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Chapter III: Kakashi: Starless
…If only you could watch me fall I cannot feel it anymore The soul you cut the soul you adore Cannot feel you anymore Cause you've run through me with destructive force…
I can still feel you hovering around me like it was just yesterday that you were still here. I wonder, where are you now? Has he come to destroy you yet? I almost hope so. I don't think I can live much longer knowing you're here yet.
…I think
somehow I gotta get it straight I gotta get you out of me But I
cannot get through to you…
I think I remember now, why you decided to leave. You always were the prodigy everyone was afraid of, and for good reason. I think you wanted it this way. Do you remember?
…See me I'm down and I get deeper with every breath See me I'm over the edge farther with every step See me I'm down and I get deeper with every breath Standing over the edge I'm taking my last breath…
I stand here now, on this empty cliff with the oh-so-blue ocean under me. I want so much to step further just once more. How many times will I try this silly suicide attempt? This makes it almost four times now, huh? Will you be there to catch me when I fall this time?
…How I feel like I'm starless I'm ready to fade now And how I feel like I'm starless I'm hopeless and grayed out Somehow I feel like I'm starless I'm ready to fade now And now I feel like I'm starless I'm ready to burn out…
Are you afraid now? Because I told you I loved him? I did love him, but what could come from that love? He was always in love with someone else. Someone else who went after him when he didn't come back. Am I really so cold-hearted that I would leave him to that by himself? She was so willing to follow him to the ends of the earth. I was not.
…I can transcend you and mentally bend you But I can't handle the shit that I'm into I have been blinded and always reminded Of the things I've wanted but I never could find…
I think… I think I would have followed you. If you would have let me. If you would have waited. I know why you did those things. Your eyes were always too beautiful for them. A reliquary for your deranged normality. I was part of that normality once.
…I am a
part of a world that I hate I wish the End would come faster my
world's a disaster Can't you see that I'm down and I'm drowning And I
can't keep my head above my wake…
I want to forget all that has happened. I want to forget you! I don't want this mediocre life anymore! Go! Leave! I can't even believe I'm still thinking about you after all these years.
…I gotta get you out of my veins I gotta get you out of my blood I gotta get you out of my scene I gotta get you out of me…
I take that step, that one last step that should send me over the edge and into the cold depths of the ocean I so long to have caress my broken form. But I'm pulled back. I'm always pulled back. Damn you.
…What
I'm really trying hard to get down to words Is the way I fit into
this world Things I survived pushed me to the darkeer side Because
of life as it was the life that was yours Should have been mine But
I never could take anymore of this Cause I'm always gonna get down to
the floor It's a cold gun that I kiss 'Cause I cannot break anymore…
"Itachi." Your name is spat from my lips with venom that I didn't even know I possessed. It passes through my lips like I've wanted it to once more, before your own lips come crashing down. I fall into that ocean all over again.
Note: I don't if this chapter went over too well. Please tell me if there is something I can improve, I'm just not so sure. I love this pairing (kakaita for those who didn't catch it), it's not a...um...typical pairing, but they work so well together. If you have any questions, go ahead and ask me. I know these chapters are a little vague, but that will stop soon. After I do the all the character intros I will move on to third person, which is really a lot easier for me to write, and there should be more action and description of what is going on. Thanks to all of you.
love you all
Ayumi