This Time It's For Real by Macabre

This time it's for real.
I never thought you were serious,
Like you were when you wanted a meal.
I thought that you did it because you were curious.

You damn fool.
I always was there, but now it's slipping,
Kinda like you on the edge of that pool,
Kinda like my sword edges as they age; chipping.

There was something special about that look in your eyes,
When ever you looked at me with that unique smile,
I knew to me you'd never lie.
You had innocence equal to a small child.

People called you stupid and weak,
You were kinda weird,
Well, okay, maybe a complete freak.
A look of despise, even though not directed to me, kinda made my heart sear.

Intelligence, or should I call it wisdom with a mix of perception?
It was in you, and it was beyond your years.
You judged others on who they were, and I admire you that you gave me no exception.
Most of all, you conquered all of your fears.

I accept that I must move on,
Because this time it's for real.
The way we use to joke play in the green lawns,
The way you put your lanky arms around my waist, the pure feel.

That special look in your eyes, only shined on me,
That unique and pure god-like smile, searching for my approval.
I could never make you understand, never make you see,
It was I who searched for yours, and I'd have never wished for removal.

Your shaggy black hair,
Shining black eyes.
They were filled with hope, with out a care,
And with exceeding awe and surprise.

The way you hugged me, so carefree and innocently,
With great admiration and love,
It just really fit perfectly.
One time I saw a picture, reminded me of you, a white dove.

You lead us without fear,
With determination and declaration,
And you always succeeded in giving me butterflies when I fought with you near.
I remember how you kissed me, how it fit you perfectly, and it made me soar in elation.

I remember a now seemingly momentary and pure feeling of peace with you.
I remember one time I promised I would be with you forever.
I remember you made no unreasonable demands, and you were always true.
I remember that I felt like our love would never be severed.

Damn it, why did you have to go and slip?
Why wasn't anyone there?
Why couldn't I keep my promise and not let you tip.
Why did you have to die… I really don't think it was fair.

Bah, I will always remember how you slept so peacefully in my arms.
I remember that one bargain to me, that one simple deal.
And I'm telling you now, I may move on, but I will never forget, those innocent charms.
Even though I regret to believe… that this time it's for real.