Chapter 1 has been redone 8/6/09

Chapter 1 Sashiko and Koichi

Inuyasha sat against a tree facing a group of young demon children playing in front of a village. His long white hair flowed around him gracefully. There was intelligence in his eyes, maturity. Though he has matured, he is still the same Inuyasha on the inside, just older. He looked around the village in front of him. It wasn't Kaede's village, of course, he hasn't seen that village in over 10 years. He would probably never see that village again. The worse part is, it was all Sesshomaru's fault.

'No, not all his fault, it was my fault, too. I fell in love with him. He didn't say he loved me. That night…that night was my fault as well. I was stupid enough to think I could get him to love me.' While Inuyasha contemplated his thoughts, two children stopped playing and stared at him. Sadness was evident in his eyes and mirrored into theirs.

'I remember it all so clearly. The pain of that night, it still hurts to the core. It still haunts my dreams or should I say my nightmares.'

-Flashback (10½ years ago)-

It was late at night, Inuyasha sat in a tree, looking down at his friends. Sango rested up against a log with Miroku nearby, leaning against a tree. Both of them were sleeping peacefully. Kagome laid close to the fire in her sleeping bag, with Shippo curled up securely in her arms. Inuyasha watched them sleep for a few minutes before staring into the fire. His mind going a mile a minute.

He was worried about his friends. Right now, Inuyasha was in heat. Not good because other demon's who sensed this could try to attack their group. He knew he had to be extra careful for the next week until it passed. Sango knew of this, since being an exterminator of demons, you have to know your enemy. Kirara was also in heat so that was also how Sango knew. Both of them had to be careful or the group might suffer. Shippo was too young to understand, or even worry about such things yet. 'Keh, lucky little brat.'

Inuyasha looked at Kagome as she slept and smiled fondly. No, he didn't love her, not like everyone thought he did. He protected her more like a sister now than a lover. They had discussed it not too long ago and decided to be friends, just friends. Kagome started to date some guy name Hojo back in her time. That's how things should be. Inuyasha just couldn't love her like she should be loved, for his love, his heart belonged to someone else.

It was true, Inuyasha was in love with someone, someone he shouldn't be in love with…Sesshomaru. Not because it was his brother or because they were both males. To demons that was fine and completely acceptable. It was because out of all the people he could fall in love with, it had to be his cold, heartless, half-brother. The world was just trying to torment him. Thinking of his brother, Inuyasha shifts uncomfortable, damn this heat. It was really starting to get to him. Lucky for him, no strong demon's have come near, for his Youki was looking for someone who could strengthen him and the demons that came to fight were not near strong enough to affect him. He could easily dispatch the ones who tried.

Grumbling, Inuyasha leaned more firmly against the tree he was occupying. He remembered when he told Kagome who he truly loved. She took it pretty well, after she got over the shock and the fainting, that is. Inuyasha chuckled at the memory. He closed in eyes, preparing for a sleepless night, and he didn't know how right he was.

About an hour later, Inuyasha snapped out of his relaxed, barely conscious state to what felt like something pulling on his body. Unable to stop himself, Inuyasha got up and began to walk through the woods. As he entered a clearing miles away from his camp, the pull grew stronger. Standing not more than 15 feet away from him was Sesshomaru, his eyes blazed crimson red. 'Oh shit,' Inuyasha thought, ' He's not in control.'

"Sesshomaru…" Inuyasha started quietly, carefully trying to get Sesshomaru to stop. 'Oh shit he's going to kill me.' Inuyasha was way wrong, but before he could say any more he was slammed against a tree by his brother. Inuyasha closed his eyes expecting the end to come, instead he felt Sesshomaru right by his neck, breathing very slowly. Inuyasha stood absolutely still as his scent was taken in. When he felt Sesshomaru start to kiss his neck his eyes widen. Suddenly Inuyasha remembered his heat, that is what was attracting Sesshomaru to him. Sesshomaru pulled away from Inuyasha's neck, slowly, growling low. Inuyasha opened his mouth to say something, but instead Sesshomaru took the opportunity to kiss him full on the mouth. Immediately caught up in the moment Inuyasha responded to Sesshomaru full force.

