Confessions of a Cherry Blossom's Heart

I must do it because if I don't, I might not have a chance to do it at all…

- Sakura

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It was a beautiful autumn day. The breeze was cold. The leaves were falling from the trees. The cherry blossoms were dropping like rain from the sky.

Sakura was walking with Syaoran one afternoon. They walked side by side, talking about their homework.

"Algebra's hard." Sakura said, "I couldn't understand a thing our teacher said."

"It's so easy." Syaoran smiled, "If you want, I could teach you."

"Sure. I'd love to." Sakura answered, "When will you teach me?"

"I could teach you once we reached your house." Syaoran replied to the girl. He already told her his feelings but he didn't get an answer from her yet.

:FlashBack:

"Sakura-chan," Syaoran called her from the field. "Could you come here for just a second?"

Sakura was practicing with the cheerleading squad at that moment. She was wiping her face when she heard Syaoran. She told Chiharu, "I'll take a break for a moment. Just keep practicing. I'll be back soon." Chiharu nodded. Then, Sakura ran towards Syaoran.

"What's the problem, Syaoran-kun?" Sakura smiled. She was tired from the practice but she still had enough energy to talk to him.

"I…" Syaoran's face became red. "I just want to show you something. I hope you don't mind."

Sakura shook her head. "Not really. I could really use the break."

Syaoran started to walk. "Follow me."

Sakura followed Syaoran into a cluster of trees behind the school. Those trees were cherry blossoms and the petals fell as the wind passed by. "It's so pretty here." Sakura remarked.

Syaoran smiled, "I'm so glad you like it here. This is the place I wanted to show you."

Sakura answered, "I like it here. I know this place existed but I didn't have the time to go here at all." Sakura inhaled the air. "Hmmm… Fresh air is really good…" Sakura sat on the ground. "Sit beside me, Syaoran-kun."

Syaoran did so and they just sat there. Then, he broke their silence. "Sakura-chan, there's something I really wanted to tell you."

Sakura looked at Syaoran. "What is it?" Sakura wondered what it could be. 'Could he be confessing?' Her heart leaped as the thought entered her mind.

"I wanted to tell you that…" Syaoran paused for a moment. He started to feel nervous. "… I… I love you…"

Sakura's eyes grew wide. She stammered, "I… I don't… know what… to say, Syaoran-kun."

Syaoran asked, "Do you feel something for me?" He prayed for a positive answer.

Sakura stared into his brown eyes. Then she looked away. "I'm… still not… certain… I'm sorry… I didn't know that I wasn't prepared for this…" She stood up. "I'm really sorry." Out of the blue, she ran away, leaving him alone under the trees.

The next day, Syaoran came by Sakura's house. He waited for her to come out. When she did, he said, "Good morning, Sakura-chan. I'm sorry about yesterday…"

"It's okay… It's my fault. I'm the one who should say sorry." Sakura smiled, "Do you want me to walk with you to school?"

"Sure, as always." Syaoran smiled. 'But my feelings won't change for you.'

:End FlashBack:

They got to Sakura's house in a matter of minutes. There wasn't anyone inside since Touya was studying in America while her father was in Egypt, doing an excavation.

"Kero-chan!" Sakura called, "I'm back!"

Kero came down the stairs in his original lion form. "Welcome back, Sakura-chan." Then, he saw Syaoran. "Sakura-chan, your Dad said that you shouldn't invite boys in the house in his absence."

"It's Syaoran-kun, remember?" Sakura argued, "He's not just any boy. He's Syaoran-kun." Then, she added, "I didn't know that you were listening to our conversation before Dad left."

:FlashBack:

"Sakura-chan," Fujitaka said, "Can we talk for a moment?" He was in the living room while she was in the kitchen, cleaning the plates.

Sakura nodded and dried her hands. She sat beside her dad. "What is it, Otou-san?"

"I'm going to an excavation in Egypt for two weeks. I want you to come with me." Fujitaka said, "But I can't take you with me since you still have to go to school. I just can't leave you here alone."

Sakura smiled, "It's okay, Otou-san. I can take care of myself." She thought, 'If he knew what danger I faced with Kero-chan.'

Fujitaka argued, "I just can't leave my only daughter here. I can't call Touya since it's going to cost a lot if I asked him to watch over you. I can't let you stay with Tomoyo since she and Sonomi-kun won't be back until next month. I don't know what to do."

