A/N: EVERYONE LISTEN UP!!!!!!!!!!

Due to being lost creatively and needing some guidance a few things are happening.

(1)WE ARE HAVING A VOTE:

Choose 1 only:

a) Revamp James and Lily: A Hogwarts Story (probably will take two weeks maybe more)

b) Finish your fic then revamp it you lousy &#

or

c) Just put up the next chapter there's nothing wrong with the first 18 chapters

(2) Fall to the Dusk will be leaving us. I'm sorry but it's just not working out to be a fan fic. It's making a really awesome story though. It will be taken down March first.

(3) Some of you may have seen my profile. I tend to update it if I haven't written in awhile. But anyways….

"After I finish JL: aHS: I have part of it's sort of sequel started already. Harry is the main character. The main pairing is Harry/Ginny. It's not going to change so don't ask. It's AU and will feature roles from: Paige(in prologue) Now also in more of the story to Cassie to Sirius to Remus to Charlie to fun OCs to the golden trio to Neville. After I am officially halfway through JL: aHS I will put out a summery."

(4) I'M LOOKING FOR A BETA!!!! FOR BOTH JL: aHS and it's sequel which is about a third through the first chapter. IF ANYONE IS INTERESTED PLEASE LEAVE A REVIEW OR EMAIL ME. Thank you.

Disclaimer:

(ninja dressed figure rappelled down the side of a building)

Me: I will have m Sirius lack cut out even if I have o break into Poizon's house (sorry Poizon)

(break window and grab the cut out while alarms start going off)

Me: #&!

(runs away into the night)

Me: Don't sue me!!!!!!!!!!!

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Something missing

Left behind

Search in circles

Every time I try

I've been here before

I've seen you before

I can't escape winding down these halls

Hard to find a place where there are no walls

And no lines begging me to cross

Only straight ahead better move along

Like Clockwork

I commit the crime

I pretend to be

everything they like

These Walls by Trapt

Chapter 18: If I Could Fall

Mrs. Potter was not very happy when she returned home, three letters clutched in her right hand, to find her son, her ward and his two best friends, one who lived with them and one who might as well, unaccounted with no note or message of any kind. In her and her husband's line of business finding your young charges when returning home was never a good sign and with James…he always had attracted trouble, ever since he was a baby and found that if he wiggled his nose just the right way a door could unlock.

Carefully closing the living room door behind her, she placed the letters down on the table and walk through the room cautiously. When she found those boys….

'And you might want to lock the liquor cabinet from now on when you go on life threatening missions. Just a thought.'

Eyes narrowed in suspicion, Mrs. Potter approached the liquor cabinet to find the door slightly ajar, a single bottle of Firewhisky missing. Of course, she probably should seen this coming, she thought, given that James and Sirius were nearly seventeen, almost of age, and they never seemed to avoid trouble. Still she put on her best angry other expression and took a deep breath. 'JAMES POTTER! SIRIUS BLACK!'

She waited a second impatiently then Sirius' head popped into the room. 'Hey Mrs. P your back!'

'Young man,' Mrs. Potter started. 'Why is there a bottle missing.'

'Of what?' Sirius asked genuine confusion on his face as he came over to stand beside her. 'I didn't take anything Mrs. Potter, I've been working on my baby all day.'

'Then…' Mrs. Potter trailed off. 'James?'

'Prongs?' Sirius asked confused. 'Where is he?'

'He's not with you?' She asked searching Sirius' face then her mouth thinned into a grim line. 'Get Cassie; we're going to find him.'

It took the three of them twenty minutes to find James. After Cassie finally admitted James was still having nightmares and suggested checking by the old pond, they found him, sprawled out, coat half undone in snow.

'Prongs!'

'James!'

Cassie and Sirius both rushed over to were Mrs. Potter knelt in the snow beside her unconscious son. 'Cassie, Sirius get him inside quickly.'

Cassie nodded reaching down with Sirius, the back of her hand brushing his frozen face. 'He's so cold.'

'I'm sorry, Mrs. P,' Sirius said as they lifted James up. 'I didn't know he was drinking.'

