Hey! I'm starting another fic! I hope this will be good. Hiei will be a little OOC but I'll try and keep him in character. Oh I almost forgot this is a Yaoi fic that means guys will be hooking up with guys! And if you've read my fics before you know that I write KuramaxHiei fics, so on with the fic!
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Rain fell from the sky slowly before picking up, soon it was pouring.
People rushed indoors to get dry all except one. A small figure walked down the street dressed in all black even his hair was black except for a little white starburst.
Hiei walked down the street going nowhere in particular but knowing that he felt so lost. It felt like everyone was becoming so much stronger than him even though he wasn't willing to admit it but that was just the beginning.
Hiei felt so useless no matter how many times he told himself he wasn't more doubts came. Hiei smirked. He should've known it would happen to him sooner or later. All the stress of trying to keep on his mask as well as trying to ignore the hated stares he always got were starting to take their toll.
He stood there for a while staring up at the clouded sky not even shivering as the wind picked up. True he was part Koorime and the cold hardly affected him but he couldn't feel the difference between hot or cold for a long time. He couldn't remember the last time he felt warm and comfortable, or cold from standing outside in the snow for a long time. He just felt numb. Like his soul after centuries of hatred and torture was finally starting to fade.
Hiei scowled remembering his so-called 'friends.' They were fools. Complete fools. They have no idea what kind of hell he's been through and they think that he's now around them he'll suddenly open up and tell them everything? He lowered his eyes from the sky. He was so tired. After everything's that's happen to him he can't take it anymore.
Kurama the only person he felt he could trust on the whole team wasn't even able to see him anymore. Apparently all of his mother's asking for him to get a girlfriend had worked. Shiori set her son up on a surprise date one time and to make her happy Kurama kept on dating her.
Hiei couldn't go to Kurama's house anymore in risking that he'd get spotted by his human girlfriend and asked too many questions.
Hiei smirked bitterly. He knew it was too good to be true. To find someone who accepted him for who he was and trying to show him affection and kindness that he'd never experience before. He was such a fool to believe anybody would do it.
He was the Forbidden Child. Forbidden to be shown any happiness or kindness only pain and hatred.
He thought about the other two. Yusuke and Kuwabara. He would never go to Kuwabara cause he plainly didn't like him and he can't kill him. He wants his sister to be happy and Kuwabara brings her that happiness and Hiei refuses to see his precious little sister cry.
Yusuke. He just couldn't go. He knew that Yusuke would mock him for being afraid of a little rain and right now Hiei couldn't handle teasing remarks.
Hiei drew in a shaky breath and unsheathed his katana. He smirked sadly as he stared into his reflection. The only time his mask was down was when he was alone, but it made sense. As long as he can remember he's always been alone. It's his fate. To always be alone, to be tortured and hated. Such is the fate of the forbidden child.
Hiei's mask snapped back into place as he heard hurried footsteps behind him.
"Hiei!" Called a familiar female voice.
Hiei turned his head sideways and watched Keiko hurry up to him holding an umbrella shielding herself from the rain. "Have…you've seen…Yusuke…?" She said between her panting. Hiei stared at her for a while, "…No." He said coldly before continuing his way down the street. Keiko blinked as she noticed his katana out and jogged up to walk with him, "You know that everyone's going over to Kurama's to congratulate him on his new girlfriend." She said side glancing at him.
Hiei griped his katana tighter. He didn't know that. Kurama didn't even tell him. Hiei's grip loosened slightly as he stared blankly ahead. He didn't want to believe it but it appeared the only one that was the closest thing he had to a friend had betrayed him.
Hiei re-sheathed his sword catching the last part of Keiko's sentence, "…Maybe you would like to come with me to Kurama? It's raining and you don't look like the type to like rain." She said smiling at him.
Hiei glared at her coldly making her gasp, "No I don't want to go with you nor do I want to see the fox. Now go away." He said coldly making the hairs on the back of her neck stand-up.
Keiko glared at back at him, "What's your problem? I'm just trying to help! Kurama's been looking very depressed lately I'm sure you've noticed! Why don't you come with me and try to cheer him up?" She asked sternly.
Hiei inwardly snarled at her. Oh the poor fox was feeling depressed because he's dating someone to make his mother happy. How cute. Of course no one cares about him he's just the cold, insensitive one that kills for pleasure and fun! Hiei can't believe they actually opened him up enough to cause him more pain. He had to stop the pain somehow. It was unbearable…
Hiei's glare on her took an icy edge that made her eyes widen, "I could careless." He practically spat out at her before flitting away.
Keiko stood there looking at the spot Hiei had been in, "What's wrong with him?" She asked to no one before continuing her way down the street to Kurama's where she'll hopefully find Yusuke and ask him what's wrong with his little friend.
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Kurama smiled at Yusuke and Kuwabara as they fought again over how the other one won by cheating, but the smile faded as he glanced worriedly at the window. He sighed sadly. He knew how much Hiei hated the rain, but he wasn't coming. Not tonight.
Kurama tore his eyes away from the window as the doorbell rang and went to go answer it. He opened the door and greeted Keiko who smiled and closed her umbrella. She looked around the room and smiled when see saw Yusuke, but became angry as she saw him getting Kuwabara into a headlock.
"Yusuke Urameshi!" She yelled causing him to freeze and turn towards her, "Uh…hey Keiko…" He said so lowly that she almost didn't hear him.
