This my first fan fic ever, So I'm not really good at it. Anyways no flames! It's rated T because it uses strong language and just to be safe as well.

Just to let you know, When they're thinking this is how it's going to be.

Just making that clear

Chapter One

"Realizing the Truth"

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The sky was filled with beautiful shining stars but tiny rain drops started falling. And the once star covered sky was fill with dark gray clouds covering everything and only let out little space for the moon to shine. Starfire was sitting on her bed looking outside her window, watching the sky getting darker and darker. 'Well the sky certainly matches my mood right now'.

I don't know how I thought was a chance for Robin and me to be together

You were hoping that he could break his rules for you.

I suppose... but what good did that do? He broke his rules for her

He chose her and he made that clear when he announced it. You must move on.

I know that I have too but this pain hurts so much and it's impossible to just ignore it.

In time our wound will heal. Remember what our brother had said "Hearts are easy to be broken, but they are hard to heal". Just let it heal.

I can't believe I thought Robin would ever love a girl like me. How could I been so stupid for having hope? I don't know. I thought he loved me and I thought he cared for me but I suppose I was wrong. He only thinks of me as his best friend and nothing more. I should have known he didn't love me. We were just best friends. Ever since she came he started hanging around with her constantly I was getting jealous.

I can't blame him though.She is a nice person and looks way prettier than I do and they both obviously have a lot of things in common. I can't believe I didn't see it coming. But what kept me hanging was a thread of hope.There is nothing to hold on anymore. I can't stay here any longer. Of course I would not leave the Titans permanently. If Robin wants to stay as best friends then we will stay as best friends but lately I don't even think we're the best of friends. He is too caught up with her. Well that's how love is... You get caught up. I should know - I used to be in love. (In case you all don't know she means Robin not some other guy.)

He does care for you. Just not in the way you wanted him to. It hurts, I know. After all -I am you but we need to move on.

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"What are you doing?" At the sound of the voice Starfire snapped out of the conversation that was going on in her head. She noticed that Raven was standing beside her with her eyes showing a bit of concern. Raven didn't change at all over this couple of months. She still had her same attitude but Raven started to show a bit of emotion one time or another.The last time it managed to break a light bulb.

"Nothing Friend Raven, but thank you for your concern. I am very sorry for not noticing you were in my sleeping chambers." Starfire was the same but her choice in clothes had changed. She still wore the same uniform when shewas in battle but the only differencewas thatit looked like the one her older sister Blackfire had. Everytime she wears normal clothes to go to places like "the mall of shopping" (as Starfire calls it), She would wear dark colors. Once in a while she would wear a shirt that was pink and had the words "nothing else to wear" in black letters. Raven took a seat next Starfire.

"Starfire I know you're lying to me. One, because I know you better than that. Two, I can sense a disturbance remember -I'm an empath"

"Sorry... I was just thinking."

Raven notice how Starfire kept looking outside her window. Raven couldn't find anything outside that would interest the young alien. It was raining outside and Starfire always loved it when it was bright and sunny. But she had changed over these couple of months and honestly she felt that she barely knew Starfire now. Raven sighed. 'This is going to be one of the toughest Girl Talks thatI will ever have with Starfire.' Starfire usually talked about her planet, things that interest her in Earth, or Robin. Raven knew Starfire had a thing for Robin and what was funny is that Robin also had a thing for her. The keyword was had. But when she came, Robin had a crush on her and forgot all about Starfire.

"Thinking about what exactly?"

"I was thinking about leaving the Titans"

Starfire stopped looking outside from her window and turn to Raven. Starfire looked at Raven straight in the eyes. Raven had noticed that her eyes were filled with so many emotions but what she could tell the most was hurt.

"But why!" Raven noticed that her powers were starting to lose control butshe calmly took a breath and immediately relaxed. "Why do you want leave us Starfire? We careabout you." Raven try to say that monotonously but it didn't work.

"I know Raven that you all care for me but I just can't stay here any longer... I don't mean for good just for a while, like a couple of months. I want to go to a place and stay there for a while. I want to deal with this broken heart. Watching them kissing and performing other ways of showing affection is not helping this situation." Starfire let out a breath that she didn't even knew she was holding. "I just want to 'cool off' as you earthlings say it."

