!Super Massive Big Update!

This story started (as you can see) way back in 2005 when I was the ripe old age of 14, and up until recently I felt that I had outgrown this story. I was planning on just deleting it BUT I've had people asking me to continue this story and it seems a shame to disappoint such polite requests.

But before I could finish it, I decided that I needed to go over and fix a LOT of stuff, not just style wise – but I had to make a lot of the concepts clearer! I'd re-read the chapters if I were you, it might make things clearer! :D

I do not own Teen Titans

Raven glanced over her shoulder as she stood, lingering at the mouth of the alleyway. She pulled the hood of her jumper up over her head, obscuring her dark purple hair and pale skin from the light of the afternoon. The alley was deserted apart from the stray rats scrabbling in the rubbish. She stopped in front of a dilapidated door and knocked gently, the cheap piece of plywood used to board up the window rattling uselessly. She knocked again, leaning in as though listening for something, after a few moments her patience was rewarded.

"Who's there?" A voice asked croakily, the door still shut. The girl looked side to side before answering; making sure no one had followed her.
"It's Raven" She replied quietly in a monotone voice. Raven waited and listened to the familiar sounds of many locks and keys being opened from the inside. A few minutes later the door opened and a woman stood in the hallway hunched over her walking stick. Her skin, which was as thin as paper and just as pale, crinkled as she smiled and ushered Raven in. The small room was barely the size of an average bedroom – every wall was covered floor to ceiling with books. Teacups and half-empty plates teetered precariously at the top of book stacks.

"I haven't seen you here in a long time. Finished the last couple of books I gave you?" The lady asked kindly, closing the door behind Raven and hobbling over to stand beside her. Raven turned to look at the lady standing next to her, a small smile lingering on her lips.
"Yes thank you Louhi. I found the books to be...very interesting. I have finished them all; I was wondering if you had any new ones in?" Raven's voice was polite and precise as she looked at the old lady intently. Louhi smiled and shuffled over to a small ladder that reached up to the ceiling.
"Hold my stick will you, dear?" Louhi asked holding out her walking stick for Raven to take. Raven walked over to where Louhi was standing and took it from her outstretched hand. The old lady slowly moved herself onto the bottom rung of the ladder and painfully made her way up, pausing to look at dusty volumes every now and again before going up further.
"The jewel of hestel? No, no, too dull. The curse of Yrtimous? No, no too long." Louhi ran her fingers along the spines of the books, reading the titles out loud and dismissing them just as loudly.
"HARRY POTTER? How did that get in here?" shrieked Louhi indignantly, flinging the book to the floor with a look of sheer disgust on her face.

Raven stood there patiently examining the walking stick with great interest: the wood was made from a dark red wood. Carved into the body was a face – Louhi's late husband. Raven frowned slightly as her fingers brushed an engraving on the handle, she moved it into the dim lamplight and squinted as she tried to make out the word written there, it was in a language that she had never heard before. She frowned slightly as she wondered what it could mean

A hand appeared of Ravens shoulder making her jump, Louhi chuckled merrily holding an armful of books. Raven shook her head, embarrassed that she hadn't heard the old woman sneak up behind her. Raven took the books out of Louhi's short arms and handed her back her stick.

"Any one I should read first?" She asked.

"That one," Louhi smiled mischievously pointing at a large black book in the middle of the pile.
"It's a magical book that uses characters from your real life and integrates them into the story. Very amusing as you have no control over who is who, but normally the reader is the main character." Louhi smiled wistfully and sighed "But I was the princess."

Raven arched an eyebrow, struggling to look at the spine of the book

"Oh don't be put off by my description, it is fantastic, it really is. Raven, it would mean a lot to me if you read this one." Raven shook her head once more,

"It didn't sound bad Louhi. I'm just surprised as it doesn't have a title." Louhi looked at the book fondly and smiled, drifting off into her own world.

"The Black book" she whispered just loud enough for Raven to hear. A few moments of quiet passed, the only noise being the creaking of the shelves. Raven stood there awkwardly wondering if she should leave, after a few moments Louhi shook her head and smiled at Raven.