"Trust me." Sakura assured her father, "I can really take care of myself."

"Promise me that you won't let anyone I don't know in here, especially boys." Fujitaka clarified, "Is that clear?"

Sakura nodded, "Promise." Then, she hugged her dad. "I'm going to miss you."

Fujitaka smiled. "I'm going to miss you too." He patted her head, just like he did at times before.

:FlashBack:

"Dad knows Syaoran-kun so I guess he doesn't count." Sakura finalized. Kero-chan walked towards the refrigerator in defeat.

"Not that I'm eavesdropping or anything but, are you sure it's okay?" Syaoran asked. "I don't want to break any of your dad's rules."

Sakura nodded. "I'm sure he really won't mind." She changed the subject. "Do you want anything? Do you want tea and biscuits?"

"Sure." Syaoran replied. He took out his algebra book. "While you're making the munchies, I'm going to analyze our homework."

Sakura walked into the kitchen and started to heat some water in the kettle. She opened the cupboard and found some biscuits. She placed them neatly on a plate.

Kero was still in the kitchen. He was trying to open the fridge. "Sakura-chan, could you open the fridge?" Sakura didn't answer and opened the refrigerator. "Thank you, Sakura-chan." He bit a container and took it upstairs.

Sakura heard the kettle whistle so she turned the fire off and poured the tea into a tea pot. She placed the plate and the tea pot, along with two cups on a serving tray and carried it into the living room.

Syaoran was answering the problem when Sakura came back. Sakura made sure that he didn't notice her since he looked like he was staring at the problem, as if he was answering it in his mind.

Syaoran looked at her. "I didn't hear you came. Why are you so discreet? It's your house after all."

"It's just that you looked like you're solving the problem in your head already." Sakura answered. "I didn't want to ruin your concentration." Sakura poured some tea on the cups.

Syaoran took one cup. "Thanks."

Sakura smiled, "Your welcome."

Silence occurs….

"Sakura-chan…" Syaoran started. His face was turning red but Sakura's face was redder. "I… just want to know if you already…"

"Already…" Sakura echoed. She was hoping that he would tell her three sweet words then, she would kiss him.

"… Already understood problem number two on our assignment in Math." Syaoran answered.

Sakura's sweat dropped. "Oh… I'll check." She opened her algebra book and saw that problem number two was so easy. "Oh this one is hard."

"I can't even answer it." Syaoran sighed. "This is really tough. But anyway, why don't we just skip this one and answer the rest?"

"Sure. Anything you say." Sakura answered. They worked on their homework together, side by side.

After an hour, Syaoran finished his homework and decided to go home. Sakura asked him to stay for dinner but he declined since Meiling was coming.

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Syaoran opened the door with his keys. He stepped inside his cozy apartment. Meiling looked at him and ran towards him, "Welcome home, Syaoran-kun!" She held him close to her.

Syaoran broke free from Meiling's arms after a few seconds. "How are you doing, Meiling-chan?" They walked and sat in the living room.

"I'm fine!" Meling answered but then, she started to look sad. "Syaoran-kun, your mother wants you home. She said you finished and lost to the Card Captor years ago and it's time that you undergo training again."

Syaoran was shocked but he stayed calm. "Why? I already went under a ton of harsh training already."

"She thinks that you're too soft already and since you're going to be the clan's leader after a few more years." Then, she added, "She also wanted me to be your wife. I told her that I don't want to be anymore but she insisted."

Syaoran frowned. "I see…" Then, he stood up. "I'm going to bed now." He started to walk out.

Meiling inquired, "When are you going to tell Sakura-chan?"

Syaoran looked back. "I don't know but I promise you that I'll tell her."

Meiling asked, "You're not going to fight for her?"

Syaoran didn't answer Meiling. He opened his room's door and just laid down on his bed.

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Syaoran picked Sakura up her house so they could go to school together. Sakura was her usual cheerful self but she felt that Syaoran was keeping something from her. She just smiled at him, hoping that her smile would make him feel better but it didn't help at all.

Syaoran was awfully silent during that day. He can't help it. He was thinking of everything else. Not even Yamazaki's jokes could cheer him up. The gang decided to cut him some slack and let him be.

