Firsts (410 words)
A short fic I wrote a while back... sorta weird... (for those who read "Interludes", sorry I haven't updated yet... been busy... I will soon, though. Maybe even today...)
The only memory Satoshi had of his 'real' family was his mother. His mother, with such a remorseful face, telling him not to hold anything dear to him. His mother, dying; fervently repeating apologies.
/I'm sorry, Satoshi… My dear, beautiful child… I'm sorry for giving you this cursed existence… I'm sorry…/
Whether or not anyone knew or believed, Hikari Rio loved her son; and her son cared for her in turn. And so, when Rio had died of a long, painful illness, Hikari Satoshi took her most fervent request to heart.
/Kill yourself… and do not hold anything dear to you…/
Satoshi never held anything precious to him. He lived his life detached from feeling. Cold, logical, uncaring. He did not let himself care when a kind Hiwatari Seiichirou adopted him, nor when his once-loving adoptive father became consumed with greed and delved far too deeply into Hikari family history.
For nearly a decade, Satoshi let himself feel nothing; living his life doing nothing but accomplishing the tasks his father set. Slowly, he started to forget how to feel.
/So that he may never awaken…/
On his fourteenth year, Hiwatari Satoshi became the commander-in-chief of the Azumano Police Force. And, for the first time in his life, Hikari Satoshi asked for something. To be given full reign of the capture of Dark, whom he was sure would come.
/To eliminate Krad, Dark must be eliminated./
Satoshi, for the first time in his life, attended school with people his age, and yet, nothing changed. He only thought of his goal – his mother's goal. He anticipated, watched, waited, prepared.
But, as all plans go, things changed. Things fell into disarray.
/Hi! Are you new? I've never seen you before… I'm Niwa Daisuke. You are.../
For the first time in his life, Satoshi was offered a hand in friendship. By a Niwa, no less.
/…I am… Hiwatari Satoshi./
/Daiisukeee! There you are! Come on, I need to show you something!/
/Saehara! Stop dragging me! I was talking to someone…/
/Eh? I'm sure it can wait…/
/Mou, Saehara! Anou…! Hiwatari-kun! I hope you enjoy yourself! Sorry I have to leave all of a sudden…/
/…Niwa…ka? …His smile is… warm…/
Hikari were not meant to feel. The goal of a Hikari's life is to suppress, and perhaps eliminate, their curse. But at that moment, Satoshi, for the first time since his adoption, decided that maybe he could be a Hiwatari, even for just a bit.
3 firsts: Satoshi asking for something for himself, attending school with his age group, and thinking that maybe he could be a Hiwatari instead of a Hikari.
The first three flashback lines are from Volume 4… the rest are made up. 4th flashback line would be Satoshi's words, to himself.
"His smile… is warm." The significance of this is that Satoshi isn't used to having people smile sincerely at him. He was used to the "cold" smiles of his father and his colleagues.