Colorless Heart
Chapter 12 Pangs
"The greater your capacity to love, the greater your capacity to feel the pain."- Jennifer AnistonWhy is it that I always end up in his room? Sakura rubbed her temples with her fingers as she rolled unto her side searching the darkening room for a clock.
There was one right by the bed laying face down. She lifted it up, 6:34.
"Fuck!" she was very much awake now. She had slept through half of her first day of watching Nami.
If those instructors hated me before they will hate me more now!
Without even thinking she was already strapping back on all her equipment. She buckled the last strap than quickly made her way out of the room and down the hall. She would have to go and explain herself to Lord Donabe. He's gonna be pissed…
"Sakura-chan!" a voice called from behind her. Naruto, mud and sweat streaked, came up to her. He smelt awful, like burnt cider and blood mixed with his own sweat.
She wrinkled her nose.
"That bad huh?" Naruto smiled shyly, "Don't worry, I was on my way to the showers. So how was your first day on guard duty…as you can no doubtfully see my day was "eventful".
Sakura gave a quick smile, "And smelly. What the hell happened?"
"A bomb…rigged to an old inn. Nothing to major…hey! I asked you about your day."
The kunoichi's mouth twitched a little before she explained to him what happened. Naruto's gaped at her, "You fell asleep!?"
"I was feeling sick…" unconsciously Sakura rubbed at the bandage on her arms. Naruto's eyes instantly snapped down to her wrists, a dark look spread over his face as he mouthed a silent "oh".
"Well…you had better report to Lord Donabe." Sakura was shocked by the sudden coldness in her blond boy's voice. He passed by her without another word. Sakura felt the familiar burn of tears, I can't do anything right! Her mind roared as she continued down the hall.
The kunoichi was passing through the courtyard, and newly made training field, down to the main house when her sensei's path crossed hers.
"Sakura, are you feeling better?"
No! You are the last person I wanted to see!
Embarrassed? Her inner voice scoffed, You do seem to end up in his bed frequently…think it's kinda like a Freudian slip…except without the talking?
"Uh…yeah."
"Where are you headed?"
Damn it damn it! He'll think I'm a total bum if I tell him I didn't do my duties because I was still asleep.
"I have to go talk to Lord Donabe…" she grumbled kicking at the ground.
Kakashi seemed to know what she was thinking about and quickly he said, "oh! Don't worry about Nami! I took care of it…"
Sakura looked up at him sadly, Now Kakashi is covering for me? How worthless…
He smiled, not paying attention to her expression, "You owe me one Haruno. Spar with me? I need a practice partner."
Sakura groaned inwardly, "This seems more like a punishment then a way of thanking you."
"To bad! Besides you haven't sparred for a while. You are probably getting rusty, I know I am." He chuckled before taking a few paces back from her and slid up his headband, revealing the sharingan.
"Ready?"
Sakura smirked, her hand hovering above her kunai pouch. She was doing fine until she looked up at him.
His eyes…they looked at her so playfully…so sweetly. The pang. That sharp pang in her abdomen returned. But what frightened her more was now she finally realized, how that the feeling was familiar.
Painful but yet at the same time it felt good. Felt real, felt alive.
The kunoichi had to admit. Kakashi was a better high then cutting herself.
A flash of silver. He was gone. Up? Down? The left!
She pulled out a kunai quickly to use to block his, "That was quick, Sakura!"
He jumped back and repositioned himself. Sakura could already tell by the way he was standing he was going to be jumping around a lot. She would have to pay attention.
Somehow his movements seemed slower as he zigzagged around her and she parried his blows.
"You're getting old Kaka-sensei!" she laughed, moving to the offensive, pushing him back to the wall.
"No…you're just getting stronger." His voice was so soft and so full of pride in her that Sakura faltered.
He saw the opening, but did not move to take over the offensive.
"Sakura?"
The pink haired kunoichi had frozen in place.
Oh god…oh no…I remember where I felt this…"I'm…I'm sorry." She shook her head and looked up at those eyes again. Red and black, fixed in worry for her.
"If this is too much for you right now. I know you haven't been feeling well."
He tried to put an arm on her shoulder but she waved his hand back.
"No…it's not that…it's"
Sakura winced. The pang was growing as her heart raced and the realization hit her.
This feeling…Sasuke…it was his feeling. But now. Now.
"I…I have to go sensei. I'm sorry we couldn't finish our practice."
She fled from him. Fled from those caring proud eyes. Fled from her own feelings.
Because now Haruno Sakura knew why she kept ending up in his arms, why she felt this pang within her.
She was in love with Kakashi.
Inner Sakura chuckled; It's about time you figured it out.