When the day was gone, Sakura decided to ask Syaoran about his problem. She took him to the park where it was peaceful. They sat on the bench near the lake where they watched the sunset. "Why are you sad, Syaoran-kun? Did something happen?" Sakura inquired. She gazed at him.

Syaoran shook his head. "Nothing's wrong." He looked at the sunset as if it was the last sunset he would see.

Sakura replied, "You can't fool me, Syaoran-kun. I know you too well." She still looked at him.

Syaoran looked into her emerald green eyes and out of the blue, he kissed her lips. He closed his eyes and held her tight. Tears ran down Sakura's eyes but she wrapped her arms around his neck.

After a minute, they let each other go. Syaoran wiped the teardrops on her cheeks. "I'm sorry it was all too sudden." He started to remove his hand from her cheek.

Sakura smiled, "Syaoran-kun, tell me what's wrong. Please I have to know." She held his hand tightly. "Please, let me know."

"Sakura-chan…" Syaoran started, "I'm going back to China. She wants me to go back and become the clan leader."

"That's great." Sakura replied, not knowing what was coming up next. "I know that you're going to be great and I'm sure that you'll come back, right?"

"It doesn't work that way." Syaoran said, downcast. "My mom also wanted me to marry Meiling."

Sakura's eyes grew wide. Tears started to drop on her eyes. She stood up and ran away. Syaoran didn't stop her. He watched as she was out of sight. He stood up when the moon was high up in the sky.

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The next day, Syaoran didn't fetch Sakura from her house. Syaoran walked alone to school. He found out that Sakura wasn't at school. He believed that she was waiting for him.

Sakura didn't want to go to school. She didn't want to see Syaoran, not after she left him alone. Sakura just stayed in her bed, staring at the empty space above her. Kero decided to leave her alone to think. He just prepared some of her meals for that day.

Meiling decided to visit Sakura that very same day. She had this feeling that Sakura would be inside the house. She rang the doorbell. She saw Kero peek at the window.

Kero smiled and went through the small opening on the window and opened the gate. "Long time no see, Meiling-chan." He said delightfully. "Come in. Sakura's inside."

Meiling stepped in. "What's she doing at home? It's a school day after all."

"Let's just say that she's sick – lovesick to be exact." Kero answered. "She's been staring at the ceiling the whole day."

"Really?" Meiling exclaimed. "Let me talk to her. She's in her room right?"

Kero nodded. "I hope that you'll do a great deal of good."

"Trust me." Meiling assured him and she entered her room. "Sakura-chan?"

Sakura's eyes weren't green anymore. They were red. Her face was wet with tears. She looked and smiled at her visitor. "Meiling-chan, this is a surprise."

"Sakura-chan, what have you done to yourself? You look awful." Meiling sat on Sakura's bed.

Sakura continued to smile at her. "Do I really look that awful?" She answered weakly.

Meiling frowned. "I guess he told you, huh?" Meiling saw Sakura nod. "It wasn't my idea, you know. Li's mother wanted him to be strong for the clan and she thinks that I could help him become stronger."

Sakura answered, "I understand."

Meiling asked, "So you're not gonna tell him?"

"Tell him what?" Sakura wondered what Meiling was pertaining to.

"What you feel for him." Meiling answered. "Duh, Sakura-chan. It's so obvious that my cousin loves you. I think you love him back."

"I don't know…" Sakura looked away. "I don't want to be a burden in your marriage."

"You got to tell him or you'll never be able to." Meiling looked at Sakura. "And besides, I don't mind at all…"

Sakura inquired. "Why? You're his fiancée right?"

"I really don't care about that." Meiling looked at the ceiling. "By the way, I have someone else I like."

"Really?" Sakura sat straight up to hear Meiling's story.

"Yeah. He's Li Hauru-kun and somehow, he looks exactly like Syaoran-kun and he's also a member of the clan." Meiling sighed. "He can't be the clan leader since he didn't train yet."

"I see." Sakura inquired. "When will Syaoran go back to China?"

Meiling frowned. "He's going back tomorrow with me." Meiling looked at her watch. "Oops. I got to go now. I still have to pack Syaoran-kun's stuff." Meiling stood up. "Promise me you'll tell him how you feel, kay?"

"Okay." Sakura answered weakly.

Meiling walked out of the room and Kero walked her out. "Thank you for visiting, Meiling-chan."