"Sorry Raven dear, is that all?" Louhi asked kindly, her old face wrinkling up into a wide smile. Raven nodded and handed her a wad of money, which the old lady greedily stuffed into her pocket. Raven shifted her large bag round so that she could pile the books into it. Raven bowed her head respectfully and turned to leave, winding her way in and out through the piles of books. Just as Raven's hand touched the door knob Louhi called after her,
"Forever!" Raven turned around to face the old lady, a frown obvious on her grey face.
"That is what the word on my walking stick means."
Louhi smiled knowingly, enjoying Raven trying to conceal her surprise. Raven turned around, opened the door and stepped back out into the alley way. She blinked a few times getting used to the light of day. She walked swiftly until she arrived in a busy road, full of people rushing about. Raven pulled her hood over her head even further and blushed; she glanced up at a shop and saw the digital clock on the outside of the building flashing at her.

Time to go back to the tower and change before the others get back.
Raven thought to herself worriedly. As much as she liked going to the old book shop there was something she didn't like about Louhi, something that didn't feel right.

She had only found the bookshop by chance one day when she had gone shopping with Starfire. She had left Starfire in the "The Princesses' Pink Palace!" and decided to lurk in the alleys till Starfire had exhausted herself. Raven remembered walking down the alley and sensing something, something that reminded her of home. She followed the trail and found herself outside the door covered in graffiti. Raven had knocked until an old lady answered her rudely asking her what she wanted. Raven had explained what she felt hesitantly but there was something about the old lady that seemed different. Raven couldn't tell whether it was good or bad. And still, after months of visiting, she still couldn't.

Raven arrived back to the tower with enough time to have a shower and change before the others came home from their shopping. As she tidied her already pristine room she had heard the door slam for the fourth and final time as the last titan arrived home. She sighed heavily and closed her eyes concentrating on suppressing her emotions. After a few moments her body began to rise and she was floating in the air in her normal meditating stance. She opened one eye and glanced over at her bag which contained all of the books she had bought earlier that day.

Read the book, Read the book, Read the Book...

A voice whispered menacingly in her head, Raven attempted ignore it and closed her eye in an attempt to get back into her meditating regime. She squeezed her eyes shut trying to block out the urge to read the book, she needed to meditate, and she needed to rest. After a few moments and a mental battle she used her powers to open the bag and pull out the book, bringing it to her in a swift motion.

Just one chapter.
She promised herself silently opening the old book with great care. Suddenly a great wave of déjà vu came over her. She knew this book. Raven searched her mind trying to think of where she knew this feeling from, why this book felt so familiar. Her eyes widened as she realized where she had felt this feeling before.

This book is from Azarath!

All of the titans were in good moods, all of the titans that were present that was. Beast boy hadn't seen Raven all day and he didn't even know if she had come home.

"Err, Guys where's Raven?" Beast boy asked Robin, Cyborg and Starfire who were sitting on the sofas showing off the things they had bought for the umpteenth time that day. They stopped what they were doing to look at beast boy with puzzled faces, all trying to remember if they had seen her.

"She came out to get tea earlier, ages ago though" Said Cyborg turning back to a strange metal object that Starfire was holding like a baby.

"Err, Starfire? That's a microwave" Robin said gently not wanting to upset her. Starfire turned and grinned at Robin hugging it tightly.

"No friend Robin, that is where you are wrong. It is a Nygemborf from my home planet, watch it dance and listen to it sing!" she chirped happily pressing a few buttons on the front turning it on and go round, a slight humming coming from the microwave, after thirty seconds it tinged causing Starfire to squeal with delight and hug it harder. After a few moments the microwave crippled under starfires strength. There was a moment of silence before Starfire began to cry hysterically. Beast boy looked at Robin who just shrugged and moved over to Starfire, who flung herself at Robin, gripping him tightly. Robin blushed and patted her awkwardly on her shoulder.
"It's ok Starfire. We will get you another Nygemborf." Robin said kindly trying not to laugh with Cyborg who was rolling around on the floor behind Starfire, laughing silently. Beast boy allowed himself a small smile, shaking his head at Starfire and her innocence and naivety.

"So you think I should check on Raven, see if she is ok or anything?" Beast boy asked Cyborg who had managed to calm down and was wiping away the tears of happiness that had been streaming down his face. However at Beast boys question his face hardened seriously.

"No dude, Just leave her. She's probably just meditating, reading or something – she'll come out whenever."

Beast boy lowered his head,
"Yeah but I got a movie, I thought we could all watch it together."
"Well, you can ask, but she probably won't come and watch it anyway." Cyborg replied as he shrugged.
"Ok, ok, I can go and get her if you want?" Robin offered, but beast boy couldn't see that happening, Starfire was still sobbing uncontrollably into his shoulder.

