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Lost Chances
The first time, she told him to keep the sword, Tokijin. She thought such a powerful sword in the hands of someone as powerful as him would surely destroy Naraku.
She noted he had a fine face and told him to keep the sword. When she departed, he thought nothing of her. Only a mere incarnation of Naraku's.
Perhaps we were meant to meet.
Perhaps I should have thought of killing the monster then...
The second encounter, she confronted him. She asked him to kill Naraku in exchange of some jewel fragments. But he refused. Irritation soon got her and she took off, shouting.
That time, I noticed you more.
How beautiful you really were.
Could things have been different if I accepted?
Perhaps you would have lived if I took the jewel shards.
Killing Naraku would have been easy.
Why did I refuse?
Why did I have to make my life hard,
My mind, pondering about you everyhwere.
Why had I been so senseless?
She kinapped Rin under Naraku's orders, but did not harm her. He went to get her back...and to see her. But he also had to fight Naraku.
Should I have been more serious and killed him off right there?
Why didn't I?
Until now, when nothing can be done to bring you back?
Why was I so moronic...
After discovering the gateway between this world and next, she came to him and informed him where it was. She told him it was closed but said there was another way. She showed him the way.
We walked together to the entrance.
I could almost feel your warmth, so close to me...
As I left to enter through, I caught a glimpse of your worried face.
Could I have killed Naraku that time?
A second chance slipped away just like that, with your master still alive.
The last chance was when she fell into the river, injured. He'd saved her then and she offered him information about Naraku's heart's location. She said the heart was outside of Naraku's body and destroying that would be the only way of killing him.
I believed you were trying to use me again.
But you told me only someone of my caliber could kill Naraku,
and in strength or skill I had no equal.
I believed you, but still refused to kill Naraku for your cost.
Even after that, you gave me a youki crystal, wishing me good luck.
And then...
You left.
I wondered if that would be the last time to ever see you...
The last time he could ever see her again was the end for him. She was injured. Injured in a way, not even Tenseiga could save. A both physical and mental wound had been inflicted upon her heart. And all because he had not killed Naraku then.
You would be alive now if I had not been so idiotic!
I could be with you right now, if only I had done what you hoped for!
Why..
Why had I been like that...?
Would my life have eternal suffer because of that?
He can never forget her beautiful face. He can never forget the way she called him "Asshole." He can never forget how she influenced his life. But most importantly: he can never forget her...
My Kagura...
Why did Kagura have to die... :(