Sesshomaru wrapped his arms around Inuyasha and pulled him away from the tree and onto the ground. Now laying on top of him, Sesshomaru started to kiss down his neck, making Inuyasha let out a loud moan. Moving back up to his mouth Sesshomaru kissed Inuyasha passionately, demanding that he respond. When Inuyasha felt Sesshomaru's lightly biting his lower lip, demanding entrance, he opened his mouth immediately. As their kisses became more heated, Sesshomaru started to remove Inuyasha's cloths as well as his own. Tonight would be a night Inuyasha would remember for the rest of his life, but he didn't know that the reason he would remember was complete different than what he thought.

(A/N: sorry everyone I don't want to get kicked off so I'm ending the scene there. Also since I've never wrote a Yaoi scene before that's the best I can do for now. So Sorry)

The next morning Inuyasha woke up completely alone. He quickly sat up and looked around for Sesshomaru, only to find that he was no where to be found. Closing his eyes, Inuyasha held back the tears that asked to be shed. He had been used, by his own brother no less. Hurt and in despair, Inuyasha walked painfully to the closest hot spring to clean himself and to wash off the scent of Sesshomaru. It hurt too much to smell his brothers scent on him, a reminder of what went on hours before.

'He left me, I knew he could never love me. I'm a filthy Hanyou, and nothing more to the prestigious Lord of the West.' Inuyasha wallowed in misery for an hour before dragging his stiff body out of the hot spring and back to camp.

Upon arriving at his camp he found everyone up and waiting for him. They all looked up as he approached.

"Inuyasha where have you been? We've been worried," Kagome asked looking at him closely. Something was off about him.

"Feh, I went for a walk, something the matter with that, wench." Inuyasha asked cruelly covering up his pain and embarrassment.

"Well I'm sorry for caring," Kagome shot back, forgetting her earlier thoughts. They went back and forth for awhile before Miroku stated that they should be on their way to get more shards.

-End flashback-

'A month later I left without so much as a word to anyone.' Inuyasha thought. Sometimes he still wondered if they were worried about him. Deep down he knew they did. He let out a sigh, it didn't matter either way.

Inuyasha continued to sit, eyes closed. His heart ached, but there was nothing he could do, Sesshomaru didn't love him and he had to accept that, no matter how much it hurt. Though he still couldn't understand why Sesshomaru marked him as his mate if he didn't love him. Oh well, there was no point in living in the past anymore. He had to look onto the future.

With that resolve he open his eyes, and looked at the young demons playing again. His day of babysitting duty, he went from a strong warrior to child watcher. Oh how the mighty have fallen. After looking more closely he noticed two were missing, his heart stopped. He looked around, almost frantically for the pups. He relaxed against the tree again when he saw a little piece of white kimono partially hidden behind a tree.

"Sashiko, Koichi, come out from behind the tree," Inuyasha commanded in a level voice.

"Oh…We wanted to sneak up on you," Koichi pouted. His sister, Sashiko, just looked intently at Inuyasha, not speaking. They both walked over to him, heads bowed. Only when they stood directly in front of Inuyasha did the girl speak.

"We didn't mean to frighten you, Father. We were, merely, testing our stealth skills," Sashiko stated quietly, coldly. Inuyasha let out a sigh.

Koichi and Sashiko are both ten years old, but they couldn't be more different. Koichi has long course white hair, beautiful round golden eyes full of innocence, elf-like ears and a soft face yet fierce attitude. He was a lot like Inuyasha. He fought on impulse, was very rash, and yet he was very caring as well. He had one jagged stripe on each cheek like Inuyasha had when he went full demon.

Sashiko, his twin sister, had long silky white hair kept in a high ponytail that went about mid-back, she had golden eyes as well but hers didn't look so innocent, they were cold and emotionless, she had two stripes on each cheek like Sesshomaru and a crescent on her forehead. The only resemblance she had to Inuyasha would be her puppy-like ears. She was like a female mini-version of Sesshomaru. Her attitude and all was cold and impassive. She was about as friendly as a rabid dog. Though Inuyasha knew the truth about her.

"Sashiko…" Inuyasha said sadly. He wished his daughter would drop her mask at least in front of him. She was too cold for such a young girl. Sure, she would laugh and smile when playing with the other children, but Inuyasha knew it was fake. She was only playing with the other children to please her brother. Despite of her cold exterior, Sashiko was fiercely loyal to both Inuyasha and Koichi and anyone else who she deemed worthy of her time and energy. She was loyal yes, but loving…Not even Inuyasha knew anymore. Her pain ran too deep.