'It's fine, dear,' Mrs. Potter said kindly, forcing a half smile as her sad eyes raked over her son looking for injury. 'I just don't know why he would come out here when he wasn't focused.'

'He loved that pond,' Cassie commented her voice wheezing slightly from strain. 'It was his favorite place in the world, even more than the Quidditch pitch before….' Cassie trailed of looking down at her foster brother's face sadly.

'Will he be okay, Mrs. P?'

Mrs. Potter just continued to look down at her son running her fingers through his pitch black hair. 'He might be a little sick for awhile, Sirius, dear.'

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When James woke from his sleep filled with vague images and half emotions, he woke to being almost completely naked in a warm bed someone hugging him from behind. Letting out a shaky breath he rolled over to see he familiar face of Cassie, her arms around him, half asleep herself.

'AHHHHH!!!!!!' James yelled twisting around so he fell out of bed, landing hard making the air gush out of is lungs. Cassie woke slightly blinking blearily down at him confused as to why he was on the floor. 'What are you doing?'

'What am I doing? What the hell are you doing?' James yelled out, trying to stand out having his legs give out so he was half leaning on the bed.

'You had hypothermia' Cassie explained calmly, pulling him down and throwing the covers around him again. 'You had to get body heat from someone.'

'I doesn't matter,' James ground out. 'I'm only in my… and your only I your…'

'Yes, Yes…' Cassie just sighed impatiently and pushed him down, none to gently when he tried to rise from the bed again. 'It was either me or Sirius. Which would you prefer?'

'Death.'

'Very funny,' Cassie stated rolling her eyes as she pulled him into an embrace again. Then she smirked as an idea came to her. 'Just close you eyes and pretend I have red hair and green eyes…'

James elbowed her roughly in the stomach as she laughed softly. 'Or I could bring Charlie in here….'

'I hate you,' James muttered voice muffled by his pillow slightly. Then after a minute he half turned over tensing again. 'Did you used to call me Jamie?'

'Jamie?' Cassie repeated frowning. 'Let's see… Prongs, Prongsie, James, Jamesie, Pogie,' Huh. James had forgotten about that one. 'Nope no Jamie. Why?'

'I don't know,' James said doubtfully. 'Just something I've been thinking about.'

'Have you thought about what compelled you to go out, wile under the influence, in the middle of winter?' James shifted guiltily as his mother swept into the room closely followed by Sirius, who looked a little too amused by the sleeping arrangements.

'Sorry, Mum,' James said softly as his mother waved her wand over him frowning slightly. 'I don't know what I was thinking.'

'Well either way, you are not leaving this house until school starts again and if I hear from your teachers…'

'Yes, Mum,' James agreed sinking further into the bed as he felt Cassie try to restrain her laughter from behind him. He closed his eyes sleepily thoughts clouding up as he listened to his mother give Sirius and Cassie some instructions.

'Mum?' James finally asked as the room fell silent and he cracked open one eye slightly.

'Yes, hun?'

'Dad?' James asked suppressing a yawn.

Mrs. Potter looked down sadly before meeting her son's eyes. 'He's at work honey.'

'That's 'kay,' James muttered sleepily. 'Just make sure he's alright.'

'I will sweetheart,' Ms. Potter said softly running her fingers trough his hair until he fell into sleep, a frown still on his face.

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Lily drummed her fingers on the kitchen table impatiently the day before the Hogwarts express left for Hogwarts. In front of her she had two letters: one from Cassie and one from Paige. They both told her the same thing: nothing.

Paige's simply said to deal with the Marauders presence for an hour or so the first day back because she had to talk to them all.

Cassie's just said James got sick over the holidays so could she please try not to snap his head off. She was also warned not to accept any rides from Sirius anymore, whatever the hell that meant.

Lily's mind drifted to her last shouting match with her sister. Lily had been very intent on confronting her sister about going through her things. It had ended in Lily being pulled off her sister by her father and their mother grounding them both. Luckily for Lily though, her parents couldn't enforce grounding when she was at Hogwarts so it ended tomorrow anyways.

Lily sighed looking doubtfully at Cassie's letter again. Cassie had sounded like her normal upbeat self but something was still off. Almost as though, there was an underlying tiredness underneath the whole thing.