"Watch over Sakura-chan, okay?" Meiling requested. She stepped out of the house and walked back to Syaoran's house. In a matter of minutes, she got back to Syaoran's house.

Syaoran was there already, packing some of his clothes. "Where have you been, Meiling-chan?"

"I went to see Sakura-chan."

Syaoran looked at her at the mention of Sakura's name. "How is she? Is she sick? Why isn't she at school?"

"Take it easy." Meiling told him. "She's okay. She was sick this morning so she didn't bother to go to school."

"Did you tell her that we're leaving tomorrow?" Syaoran asked Meiling.

Meiling nodded. "I did. I hope you don't mind."

"I don't…" Syaoran continued to pack his things. Meiling started to help him with complete silence.

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The next day, Sakura didn't go to school but instead, she went to Syaoran's place. When she looked at the window, no one was there. She decided to use the Fly card and headed to the airport. She got there in a matter of minutes and the plane headed to China still hadn't left yet.

She searched at the airport but she can't seem to find Syaoran. She was about to give up hope when she saw a boy with brown hair pass by. She looked at him but it wasn't Syaoran.

She gave up hope until she heard the voice, "All passengers of Flight 681 to China is now boarding passengers at Gate L. All passengers of Flight 681 to China is now boarding passengers at Gate L."

Sakura started to panic. "If I don't say it to him, I might not be able to say it at all…" Then, she remembered. "I got to get to Gate L."

She ran around and looked for Gate L. She found it and saw that Syaoran wasn't there anymore.

"Are you boarding the plane, Miss?" A lady asked her.

"Did Li Syaoran-kun and Li Meiling-chan board already?" Sakura inquired. "Please check. It's important that I talk to Syaoran-kun."

"Let me check." The lady said and typed some things on the computer. "Miss, I'm sorry to say this but they boarded the flight to China earlier this morning. I'm really sorry."

Tears dropped from her eyes. 'I didn't even get to say good-bye…' Then, she dried her tears and left the airport.

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Syaoran didn't want to leave without saying good-bye but he had to leave early since his mother wanted him to be there as soon as possible. Syaoran passed by Sakura's house and dropped a letter in her mailbox. "It's the least I could leave you…"

!

Sakura was depressed when she got home. She didn't go to school that day just to see him but she was unsuccessful.

Kero and the cards could feel her depression and wanted to do something for her. That night, Kero opened the mailbox and saw the letter. Kero carried it all the way upstairs and placed it on Sakura's table. Sakura, however, was crying on her pillow. Kero tapped her shoulder. "Sakura-chan, there's a letter for you. I placed it on the table." Kero fluttered away.

Sakura looked up and dried her tears. She took the letter from the table. She slowly opened the letter and read it.

!

To my Cherry Blossom,

I miss you.

I'm sorry that I wasn't able to say good-bye. I want to see you so much. I also want to say sorry for kissing you so suddenly the other day.

Sakura-chan, by the time you see this letter, I'm on my way to China and maybe, I'm already there. You see, I want to say 'I love you' one last time personally but I can't since my flight is so early. Also, I'm not sure if you feel something for me. I could feel something but I want to be sure... I'll wait till you are ready to accept my love. I'll love you till the end of time.

Forever yours,Li Syaoran

!

Sakura dropped the letter. She was trembling like crazy. "Why didn't I say it before?"

A voice said, "You could say it now, you know."

Sakura looked at the door and Syaoran was there. She ran towards him with open arms. She held him tightly and whispered, "Syaoran-kun, you came back. I'm glad…"

Syaoran held her tighter. "I love you, Sakura-chan."

"I… I love you too, Syaoran-kun." Sakura answered. "I love you with all of my heart…"

This moment was the moment I waited for.

The moment I get to say what I feel for him came.

But…

He was not my Syaoran.

Sakura

!

Syaoran and Meiling got to the airport. They were welcomed by Li Ieran and Syaoran's sisters. Meiling asked Futtie, "Where's Hauru-kun?"

Futtie answered, "He's on a mission ordered by Mom."

"I see…" Meiling answered her with a sad tone on her voice. 'I just hope that he'll be here just in time to stop the wedding…'

!END!

Author's Notes: It is not the end yet. I'm planning to write a sequel but first, tell me if it was good.

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