This has been in my head ever since the train wreck. So I decided, "what the heck, why not write it out" This is my first fiction ever, so be gentle! This is Part One. There will be more-because I can't get Sexis out of my head!

For all intents and purposes Ric took Molly out of the wreckage-they never really made up for the wedding debacle, and Sonny stayed behind with Alexis. Reese is out of the picture.

In the Rubble

"Hey, how are you feeling?" Sonny asked. Alexis let out a sigh and replied, "I've been better" and gave him a glimpse of her dimples. He wanted to cry watching her in so much agony. Despite himself and after all these years, he and she were still connected, he felt her pain. He instantly wished it was him instead of her, she didn't deserve this, any of it. He thought back over the last two years, how much they had hurt each other. He wished he could take it all back, and go back to those days where everything was so simple, when they had been the best of friends; he remembered Puerto Rico, and the night they made Kristina. He knew that he had let her down, and he knew that this time he would make things better, he would fight for her, and he would fight with her, because he wouldn't lose her again.

As he sat next to her, he thought about Kristina. His perfect girl and his first born child. For so long he had thought that he would never have a child of his own. Michael would always be his son, but Kristina was the first that had his blood running through her veins. Who thought that one time with this woman would give him a child? It just showed how perfect their union was. He may have called it a one night stand, and told everyone that it meant nothing…but it meant everything. He and Alexis were bonded that night, in love, in friendship, in soul. Their perfect night now became their perfect child. She was equal parts of them: strong and stubborn: how many children can say that they cheated death twice. Beautiful like her mother, with those eyes that could pierce your soul. Now that he knew the truth, he thought how stupid he had been not to always know she was his. He saw it in her face, her mannerisms, and her little smile.

Alexis, moaned, and opened her eyes. Sonny took her hand in his, "Hey Lex" as his voice trailed off, struck with the raw emotion of seeing her in pain. She smiled at him, "remember when we were in Puerto Rico, I could really use some of that rum right now." Sonny laughed, "Of course I remember Puerto Rico, I miss dancing with you" he stated, noting its dual meaning. Alexis smiles at him, "I miss dancing with you too…Sonny there is something I have to say, and I have to say it now…if I don't make it out of here, I need you to take Kristina, love her, be the man I fell in love with for her, and let her always know that her mommy loved her so much." Tears were falling from both of their eyes now. Sonny replied, "Lex, you are not going anywhere" she tried to speak but he placed his fingers upon her lips, "I am not going to lose you, Kristina needs her mommy, and frankly I need you too. Remember that night that in front of the PCPD when Sorel shot me, you gave me strength Lex, you fought for me, and now it is my turn to fight for you." She tightened the grip on his hand, tears falling free from her eyes, "even after all the bad blood between us, when it comes down to it, we are always on each others sides." Sonny just smiled those dimples at her.

It was getting later and later, everyone wondering when rescue crews were coming. Robin comes to check in on Alexis, and noted that Sonny has not left her side. He has been there, holding her hand, giving her water, caressing her face. Robin checks Alexis' vitals, and then calls Sonny for a private conversation. "It doesn't look good…if she doesn't get help fast, she is going to die." Sonny sighs and tells her, "no Robin, she is not going to die, I am not going to lose her again, okay? So whatever you can do to help her out, I need you to Robin, please…please don't let her die" he whimpered grabbing onto Robin. "Okay Sonny, I will, I will do everything humanly possible to help her." "Thank you Robin" as Robin walked away, her mind reeled and all she could think was, "he loves her, more than anyone knows, maybe even more than he knows."

"Lex, Lex, c'mon honey, talk to me, stay with me." He had felt her slipping, and knew that he had to talk to her, had to give her his strength. She heard his words, soothing the dull ache coming from her body. She had missed his voice, his face, his smile, his touch. "Fight for me Lexi, you can't leave me, who is going to put me in my place all the time, Lex I can't live without you in my life. I know you have no reason to believe me, but even when things were bad between us, I knew you were here. I knew that it would be okay because I knew that I could always see your face, when we bumped into each other at Kelly's, when you dropped Kristina off, even in the courtroom, when you were against me. I need you Lex." He saw tears coming from her eyes, "I knew you were still with me" he stated. She smiled at him, "I want you to know something Sonny. I am sorry for everything that has happened, sorry for keeping Kristina from you, I couldn't have chosen a better father for our little girl, and sorry for the mean hurtful things I said or did. I want you to know the truth Sonny, I loved you, deep in that part of my soul that I never thought anyone would touch, I love you." All he could muster was, "I love you too." Neither of them noticed that they used the present tense of love instead of past, but Robin Scorpio heard, and she knew that if Alexis did fight to live, she would have another battle in store, the one for her soul.

"Anyone down there" they heard bellow through the tunnel. Everyone started yelling, "over here, hurry there is someone hurt!" Sonny whispered into her ear, "help is her Lex; we are going to make it out of here, hold on for me." She didn't respond but he felt her hand tighten her grip. The men came rushing in with a stretcher, moving Alexis on. They told them they would take Alexis up first, since she was injured. Sonny held onto her hand the entire time. The crew tried to tell him to wait, and let them take her, but neither of them would let go. They needed each other too much. When they finally came out of the tunnel, everything was in disarray, people hurt and running. The helicopter was waiting to transport Alexis to General Hospital. "Don't leave me, please Sonny" she stated. He looked to Lainey hoping that she would relent and let him go in the helicopter with her. Lainey was just about to refuse, but as she looked into Sonny's eyes, she couldn't. What she saw shook Lainey to the core, and as the helicopter made its trek to General Hospital, Lainey realized what real love looked like, because it was right there written in Sonny Corinthos' eyes.