'Keh, Sesshomaru would be proud.' Both kids were very powerful, especially for their age. Of course, neither were as powerful as Inuyasha yet but it was only a matter of time. Koichi is already able to transform Tetsusaiga and use some of its power. Sashiko, on the other hand, can not even touch Tetsusaiga much like her full-demon father.

She wasn't focused on Tetsusaiga anyways. Apparently, Inuyasha's mom had some raw miko powers, that she never developed to the fullest. They were passed on to Sashiko. Since Sashiko was ¾ demon she had to be careful that her miko powers didn't burn her. As Sesshomaru makes a whip out of poison, Sashiko could make one out of purifying energy. She could also make a whip out of poison, but according to her, that wasn't not hard to do. It was a constant taunt to her brother.

Koichi focused on Tetsusaiga and the Iron Reaver Soul Stealer attack. He could make a whip out of poison but it took a lot of energy and was barely worth it. Both children had mastered the transformation into a big dog which isn't that big yet since they're still young, about twice the size of a normal wolf. They each had their own sword and their own style of fighting.

"You guys are done playing for today, return home immediately." Inuyasha stated in a tone that meant he was boss.

"Yes father," Sashiko said as she turned and quickly made her way to their house.

"But dad!" Koichi started to argue when he caught Inuyasha's look he immediately shut up, "Fine." Koichi stomped toward the house. Inuyasha shook his head, before getting up to follow them signaling for other babysitter he was leaving. His kids could be such a pain in the ass.

Inuyasha use to worry that they would be found by either their friends or Naraku. He didn't need to worry though. This village is surrounded by magic, nobody could see it unless they were unconsciously looking for it. The village was ruled by an elderly miko, but there was also Demons, Hanyou's, humans, Ex-demon slayers, Witches, Elements master, Fortune tellers, and many more. The witches had set up a magical barrier, no one could enter, or even see the village for that matter, without either being escorted by one who lived in the village or they were looking for the village, knowing it or not. Inuyasha was not looking for this village in particular, he was looking for somewhere he could have peace with his pups, this place found him.

From the outside this place looked like a mountain, if allowed in you can walk through a certain part of the mountain and end up here. The "mountain" was actually an illusion, and a pretty good one. It felt real and everything. After entering the village you can come and leave as you please. There was some other magical spell around it, you could always find your way back if you've been there, but if you try to explain it to someone who hasn't for some reason it was impossible, like the location was suddenly lost from your mind. Inuyasha believed it was another of the witches spells. The village received the name Magia for all the magic used to build the town by its original founders.

-At the house-

Sashiko sat down by the table and quietly assessed her brother as he stomped in, growling. She simply raised in eyebrow, watching her brother stomp around pissed off, making a complete fool of himself.

"I wanted to play some more," Koichi whined before turning to his sister, "Didn't you?"

"No."

"Not even a little bit?"

"No."

"Just a teeny-tiny bit?"

"Koichi, hold your tongue or so help me, I will cut it off." Her voice gave no indication that she was kidding.

"Did I make you angry, Sashiko?" Koichi knew he was asking for trouble and he was right. Sashiko got up and walked over to Koichi quickly. She grabbed him by the throat, and just as she was about to chuck him into a wall, Inuyasha came in.

"Don't even think about it." He commanded. Sashiko bared her fangs at Koichi, but let go of him. He slumped against the floor and the wall.

"I'll be in the Dojo." She hissed as she stalked out of the house. Inuyasha watched her go before turning to Koichi.

"Leave her alone, Koichi. I know you're having fun, but Sashiko will hurt you one of these times, intentionally or otherwise."

"I'm sorry dad, but she's such a little ass, someone needs to loosen her up."

"Sesshomaru was the same way." Inuyasha said, a small smirk appeared on his face.

"Didn't you ever make him mad, just so you could get an emotion out of him," Koichi asked. He knew all about his birth, and his other father. Both of his kids did.

Inuyasha smiled, a real smile, "All the time."

"Then you understand." Koichi said earnestly.