"But Starfire just ignore that insensitive jerk and his stupid preppy girlfriend and stay with us"

"Its not only them Raven. I developed the feeling that I am not needed around here.I want to go somewhere where I know I am needed. I want to learn new things and I know by staying here it will not help my need of learning more about this planet. Besides you all have her in the team - I know the team would not lose any fire power of my departure. Please Friend Raven you must understand that i can't stay here."

Raven knew how she felt. She had felt heartbroken. When your heart has been broken it's not easy to move on. After all she had felt that way when Terra was here. Terra wasn't a bad person and she knew Beast Boy and Terrawould eventually like each other but she had hoped that they wouldn't and it happened anyway. Raven felt heartbroken and betrayed all the time Terra was here. But the feeling of Starfire not being needed wasn't just a feeling. Robin made that clear to her. He always forgot about her in battle plans and where she would normally be on a plan, Robin's girlfriend would certainly be in her place.

"I understand Starfire but where would you go?

"I honestly don't know friend Raven. But it will be anywhere but Jump City."

"That's ok Starfire but remember to be careful because there a lot of bastards out there who are trying to get in bed with someone."

Starfire laughed. It was a long time since Starfire laughed and she enjoyed the feeling. 'Oh how I missed the joy of laughter. I hope in this new destination of mine I will once again enjoy the joy of laughter.'

"Very well friend Raven but I honestly don't see how people can say cruel words to each other. Beastboy and Cyborg do it constantly on breakfast." Raven didn't say anything when Starfire laughed. This was the first time she had seen Starfire laugh since Robin's girlfriend came. It made her smile a bit. Raven quickly let the smile vanish before Starfire noticed. However, Starfire did notice and it made her a happy that Raven smiled but the pain was still there.

"Starfire, Beastboy and Cyborg are just idiots and it is different from what I am saying because there are a lot people out there who are ba--- well, you know ... not nice. " Raven was trying to calm herself. She could feel her emotions to get loose but she managed to once again gaincontrol her emotions. "Starfire, when are you leaving?"

"I want to leave tonight"

"I guess that's now because its already night. Aren't you going to pack up anything like clothes or something?"

"Yes, I'm only taking a few things. Clothing, the green paper that is called money and also my book that holds secrets... objects of that sort." Starfire got up from the bed, grabbed a black backpack and started stuffing it with her things.

"Diary. The book that holds secrets its called a diary." Raven couldn't help but smile on how her best friend referred to things. This was the last time she was going to see herfor a while and she wanted to make sure she can treasure the moment. She was trying to show a bit of emotion, butshe didn't want to show much because she didn't want anything to explode.

"Yes.A Diary. I will be taking that with me as well." Starfire smiled and kept saying the word diary over and over quietly so she could remember it next time. Raven started forgetting all thoughts of her best friend leaving.

The thoughts of all the titans before Beastboy's girlfriend and Robin's girlfriend came to her mind. I miss those days so much. But as soon as she noticed Starfire grab some money and put it in her backpack she remembered what was happening and frowned.

How could she go on and have girl talks without her? Yes, therewas Robin's girlfriend but it wouldn't be the same. First,Kelseywas not Starfire and nobody could replace her. Second, shewas one of the main reasons that Raven's best friendwas leaving. Raven started looking around the room so she wouldn't see Starfire packing and getting ready to leave. It was already hard enough to keep her emotions in check. If she didn't, allHell would break loose and she couldn't let that happen. As soon as she finished looking around she noticed how different it was from the last time she came.The last time she came was when she and Starfirewere meditating in here a couple of months ago.

"Your room has certainly changed." The room looked the same but the colors were the only difference. Instead all purple and pink it was filled with black and white. Raven couldn't say she hated it but it wasn't Starfire's style.

"Yes. Its been like this for a couple of months now."

"I guess i haven't been in here for a while."

"Honestly nobody has been in my sleeping chambers. I really didn't felt like associating with anyone. " Starfire said that monotonously. That was unusual for Starfire but in this present state of hers Raven of course didn't expect her to be happy. "Oh, how I failed to see where I get that from" Starfire said that in a sarcastic voice.That could of been another unusual thing for Starfire to do but to Raven it was normal. She after all was the one who taught her about sarcasm and other things as well. Lately Starfire used it a lot but people tended to miss her sarcasm.

"I guess I shouldn't of taught you sarcasm. Your getting to good at it. You may even pass me, and I am 'the Queen of Sarcasm' as Beast Boy refers to me sometimes." Starfire chuckled at this.

"Well Friend Raven I should departure very soon because I don't want to leave when its very late."