The helicopter trip seemed to take an eternity, thought it was more like five minutes. As soon as they got out of the chopper there was a team waiting for them. Monica ran up to helicopter and started talking to the medics. Alexis opened her eyes to look at Monica and whispered, "my baby is my baby okay?" Monica gave a slight smile, "yes Molly is doing fine, she is in recovery right now." This seemed to calm Alexis a bit, as she looked over to Sonny, "my baby she is okay" Sonny smiled that full dimpled smile at her put his mouth to her ear, "of course she is okay, she is a fighter, just like her mama." They locked eyes, stuck in a moment, both not knowing what to say. "Oh my God, Alexis, you are okay" was what brought them back to reality, as Jax ran toward Alexis.

"You guys are going to have to wait out here while we take her in the OR" Monica told both of them. "Monica, I can't leave her, I can't leave until I know she is alright" Sonny said with anguish on his face. Monica relented telling him that she needed them to help her right now, and as soon as she was out of surgery she would let him know exactly what was going on. Sonny nodded leaning his mouth to Alexis' ear once more, "Lex, I am here, you hold on for me okay, Lex…..I love you" he whispered so silently that only one person could hear, the only one who mattered, and in response she squeezed his hand just a little tighter.

Sonny and Jax were waiting in the waiting room their usual tension thick in the air when Ric came charging out of the elevator. "Where is she, is she okay?" he cried out. "She is in surgery, Monica promised to give us full details when she knew anything stated Jax. "What are you doing here Sonny" was Ric's next comment. Sonny just walked away and stared out the window. He closed his eyes, and he remembered focused on her face, the curves of it, her eyes, those dimples, those lips. He had to stay strong for her, fight for both of them now. He would not waste his anger fighting with Candyboy or Ric. Neither of them mattered right now, the only thing that mattered was Alexis.

"Well Alexis made it out of surgery, she is still out of it, but you can visit her one at a time" were the orders from Monica. Immediately all three jumped towards the room, Monica raised her eyebrow at the group, "I said one." "Well of course I will go since I am her husband" stated Ric with an extra emphasis on the husband part. It irked Sonny to the core and all he could think was about how Ric had betrayed Alexis with Reese, his blood boiled and he wanted to beat his little brother to a pulp. He restrained himself, if only for Alexis. "Yeah, Ric that's fine, make sure you tell her we are all pulling for her, okay?" He said giving a smirk to his brother, knowing that irk him back. Sonny sat down and sighed as he watched Ric go in and visit with Alexis. He hated it, hated to not be next to her holding her hand and reassuring her. The only thought in his head was, "it should be me."

Alexis began to wake up, groggy, a dull ache in her belly. She saw his face, those beautiful eyes, that dark wavy hair, those dimples; she raised her hand to meet his face. Her dream was interrupted by Ric's voice bringing her back to reality, "Alexis, honey it's me Ric." She woke to see her husbands face, and she remembered what had transpired in the last 48 hours. Liz and Lucky's wedding, Ric humiliating her, the train wreck, her baby, "Oh my God, where is my baby, Ric where is my baby." "Shhhh he said, Molly is doing fine, she is up with Courtney right now, our little girl is doing great." Alexis cried, "can I see her" she whispered as she grabbed onto his hand. He smiled, as he said that he would make sure everything is okay with Monica and then he would go get their girl. As Ric ran off to go find Monica, Alexis' mind drifted to Sonny. "Had he really been there" she mused. She remembered that warm feeling when he was there and it brought tears to her eyes. She missed him, more than she could have imagined. More importantly, she still loved him, she still loved Sonny Corinthos. That thought superceded any residual pain, and it scared her to death.

With Monica's okay Ric brought Molly into see Alexis. Alexis welled up just looking at her, "Oh my God, she is so beautiful Ric" she exclaimed. Sonny walked toward her hospital room and peaked his head in, as he was about to say something he saw Ric and Alexis gazing into their new baby's eyes. He tried to swallow the lump in his throat as he walked away from the room. For the second time that day all he could think was, "it should have been me."

Monica came in to check up on Alexis, make sure her vitals were steady. As she checked Alexis she told her she needed to get some rest and that she would take Molly back to the nursery. Alexis grudgingly gave the baby back only after Monica promised to bring her back if Alexis got some rest. As Monica left the room, Ric and Alexis were left alone. They sat in an awkward silence for a couple of minutes until Ric cleared his throat, "So, I am so happy you and our baby are okay, I cannot wait until you are well enough to come home and we can be a family." Equal parts of anger and sadness welled up in Alexis' heart and it pained her to say it aloud, but she knew she must. "Ric, I am so sorry, and I want you to know that you will always be Molly's daddy, and Krissy's uncle, but Ric…I want a divorce." He had a shocked look on his face, he knew that he had hurt her by sleeping with Reese, but he thought was initially anger would fade once the baby had come. The anger had faded, he saw it in her eyes, but that was all he saw. No longer did he see the love or passion, she wasn't going to fight anymore, she had given up. That was the moment that Ric had realized he had lost. He didn't try to argue, just pushed his tears aside, and whispered, "okay, and Alexis…I am sorry, and thank you for giving me my little girl." He kissed her on the cheek and walked out of the room. Alexis sighed, partly because of the end of her relationship with Ric. The bigger part was the notion that once again her heart was betraying her, as she fell asleep her mind wandered off to another time, where everything was right in this world, where she woke up in Sonny's arms.