Keiko stormed right up to him causing him to loose his grip on Kuwabara. She stood right up to him staring him dead in the eye, "Why were you gone when I came over to pick you up?" She practically hissed, and Yusuke 'eeped.'
"Well…uh…you see…" He stuttered as Kurama shook his head in amusement. Yusuke could take down S-class demons, but he couldn't deal with his girlfriend.
Kurama couldn't help but smile at them. They were so lucky that their relationship was going good so far not like his. Kurama's smile disappeared as he thought about his relationship. He didn't like being with a girl he hardly knew, but it kept his mother happy and that's all that matters.
Kurama risked one more glance at the window. Still no sign of Hiei, and the storm was getting worse.
"Hey Kurama." Keiko called snapping Kurama's attention away from the window, "Yes what is it Keiko-chan?" He asked, "I was wondering if you knew what was wrong with Hiei?" She asked causing his eyes to widen.
"Something's wrong with Hiei?" Asked Yusuke looking at his violent girlfriend confused. She nodded her head, "While I was on my way here I ran into him. He had his sword out and when I asked him to come with me here he became very angry." She explained.
Kurama blinked in confusion he couldn't remember doing anything to piss him off, "I don't know what's wrong with him. To tell you the truth I haven't seen him for at least a week." He said.
"Not…since a week?" She mumbled casting her brown eyes on the ground then looked up at him, "Kurama isn't that around the same time you started dating?"
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Hiei sat down on one of the many trees at Genkai's temple.
He looked through the window a smile tugging at his lip as Yukina protected some of the birds that hadn't flown away when the storm hit. He watched as she fed them some breadcrumbs and made a nest for them with some cloth.
Yukina smiled as the birds chirped at her and settled into their temporary home. She let out a small giggle as they fluffed up and huddled together. She looked up through the window and blinked in surprise when she saw a figure sitting in one of the trees.
The Koorime was instantly worried and headed for the door passing Genkai in the hallway, "Yukina." The old women said causing her to stop, "Where are you going? The storm is bad you shouldn't go outside." She said turning to face her.
Yukina turned to face her, "I know but something's outside and I'm afraid it will be hurt by the storm." She said pleading Genkai with her eyes to let her go outside to find whomever it was and bring them in.
"Alright, but don't take too long." She said before continuing her way down the hall. Yukina smiled at the pink-haired women before continuing her way to the doorway.
Yukina quickly grabbed an umbrella before heading outside. As soon as she opened the umbrella and walked out into the rain a deep voice stopped her, "You shouldn't be out here."
The crimson-eye girl turned around quickly, "Oh Hiei-san! You startled me." She said looking at him concerned, "What are you doing out here?"
Hiei's usual cold, and hard eyes softened at her, "I have no place to go so I settled in one of the trees." He explained, which made Yukina gasp, "You shouldn't be out here in this storm! Please come with me inside." She said boldly grabbing his hand and pulling along with her.
Yukina felt him tense but knew it was because he wasn't used to physical touch other then fighting. She opened the door and pulled Hiei in before closing it and the umbrella. The Koorime looked over to him, "Hiei-san you're soaked! I'll get you some towels." She said giving him a smile before walking down the hallway.
The hi-youkai followed her not bothering to tell her he could dry himself by just raising his temperature, but he stopped as a voice greeted him, "Hello Hiei." Genkai said. Hiei grunted at her, and didn't make eye contact.
"How are you on this fine evening?" She asked taking a sip of her tea. Hiei snorted. A fine evening? Yeah right.
"How unusual. I figured that on nights like this you'd be at Kurama's." She said smirking as she saw him tense.
Hiei didn't answer her just stared blankly ahead till he saw Yukina come back with some towels, "Here you go Hiei-san. You may take a shower if you want." She said pointing to the bathroom.
Hiei nodded his head before going to the bathroom practically slamming it shut behind him.
"Yukina." Genkai called causing the young Koorime to blink and turn towards her, "Yes Master Genkai?" She said coming into the room, "I want you to phone Kurama and tell him and the idiot's to come down here now." She said causing Yukina to blink in confusion.
"But…it's raining and…" She started to say but stopped as Genkai gave her a stern look. Yukina sighed and went to the phone and dialed Kurama's number.
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Hiei sighed and closed his eyes as hot water almost boiling hit his back.
Hiei opened his eyes to slits looking at the wall before him before he started to shiver. He wrapped his arms around himself trying to understand why all of a sudden he was freezing. He couldn't understand why until his eyes widen as he seen himself being tossed from the island, and other memories being played right before his eyes. He raised his hands to his ears shutting his eyes tight hoping to keep the images and voices away.
Worthless child born out of lust and desire!
He'll make a great thief all he needs is a teacher on how.
You're nothing but a whore!
Foolish child many demons have come before you seeking the Jagan eye. What makes you think you're special?
That was pathetic Hiei. You're nothing but a weakling for joining up with humans.
Why bother to fight your destiny! Everyone dies sooner or later what does it matter if you're ahead of schedule?
That last remark made his eyes snap open. Why should he bother trying to live any longer? Nobody would miss him not even his own sister. Why should he continue to be tortured after everything he's experienced. He has no reason to live and every reason to die.
Something caught his attention as he turned his head towards his sheathed Katana, and his eyes widen. He could end it all now. End this pain that's been hurting him ever since he was born. He grabbed his Katana and unsheathed it watching as the light shined on the smooth metal.
He collapsed to his knees and lifted his wrist to the beautiful but deadly blade…
Well that's about it for now. Hope you liked! Please leave a review and tell me what you think!
Till next time!
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