissed her forehead, and put on the rest of his clothes. "Good bye, Tifa…" He murmured, and quietly exited her room.

The only sound in her room was the small, trembling sobs emitting from her throat. Finally, she looked up at the door where he had exited only a few minutes ago. "Reno, you have to listen to me, though… Because…I'm pregnant…" She murmured,

and broke out into sobs once more.