"No it's ok, I'll do it." beast boy said, hoisting up his trouser bottoms and flexing posing like superman. Cyborg greeted this remark with a retching sound matched with equally amusing motions of being sick. Robin tried to conceal his snicker as Beast boy blushed.
"I think I can manage it." He said weakly, disheartened.

Beast boy set off down the hallway, suddenly realizing how quiet it was, the only noise was the faint echo every now and again of one of the other titans in the lounge area talking. Beast boy had been trying not to think about why he wanted to get Raven himself, he kept joking that he was the only one brave enough, or when that didn't work that he just wanted to see her but then he couldn't deny it any longer.

Why am I so desperate to get Raven involved anyway? She always used to keep to herself, and it never bothered me before. Why do I need to be around her all the time?
Beast boy was surprised he had asked himself the question, he knew the answer, but that didn't mean he liked it.
Because I like her.
He offered weakly to himself, trying to avoid the thought that was going to come sooner or later, a thought that he would have to accept.
Because I really REALLY like her.

Raven sat on her bed engrossed in book. When she had read the first chapter it seemed so odd, Starfire was a princess, Robin a knight, she and beast boy were companions and, Raven couldn't help but find the thought of Cyborg as a fat friar fairly amusing. Halfway through the book she gasped and put it down, she left her room quickly to get a cup of tea and scurried back. She picked up the book again, not daring to look at the pages, after a few moments and a couple sips of her tea she looked at the page. She didn't know what to make of it, her and beast boy? Raven chose to try and ignore the blush that rose on her cheek as she read about him kissing her, adoring her purple hair and hugging her. After a few moments she felt something in the bottom of her stomach, she wondered what it could be

"Wishful thinking." she whispered, she suddenly realized what she said and shook her head like she was trying to rid her head of all the thoughts that had suddenly arrived in her mind.

Wishful thinking? She asked herself, not actually sure what she was wishing for. But the voice that answered certainly seemed to know, it sounded sure and confident and Raven was so shocked she couldn't find the words to answer it.
Beast Boy.

After a few moments of trying to pull herself back together she submerged back into the book, a couple more hours passed and she had nearly finished when someone knocked at the door. Groaning she struggled over to the door, her legs stiff and sore from sitting cross legged. Beast boy stood in the door way, his normal grin missing. He seemed nervous but Raven couldn't understand why.

"Err, Raven I was wondering do you want to come and watch a movie with us guys? I bought it today, it is called 'Black river boat' and I just thought you might want to watch it but if you don't you don't have to because I don't mind but it would be kind of cool to have you there because it would be nice to see you because we haven't seen you like all day and, and…and…." Beast boys ramblings trailed off as he looked at Raven who was standing there, arms crossed.

"I'll come and sit with you, but I'll be reading." Raven said, her voice its normal monotone. Her reply was met with beast boy's usual grin fixing itself back on his face.

Raven and beast boy walked side by side down the corridor, beast boy rambling on about the other things he had bought. Raven wasn't really listening, she was thinking about a scene that kept replaying over and over in her mind. Her first kiss with beast boy in the book, it was written so beautifully and Raven actually felt her self blush as she read it. Raven was brought sharply down to Earth by her hand brushing beast boys, they both stopped and looked at each other, blushing violently, both struggling to come up with explanations and both failing to do so. After a few moments they carried on walking down the corridor, this time a little further apart.

Did you just try to hold her hand?
Beast boy asked himself as he walked down the corridor as far away from Raven as he could put himself without looking suspicious. He started walking slightly slower so he could watch her; he tilted his head considering this question.
No, but I wish I had.

After a few moments they arrived in the lounge area, Starfire had calmed down and they were all talking quietly, beast boy frowned suspiciously. Cyborg was the first to notice Beast boy and Raven enter and he coughed and yelled loudly,
"Oh hey RAVEN and BEAST BOY! Come to watch the movie?" As Cyborg spoke Robin and Starfire stopped talking suddenly and looked embarrassed. Beast boy smiled at Robin and wiggled his eyebrows, Robin still hadn't let go of Starfire. Robin blushed even harder and glared evilly at beast boy. Raven sat down on the sofa next to Cyborg who was trying to hold back a smile, beast boy couldn't understand what was so funny. Beast boy made his way over to the giant T.V screen and popped the DVD into the player.

"Are you ready to see the scariest film ever? Even scarier than wicked scary? Are ya? Huh? Huh?" Beast boy teased the titans getting back to his normal self. He ran over to the light switch and plunged the titans into utter darkness apart from the glare of the T.V screen and the dim moonlight outside. He zoomed back over to the sofa and looked at the places available, one next to Cyborg, one next to Robin and Starfire and one that was almost opposite Raven.

