A/N: Please don't kill me…hehe. Yea so I haven't updated in about 5 months huh? I am terribly sorry. I really didn't have an excuse this time but I did have summer school but it's been over for about 3 weeks now so basically I suck but more importantly I've got a grasp of how this story is going to be laid out for the next couple of chapters but after that I'm lost … but that's until later so don't worry -- . Anyway as always thanks guys for your support! I love you all!

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Disclaimer: I obviously don't own Naruto, if I did... well let's not go there : 3

Rated: PG-13 (sexual situations + suggestive dialogue)

Spoilers: Manga 283+

Pairing: Sai x Sakura

What are these Feelings?

She sobbed quietly embracing herself securely. She dropped the cloth that she was using to annihilate her tainted skin. She lifted her head, water pouring on her tear stained face.

"I let yet another man toy with me but this time..."

She couldn't finish her sentence. She turned herself so her back faced the wall. She leaned against it and slowly like molasses fell to the bottomless pit of the shower crying, her tears mixed with the showers water and blood.

I haven't changed at all…

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The noise of a fist and a hard maple door making contact seeped through the bathroom door. An inpatient young man yelled at the other end waiting for a response.

In the shower was a pale kunoichi sound asleep. The gentle morning light tickled the young woman with weightless warmth. The feeling was tranquil and enlightening until an icy droplet from the showerhead came crashing on the tepid girl. She slightly flinched and started to open her eyes lazily. Her sight was blurry at first but soon regain full potential.

As soon as her body regained all feeling she jolted in pain, placing one hand around her neck immediately. Confused, she got out of the shower slowly and carefully moved towards the mirror. She gently removed her hand from where the pain was coming from and stared at herself shamefully in the mirror.

Several small maroon bruises were found around the side of her neck along with minor burns and cuts found around her body due to her scrubbing. The more she stared at them the more she was tempted to release her imprisoned tears. The other night was a complete big blur to her. It was as if it were all a nightmare. She tried not to think of it but she couldn't if the only solid proof of that night was causing her to ache every second.

She began to cry. Silent cries of help seeped through. She grabbed both hands near her mouth to try and cover up her cries but failed. She started to choke on her cries when suddenly the maple door that stopped the impatient boy from coming near his dearest comrade crashed. Worry was written all over his face.

The tear-stained girl stood their in awe at what the boy had just done but soon recovered when she saw the young man realize that she was in the bare. She did the only thing a girl could do in this situation.

She sent him flying.

As she returned to normal posture she grabbed one of her hands and gently placed it on top of her bruises. With little charka going through her palm she channeled the tiny ribbons of light green directly on her bruises.

After a few seconds she removed her hand gracefully from the side of her neck. The minor bruises were permanently gone as to the thought of last night; or so she hoped for.

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The young man who had been sent flying by the powerful pink haired kunoichi by the name of Sakura was found leaning against the wall near her bedroom door. He stayed put while thinking deeply on what could have caused his dearest comrade to be upset. He just couldn't erase the image of her small nose tinted pink and tears tainting her fair skin.

He absolutely hated seeing her that way. She was always crying and he could never do anything to prevent it. He was a fool into thinking that he was a true friend. He let Sasuke run to the dark side not only letting Konoha down but also his dearest companion who was also his lover.

She was slowly deteriorating in front of him and everything he did was just not enough. The damage was too severe for repairing. He was a failure not only to his village but to the people he cared about the most.

He dropped his head causing a shadow to form around his eyebrow area. His fists curled at both sides.

"Man, am I a joke or what?" questioned Naruto while chuckling at the end.

As he got off the wall he slowly started his journey towards the training grounds when suddenly he was stopped due to the sound of a door sliding open. He quickly turned around and was met with a dull Sakura.

His dearest flower that he and Sasuke used to share was wilting. Each passing day a petal of what little life was left in her fell off. She tried to be strong but there are always limits to everything including her emotional strength.

With a concerned face, Naruto decided to speak.

"Sakura…I…"

Before the troubled boy could finish he was soon interrupted by their captain.

"Hey, what are you two doing in the middle of the hallway? It's breakfast time!"

"Nothing really Yamato, just talking." answered Naruto.

"Well hurry up and eat because this will be your only meal for today until nightfall." responded Yamato seriously.

"You've got to kidding me! How do you expect a grown man to live!"

Off in the distance was a silent Sakura barely listening to Yamato's message. Her eyes dropped to the ground observing every detail of the hardwood floor. Her pale green eyes that used to have a certain fire to them was soon extinguished and replaced with cold emerald ones that were bright as coal. She stood their as if a thin piece of life was keeping her alive. Her thoughts were stopped when she felt a warm calloused hand land gently on her shoulder. She jolted a little but nevertheless looked at her only comrade.

"Sakura let's go eat!" said Naruto with a pseudo grin.

Sakura stared at him with no life. She quietly examined him.

He had troubled icy blue eyes. His unkempt hair was stuffed in his forehead protector-his pride. His eyebrows fell worried while his mouth frowned. He gently removed his hand from her tiny shoulder and stared at her with great sympathy.