Lily had been really disappointed at her grounding because it meant she didn't have the freedom to look more into Potter's supposed 'Night Terrors'. Not that she really cared, she reminded herself, but well… she wouldn't lie she was curious.

James Potter was if nothing else known to be unflappable. And Jam- Potter being terrified of something didn't add up.

Once again Lily wondered if her first thought about Voldemort had been right; if Ja-Potter and Cassie had run into Death Eaters or something when they were younger. She could even check newspaper records for it- if she wasn't grounded and had a better idea about the timing. All she had to go on was that it was before Hogwarts, which narrowed it down to… eleven years.

That's a lot of newspaper to read, even for Lily.

Still, Lily reflected, she could probably getaway with sipping the first four years or so. Then again she wouldn't put it past Potter to get into trouble as a baby.

Suddenly Lily shuddered. Imagining Potter in his terrible twos was not pleasant; he was annoying enough now.

There was still something about this whole ordeal that reeked of planning. The Potters were incredibly influential n the wizarding world. Lily hadn't even realized just how much power they had until fourth year, when James had been injured and had immediately been take to St. Mungo's. Actually, Lily mused tilting back her chair, he seemed kind of embarrassed. He could easily be a lot worse.

And it might have simply been someone who wanted to get to the Potters that hurt James, but then, why Cassie too?

Lily sighed. There was a reason why parents warned kids not to play Nancy Drew or the Hardy Boys. It gave horrible headaches and quite frankly kids just weren't that great at it.

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James sighed as he gazed at the fire red Hogwarts express. His eyes still had some small bags under them and he was worried that someone, someone with green eyes and red hair, might notice and call him on it. And he really did not want to tell the story of his drunken exploits.

Luckily though Hogwarts seemed like a much easier place to hide secrets in than it did when he was younger. After all, look how much practice he got.

'Hello James.' James turned and smiled gratefully at Paige for the distraction. 'Hey Paige.'

'Are we getting on or we just going to look at it all day?' She asked smirking slightly as she walked past him. 'Come on already Potter!'

James smiled and shook his head as he jogged after Paige. Reaching her he pulled her trunk out of her hand to pull ignoring her disgusted look. 'Something wrong?'

'Yeah actually,' she said grabbing her trunk back. 'The degradation of society.; it's a real problem.'

'I'm sure it is,' James said humoring her as the got onto the Express and found an empty compartment.

'Alcoholism is too,' Paige said as she stowed her trunk above her. 'How 'bout that?'

James froze and turned to stare at Paige who simply sat, smiling knowingly at him. James just turned back, finished stowing his own trunk and sat across from Paige crossing his arms across his chest.

'How?'

'Oh, James,' Paige said shaking her head a slow smile on her face. 'I'm just that good.'

'Of course you are Paige,' Cassie laughed as she entered pulling Sirius through behind her and sitting next to James.

'Stop feeding her ego, Cass,' Alice said as she came in Lily following behind her. James' eyes met Lily's eyes and she gave him a small uncertain smile. James blinked in surprise then smiled widely making Lily's smile a little bigger but even more confused.

'It's not ego if it's true,' Paige countered breaking through the moment. Lily rolled her eyes turning away from James and stowing her truck as James looked around to distract himself. 'Where's-?'

'Right here,' came a small tired voice from the doorway. The group turned to look and the sight of Remus made Cassie, Lily and Alice gasped as Paige sat up straighter brow creased with worry.

Remus had finger shaped bruises around his neck, which stood out stark against his pale skin. He had a gash and one eye and was leaning heavily against the door.

'Remus!' James dove for his friend helping him to the seat beside Alice. 'What the hell?!'

'Yeah, I look horrible,' Remus said tilting his head back closing his eyes tiredly. 'Thanks for sending Dei by the way,' he added opening his eyes to look over at Paige.

'Well it doesn't seem like he got there early enough,' Paige said sympathetically gently moving Alice out of the way and probing the cut on his cheek. 'You passed out?'

'Air loss,' Remus replied his voice croaking. Paige's fingers moved to the bruises on Remus' neck pressing down lightly.

'Did you get checked for vocal cord damage?' Paige asked giving the others who were crowding around a glare.