He sighed, "Koichi, you have to respect Sashiko, I understand your need to fight with her, but don't push it. I'm going to go have a talk with that girl." Inuyasha turned and walked out the door, leaving a sulking Koichi behind.

Inuyasha walked into the dojo behind their house. Seeing Sashiko swinging her Miko Whip around, he stood a respectable distance back, deciding to just observe her for awhile. Even though he was only a half demon, her Miko powers could still do damage to him. He watched her do some difficult maneuvers with the whip hitting invisible enemies. He looked at her silently, a proud smile gracing his face. Only once in the middle of such maneuvers did she over swing grazing her arm with pure miko powers. She didn't slow down from the minor wound though Inuyasha knew even the slightest touch could burn.

He knew she was improving with her Miko powers. Not long ago she would be constantly hitting herself with her own powers leaving many burn marks on her skin. She would also accidentally mix her Miko powers with her Youki causing severe pain as her Youki was instantly burned by the purifier.

After a few more minutes, Sashiko, sensing her father nearby and not wanting to hurt him, withdrew her whip. She turned and looked at him her expression blank. Knowing she wouldn't speak, he spoke first.

"You're getting better," He commented, "You don't burn yourself or your Youki when you use your powers anymore."

Sashiko stared at her father, scowling, "Do not tease me, father. My powers and technique are sloppy and my abilities to use them, weak. I do not wish to hear your false praise."

"If my praise came out false sounding, I apologize. I was being sincere, Sashiko. Look at your hands, they are no longer burnt like they were when you first started training. Hell, you could barely lift the whip because of the purifying energy flowing off it, now you're doing some difficult maneuver's like it was child's play." Inuyasha tried to explain his sincerity to Sashiko. When Sashiko remained silent he added, "Sesshomaru would be proud to call you his."

"I don't care what Lord Sesshomaru would think." Sashiko's steely voice could make ice shiver in fear. She crouched down to catch her breath.

"What?" Inuyasha stood there stunned, staring at his youngest child.

"You heard me, father. I don't care what that man would think of me. He is nothing to me except a taint in my blood. His cowardly behavior in not taking responsibility makes me sick! Leaving you pregnant with twins…pathetic."

"Sashiko…You can not mean that. I told you how strong and brave your other father is. You can't call him a taint in your blood. He did not know."

"He will never be a father to me. I don't even know who he is."

"Do you not listen to me when I speak, Pup? He is Sesshomaru, my brother, Lord of the Western Lands. He is powerful and courageous."

"I listen to your words father, but all you tell me is what he is, not who he is." Before Inuyasha could reply, Sashiko stood up and headed for the door, "I'm going to train with the Ice Element Master. She's teaching me some new attacks today. I apologize for upsetting you but I will not apologize for what I said." She walked out without further ado.

Inuyasha didn't reply, he just stood there, stunned. He did not raise his children to hate Sesshomaru. In fact, he never spoke bad about him, he wanted his kids to love him, has he did. Inuyasha did not move from that spot for a very long time.

"Don't be mad at Sashiko," Koichi said coming into the dojo. Inuyasha wheeled around to face his son. Looking at Koichi he sighed, "I am not mad at her, Koichi. I just…Don't understand."

"Don't blame Sashiko either," Koichi began, "Even I had those feeling a few times."

Noticing Koichi's seriousness, Inuyasha asked, "Why? What makes you and her feel this way about him."

"You think we're stupid Dad, you think we can not see your pain. Even I, the oblivious one, can see it. You hid it from us but we still can see. We love you, even Sashiko loves you, and neither of us want to see you in pain. I don't hate Sesshomaru because I can see hating him hurts you as well, but I feel no pride in having him as a father."

"I wish it hadn't ended like it did, Koichi. I think both of you would have loved Sesshomaru if only he was around. I should have told him about you guys. Don't you hate me too."

"No, he would have known if he didn't run away like that. No he knew either way of us. Don't worry though father I don't hate him anymore and one day Sashiko won't hate him either."

Inuyasha smiled lightly at Koichi, "I hope you're right. Now come on lets see how good you've gotten since the last time we sparred." Koichi smiled as well and withdrew Tetsusaiga. Let the battle begin.

I think I made it a little better and fixed some spelling errors.