"Sakura, I don't know what happened but if it's not too much, maybe we can talk about it?"

She stood their quietly; her eyes as cold as ever. Naruto looked at her as if he were about to break. After moments flew by he signed in defeat.

"Please think about it."

With that said he turned his back and walked off.

Sakura was alone once again.

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Dreadful from his last meeting he sank into the solid wooden surface intensely causing a loud thump. After moments of rubbing his behind he caught eyes with his new sensei. The dark haired man spoke.

"What's wrong with her?" questioned Yamato respectfully while passing Naruto his awaited meal.

"She won't speak."

"Make sure she eats, she's an important member." responded Yamato while getting up.

"Where's Sai?"

Yamato blinked at the speed in how Naruto questioned.

"Outside."

"Figures." growled Naruto.

He grabbed his chopsticks and began chomping the rice at great speed. Yamato sweat dropped at his actions but nevertheless left the premises.

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The young stolid man dipped his soft white brush into the dank black ink. He gently stroked many lines on his scroll trying to form some creature. As he finished stroking the paper with black residue the boy formed seals with his hands. After finishing the hand signs he quickly placed his palm over the drawing causing a screen of smoke to emerge.

Out in the clearing was a snake. It gently slid around calmly; looking menacingly at Sai. He looked at the creature with disgrace. Sai started to draw another creature on his scroll. With the same routine he produced a lion beast so furious it could kill with just looks. Sai controlled the beast into attacking the snake. Sai grinned sinisterly at the snakes soon death. The lion raised his big paw ready to slice.

"Sai!"

Sai quickly rolled up his scrolls causing all of his paintings to vanish into thin air. He grabbed his sketchbook placing it on top of his lap. He turned his face stolid before turning to the voices way. He stared at Naruto blankly.

Naruto smirked in anger at how Sai was looking at him. Everything about him pissed him off, his fake smile, the way he acted, not to mention the constant talking about his male hood was just too creepy.

"Are you just going to stare at me?" questioned Sai.

Naruto shook his head violently, steam coming out of his ears.

"That's it! If you got a problem with me we can take it outside!"

"We're already outside." finished Sai calmly while closing his black stone eyes.

Naruto turned red but nevertheless did it stop him from aiming a punch towards Sai's face. With lighting speed Sai caught Naruto's fist with great ease.

Naruto grunted and retrieved his fist violently. He glanced at Sai; forgetting the real reason why he came he walked off.

The raven haired boy watched as the blonde walked off.

He smirked.

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As Naruto reached the dinning area his eyes darted at the bowl of food left on the table. Naruto frowned at the sight of this and gentle grabbed the bowl and walked down the hallway slowly towards Sakura's room. He could hear the wooden planks squeak, stillness in the air. As he reached to Sakura's room he lifted up his fist ready to make contact with the cool wood but stopped.

He paused for a while thinking to himself. Moments later he began knocking real slowly. Seconds soon became minutes and minutes seemed to become hours but there was still silence.

He kneeled down in front of Sakura's door in defeat once again. He placed the bowl of food near the door entrance. Gently he placed one of his warm hands on the bottom of the door. He spoke.

"Sakura… if you're here, please listen to me. Please don't blame yourself. I can no longer see you this way. You may not know it but I'm hurting too. Seeing you this way…makes my heart ache. So please, let me help you. Tell me what's hurting you. That way…we can both stop hurting."

Naruto waited for a response, sound or even cry.

Nothing.

Silence slapped him in the face.

Lowering his head, he placed his forehead against the door gradually. His hand coiled into a fist slowly falling down the door to his side. Unhurriedly standing up he walked towards his room.

The young lady sat on her futon weeping quiet cries. Her soft hands were over her cashmere lips. Droplets of sadness fell upon her other hand that shakily grabbed her clothing. As she heard Naruto footsteps subside she gently got up wiping her tears and headed towards the door. She placed one of her dainty hands over the sliding doors clasp and leisurely slid it a tenth of the way.

Peering through the crack she scanned the area for anyone. As soon as she saw no one she silently opened the door more retrieving the bowl she heard make contact on the wood not to long ago. Closing the door again she made her way towards her window. She sat on the window sill while placing her small head against the wall. She watched as the white clouds went by while shedding yet another tear down her cheek.

"I'm sorry Naruto, I just can't."

Off in the corner of the hallway was a pallid man peering through the corner. His milky colored hands lay motionlessly on the wall. He had observed every detail between the two. Curious at the event, he made his way towards the maiden's door for a visit.

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A/n: Again I want to apologize for the long wait and for a not so special chapter but next chapter should be good. I promise I'll work on it right away! It was a bit Naruto x Sakura but have no fear this is still a Sai x Sakura fic I assure you that. I'm trying to slow down my pace for this story so it doesn't seem too rushed. I hope I can do it and I hope Sai isn't too ooc. The current chapters are just confusing me onto how I should keep his character. I WANT SAI! Damn it Kishi, make him have an appearance. Sakura-Angst! Gah but she'll soon be fine. Of course I must distribute my happy love cookies to everyone! Zomg school starts tomorrow for me that is!