Author's Note: Yes, so. I've been thinking about how the whole group must have felt when Kalas' plans were exposed. So I decided that I'd write it out. Kinda like the one I'm doing for Tales of Symphonia, this idea just randomly hit me. So, we're gonna start with Xelha's feelings, when she's stuck in the cell right before the Guardian Spirit came to her. Okay? Sound good? Okay then. Oh, and the name of the spirit in my game is Martel so that's her name in this too.
Summery: Xelha's stuck in the cell in the Imperial Fortress and lamenting about Kalas' betrayal and the loss of her friends. What's a lonely girl to do?
Disclaimer: I do not own Baten Kaitos, or the song Secret Sorrow from the anime X.
I just can't stop crying. The tears just keep coming. I simply can't believe he'd do that! That he'd be a traitor to our group. Why? Why would he do such a thing? I mean, I understand that he wanted to avenge his grandfather and Fee. But still! I never thought he'd go so far as to lie to us all, to betray us. I trusted him fully. Completely. And now…now I'm locked up in a small cell in the heart of the Imperial Fortress. All because I trusted him so deeply.
Without asking for the true reason of sadness, I tightly held you
The moon's light illuminated you, I simply invited the love
Its painful, I can't sleep
And that girl, Melodia. I never would have thought she would have such evil ambitions. I'm sure she's just using Kalas for her own gain. I'm sure of it! The Kalas I knew would never do such terrible things. I know he wouldn't! Yet…they're both such good actor's, to be able to hide their true plans from us all, even from Martel, that its hard to say what they would and wouldn't do. But…I want to believe that the Kalas I knew wouldn't do those things.
The fact that you were crying in a glimpse; Just when did I realize it?
Were you simply lonely? Is this feeling a fragile dream?
Don't say anything more than that
I don't regret that I trusted him so deeply. But, its painful, how deeply he betrayed us. He played his cards well, I must say, making it seem like we ought to not trust Lyude or Savyna so much since they both came from the Empire. Yet it ended up being him who betrayed us. Who could have foreseen that? I long to ask him again, why he'd do that to us. It seems so unreal, so unlike him. But more than anything, I want to save him from the darkness. But how can I do that, when I'm locked up in a cell?
If I love, I'll be hurting as much as I love
My thoughts have lost their life
Even though everyone wishes for love, they keep on passing by each other
You are the same
Its painful isn't it?
I feel so alone now. Even with Meemai here, I still feel so alone. So lost. Is this how Kalas felt? Is this how he always felt? Could this be part of what drove him to such a deep betrayal? Did we never understand this about him? I just don't know anymore. Its all so confusing, so painful. And still, all I can do is cry. I cannot even summon the strength to break out of here. If only I could see him again. Perhaps…I'd draw strength from that, and find the courage to save him.
Don't cry, no one blames you for loving someone
No one can stop the feelings of becoming to love someone
I'm like that too so
It hurts that you can't slip away
What was that, just now? I thought I heard a faint voice. Ethereal and far away. Singsong and calming…Oh! Could it be? My tears suddenly stop, and I open my eyes. Everything is so hazy. So dark. Are you here, Martel? Can you see me? Can you hear me? Are you here? Oh, how alone I feel, without someone to speak with! How alone I feel, knowing the one person I loved the most betrayed me. Knowing he's not evil, merely confused and lonely? And the one remnant of him is Martel, his Spirit Guardian? Are you here, Martel? You sound so far away…
If I love, I'll be hurting as much as I love
From tomorrow onwards, what should the both of us do?
What repeats is the days that haven't changed for the better
You have to walk, but…
I want you to know that I want to be by your side
I can feel her presence, I can faintly hear her voice. Perhaps with her help, I really could save Kalas, and everyone else. Oh Martel, please, come to me! I need your help…I know she doesn't want this for Kalas either, so together, perhaps we could save him. We both know that the Kalas who betrayed us is not the same as the Kalas we both once first met. We both want to be by his side, so surely together we can save him from the darkness. I know we can! Just wait Kalas. We're coming for you.
You won't be alone anymore.
If I love, it'll hurt as much as I love,
It seems that's why I can become stronger gently
Even sadness can be changed in my thoughts, I look like I believe in it
Because I won't ever give up the feelings of thinking of you
I actually like how that turned out. Very much so. But, please do tell me what you thought okay? I love getting reviews. Makes me happy. So, please tell me what you thought of this okay?