'I did go to the hospital, Paige,' he replied tiredly weakly pushing Paige's fingers away.

'What happened?' Lily interjected as Paige forced Remus' hands down and resuming her inspection. Remus licked his lips nervously glancing at James and Sirius over the girls' heads. After a long moment of silence Paige looked up at Remus' face sighing. 'Lily knows if that helps.'

'Lily knows what?' Alice asked looking confused at Lily.

'Yes what does Lily know?' Lily asked looking at Paige but Paige's eyes never left Remus' face as she examined his pupils. Finally Remus sighed eyes locking with James'. 'It's was Greyback.'

'What!?!' Cassie, James, Sirius and Lily all yelled shocked.

'Who?' Alice asked looking from face to face.

'Greyback?' the group turned to look at Peter who stood in the doorway looking at Remus.

'Yes,' Remus said sitting up with a groan as Paige started poking his ribs gently. 'A werewolf.'

'The werewolf,' Cassie corrected as she started pacing the compartment and Peter came to stand next to Remus. 'The werewolf who sided with Voldemort and is…'

'Is what?' Alice asked irritably as the others exchanged looks except for Lily. 'Is what?'

'He's my sire,' Remus finally spat out wincing as Paige probed his third rib.

'What kind of butchers did you see at this hospital?' Paige asked pulling out her wand. 'You cracked a rib; hold still while I fix it.'

'What the hell do you mean sire?' Alice asked jumping up.

'It means Remus is a werewolf. He was bitten- by Greyback- when he was little. Now keep your voice down!' James hissed. As Alice's eyes grew wide and her mouth fell open. Everyone waited holding their breath as Alice processed this, waiting to see if she would reject him. Finally Alice spun on Lily. 'You knew?'

'Yes,' Lily said guilty looking at Remus. 'But Remus didn't know I did.'

'And you?' Alice asked turning on Paige.

'We've been over this. I know everything.'

'And the rest of you?' Alice asked turning to the others. 'You all knew?'

The group murmured generally yeses and consent. Finally Alice's face drooped pathetically. 'I'm the last to know?'

'That's what you're worried about?' Sirius asked incredibly after a minute of silence.

'Yes,' Alice said then turned to Remus. 'I mean it's very nice and impressive and all. I offer my condolences but… really?'

'What?' Cassie asked confused.

'There are no words for how much that bothers me!'

'Don't worry,' Paige smirked. 'I doubt that will stop you.'

Remus turned to Alice smiling. 'Thank you.'

'No problem,' Alice replied looking down at Remus. 'Get some sleep.'

Paige quickly waved her wand forcing Remus to sleep even as he protested. The group settled back down after each gazing worriedly at Remus but not wanting to talk and walk him up. Finally Peter stood up and walked out the door with a murmured: 'I have to go see… someone.'

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Lisa stormed through the halls of the Slytherin end of the train. There was nothing that predominantly showed it was the end belonging to that house, the others mingled freely with each other, but no one but Slytherin ventured into the halls.

Not willingly anyways.

Except Lisa was a Hufflepuff and she shouldn't have a reason to be down there. But Lisa was a Hufflepuff on a mission.

'What the fuck Snape?!' Lisa snapped as she slammed he door of a compartment behind her. The only resident of the room looked up from his book to look at her lazily.

'What is it Calder?' he drawled not moving position from his seat.

'When I give you quality information I expect you to use it intelligently,' she snapped storming back and forth across the compartment. 'So that it can not be linked back to me.'

'I have no control over how the information I pass on is used,' Snape continued not caring.

'And I am not useful if I get caught.'

'Pettigrew is too dumb to figure it out,' Snape spa out closing his book and putting it aside, the first sign of interest he had shown.

'His friends,' Lisa spat out. 'Are not.'

'Follow your orders,' Snape instructed.

'I don't want to have orders!' Lisa screamed gesturing wildly.

'Neither do I,' Snape snapper coldly as he stood and gripped Lisa's arms painfully. 'Neither of us want to be in this position.'

Lisa shrugged him off and stormed out tossing over her shoulder one last shout: 'Just don't get me killed.'

A/N: Once again that chapter just kind of went off on its own. I hope you like the new longer format.