"Starfire wait! I have two questions for you."

"Very well I will answer your questions. After all it would be rude of me not to answer you." Starfire had finished packing by this time, so she took a seat next to Raven in her bed.

"Ok, well...First of all how are you going to get to your destination?" It may sound stupid to other people because she can fly but it wasn't. "Since you can't obviously fly because you don't the feel joy of flight." See it wasn't a stupid question. Stupid questions weren't Raven's thing. It was mostly Beast Boy's thing.

"I have decided that I am going to take the transportation of the yellow car." At soon as Raven heard this she got up and when to Starfire's phone. Raven was calling the Taxi company. Meanwhile, Starfire was once again thinking. She was merely having a discussionin her head again.

'Should I really go through this?'

'Yes, you know you want to. We need to deal with the pain somewhere else.'

'But it wouldn't be fair leaving the Titans to do my part of the job and chores.'

'What, the job of cleaning? Come on that is all you do in this tower. Clean . You even clean for them which is unbelievable. Just leave and let's come back when we're ready.'

'I suppose you're right. I do all the cleaning in this tower and Robin doesn't even bother putting me in the team's battle plans.'

'See I told you I was right. Well, you were right but you know what I mean!'

Starfire came back to reality as soon as she saw Raven hanging up the phone.

"Sorry it took a while. They couldn't believe a Titan called them and that another Titan wanted to be taking somewhere. They said the ride is for free. That's their way of repaying usfor saving the city, I guess." Starfire smiled. Raven was the nicest person she ever met. It didn't matter what everybody else said.She knew Raven better than anyone. Even better than Robin and Raven even considered himas a brother sometimes. Raven was standing next to the door and she knew that the taxi will be arriving shortly.

"Ok, anyways, that answers question number one. Now for the second question. Are you going to say goodbye to the others?"

"Its painful enough to say farewell to you Friend Raven. I left a note for Friend Beastboy, Friend Cyborg and also for Robin. I doubt he will even notice though." Starfire walked next to Raven.

"Well remember to be careful and and remember to call me once in a while to see if your ok and Starfire remember to call me immediately if you need anything. And come home as soon as you can."

"Very well Raven."

"Goodbye Starfire and remember we still care for you."

"Farewell Raven and don't worry, I will." Raven hugged Starfire. As soon as they let go Starfire started leaving her room and started heading for the taxi that was sure to be outside by now. (The company wasn't that far from here). She walked down the hall. It was about 11 and everybody should have been asleep.

The Titans would normally sleep later than that but Robin made them go to sleep earlier so they will not be tired during battle. Raven wasn't following her and Starfire expected that. She knewRaven wouldn't follow her. Her emotions will be harder to deal with.

Starfire made it to the living room and was relieved that no one was there. If anyone found her she would have to explain why was she leaving and that Starfire didn't want to do. Starfire finally made it to the door. She opened it and went outside. Starfire took a last look at the gigantic T that she once called home. She sighed wistfully.

"I will miss this place very much... But I just can't stay here."

Starfire just noticed that it had stopped raining. Maybe this is sign of bright things heading for my way. The cab was already waiting for her,as she expected, on the other side of the island. She wouldhave normally flown over to the other side but once again she couldn't. She had to take the bridge that led her there. Either that or go to the other side of the island and walk on the road that the T-Car and R-Cycle took, and she really didn't feel like walking far. Starfire got in the cab and she look through the window and saw a shadow figure standing in the front of the tower. Starfire tried to get a good look at the shadow figure before she left and saw that it was Raven. Raven was on the verge of tears but she blinked them back and just waved a good bye before she entered back to the tower.

"Where you heading for, Miss Starfire?" A man that look like he was in his mid-thirties asked.

"Um... I am not really sure. Would you mind telling me the closest cities?"

"No problem. There is Gotham, Star City, Steel City, and York City."

"I will like to go to Steel City please."

"Well this is going to take a while and we offered the best for one of the greatest super heroes on Jump City. You can find a bag fill with junk food incase you get hungry next to. This is our way to repay you guys for saving the city everyday. It may not be much but that's all we can do. Well, Steel City here we go." The man started the car and in seconds the cab drove away to Steel City...

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To Be Continued...

Remember this is my first fic. So if it sucked, I will work on it. Please Review and remember NO FLAMES.

CREDITS: Thanks to Rose Mage for proof reading this chapter.

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