As the film started Beast boy watched Raven read, her eyes scanning along an old black book that lay in her lap, he saw a strand of hair fall in front of her face and watched her tuck it behind her ear. Cyborg was sitting perfectly still, his mouth wide open, his eyes blank. Beast boy couldn't help but smile, he knew that Cyborg was actually really scared of these kind of movies. After the film had finished they all agreed how horrifying it was, and how much they loved it. Even Raven appreciated how scary it had been and she hadn't been watching it. She turned a page and a piece of paper floated out of the book, she looked at it as it drifted to the floor.

"Hey Raven I think you dropped something" Beast boy said pointing at the paper as it touched the floor, Raven looked up at him hard, he blushed under her cold gaze, Cyborg bent over and picked the piece of paper up and handed it to raven who put her book down next to her to take the piece of paper out of Cyborgs hand. All of the other titans watched as Raven turned it over onto the side where the writing was

"What does it say friend Raven?" Starfire asked innocently and Raven found herself opening her mouth and speaking in her own language, in Azarathian. All of the titans listened to Raven, transfixed by her words. As Raven went on her eyes widened as she realised it was a spell. She tried to stop reading but she couldn't, another force was acting through her and she had no control. Suddenly the lights in the tower started to flicker and a wind came out of nowhere knocking things off, turning the table over and blowing the curtains violently. All of the titans were yelling at Raven to stop, trying to hang onto the sofa as so not to be swept away by the wind but she wouldn't, she couldn't. Raven finished speaking the spell, a look of pure horror on her face.

"I-" But before she could say anything a jet of black energy shot out from the book and hit Robin, dragging him towards the book.

"Robin!" the titans called simultaneously struggling against the wind to try and reach their leader, but no one could move without fear of being swept away. Next was Starfire, who didn't manage to grab onto anything and ended pushing Robin into the book as well. The wind was getting stronger and Raven knew what had to be done.

"Cyborg, Beast boy! Remember who you are! You live in titans' tower, we just watched a movie! Just try and remember, we're titans. We're the TEEN TITANS!" She screamed above the wind, hoping that they could hear her. The big strand of energy went towards Cyborg and dragged him into the book. It was just her and Beast boy.

"Beast boy!" Raven called, not bothering to hide her emotions

"Yeah?" Beast boys voice called back, just as frightened as hers.

"I want you to do something!" She called, straining to keep her eyes open but the wind made it very painful,
"Think about your life, remember names, think about everything that is important to you. Just keep thinking, I am beast boy, I am beast boy. Ok? Please do this, trust me!" Raven thought she saw beast boy nod before another black jet of energy shot out of the book. She saw him clawing at items trying not to be sucked into the book.

"Beast boy! Remember who you are, remember who I am. Remember! Don't think of anything else!" Raven called and Raven thought she saw beast boy smile at her before he was pulled into the book.

"I am Raven" Raven whispered to herself "I come from Azarath. I am a teen titan. I live in jump city. I am Raven, I am Raven." Then she felt the black energy hit her as she was sucked into the book. The lights in the titans' tower turned back on, the wind stopped and everything was still and there wasn't a person in sight. The only thing that moved was the old black book; it snapped shut and rolled of the sofa.

SomeWhereInTheBook

"Raven?" Raven heard a voice say "It's me, beast boy. I remembered." Raven opened her eyes, she was lying on the ground and beast boy was crouching next to her.

"I remember too." She whispered quietly, a wave of relief washing over her.

"Raven, where are we? And who are we meant to be?" Beast boy asked offering a hand for Raven to take to help her up. Raven took his hand shyly and stood off and went to brush her clothes of the dirt but paused. She wasn't wearing her clothes, they were brown and dirty. They were travellers' clothes. Raven sighed.

"We are on the road to Siahn City. We are travellers." Raven shook her head, trying to wake herself up from what must be a bad dream.

"Raven, what happened" Beast boy asked, his voice pleading, Raven turned to him angrily but her face softened. He was taller, still green but taller and his hair was slightly longer, he looked…nice.

"That was a spell. We have to act out what happens in the book to get out" she paused suddenly remembering something.
"We need to find Robin and Starfire" She looked up at his face, his eyes were wide and he was staring at something behind her.
"I don't think we need to find them. Looks like they've found us." Beast boy said, a smile playing on his lips.

Raven turned around slowly and her mouth dropped open.

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