OK! This one-shot might be a little sad for some. I hope you enjoy because I reeeeeeeeeeeeally want reviews! So don't forget! I know you're smart! Or are you… O.o anyways! Read on, oh wonderful person that has taken the time to read my fanfiction!
Disclaima: Yes, it is true, I don't own the wonderful series known as Fruits Basket… ALTHOUGH! I am a fanatic that owns ALL of the Fruits Basket DVDs and Manga!
Here I am… on my bed in my room, with determination far beyond the highest of all the heavens… I've been here, locked in my room, for three days, not leaving my position… not for food, sleep or any other reason…
I look at my left wrist, uninjured and with the oh so familiar black and white beaded bracelet keeping me human…
Then I look at my right hand… shaking viciously over my left wrist… holding the sharp, metal object that glints in the small light escaping from my shaded window, shining along with the motions of my quivering hand…
I know I would be better off if I just went and did it… my life was over the second I was born… the second I was born the cat… the stupid, useless one in the zodiac… spending my entire life trying hopelessly to beat the damn rat that caused all of it… that same damn rat known as Yuki who had everything… the damn spoiled brat that stole everything from me! Respect from peers, being looked at like he was king of the school, everyone loving every single damn idea he came up with. His own fricken fan club for cryin' out loud!
Then… I think about her… the only one by my side… crying for me… saying the words I need to hear most when I need them… her long beautiful silky brown hair that always smells of that wonderful strawberry shampoo she uses… her soft smiling face…
As I dream of her, he comes in and turns it into a nightmare… That painful dream I've had so many times…
Walking along, by myself… and then I see her there, smiling that smile and running towards me… I can't help but smile and run to her… we get close to embracing… arms out wide… closer… closer… closer… and then…
whoooooooooosssssssssssssshhhhhhh……
That wonderful picture passes through me… sending a cold, shivering feeling through me… I turn around… watching her run a few more feet before entering the arms of the silver haired boy I have come to despise my whole life… I stare in silence, as the two share a passionate kiss… a tear slides down my cheek… then another… and another… the boy then breaks the kiss and looks over at me, and says "You don't deserve anything you stupid cat. All you do is cause problems for everyone. You're worthless, a disgrace… die…" streaming tears are what I feel… I touch my cheek and look and look at my wet hand… then she looks my way… "T-Tohru…" I quietly cry… "help me… p-please… I need you… please… save me…" the tears don't stop. "Yuki, what are you talking to?" I fall to my knees… "Nothing Tohru… let's go." They turn their backs to me and walk on… I sob to myself… all alone in the dark abyss…
Then I wake up with a jolt with sweat on my face… I touch my cheek like in my dream, seeing the tears that formed during my dream…
Thinking about the times that I spent having this dream… I drop the knife, and bury my face in my hands… tears streaming down my face once more… I give up… it's as simple as that… the rat has won… he has stolen everything that once meant something to me…
I take my face away from my hands and look at the blade I dropped. Hand once again quivering uncontrollably, I pick it back up and replace it at my wrist…This is it… my… fate…
I jump at the sound of the handle of my door being turned… so much I accidentally already cut open my wrist.
"Kyo…? Kyo are you in there? It's Tohru, are you alright? Please, can you open the door?"
It's her… the one had my passions set on since I met her…
The handle continues to jiggle… I don't move…
Is she… worried about me?
"Kyo, please! Are you alright? Kyo open the door! Please…."
Is she… crying……?
I get up and walk over to the door… hands still quivering, I turn the lock, then return to my place on my bed.
The door opened and she was there. I didn't look at her, but I knew it was her… I'm worried… she can't know what I'm doing… she might try to stop me…
I hid my hand under my sheets. "What do you want Tohru…"
"I was worried about you is all… have you left your room at all the last few days?"
"Yeah, I just went out the window as usual." I lied.
"Oh… Kyo, are you hiding something?"
I stiffened as she asked that… my wound was starting to bleed like mad. I wrapped my sheet around my wrist silently.
"No, why would I be hiding something?"
"I don't know… well, since you're ok… I'll just be going then…"
"Bye… Tohru…"
The door closed and darkness spread throughout the room again. I took my hand out from under my sheet, wincing having the wound moved. My hand and sheets were soaked with blood now… pain becoming the only thing I could feel…
This is what I deserve… nothing less… I'm not sure what more could be done…
I picked the knife up in my left hand and brought to my right shoulder. This time it was completely tensional. The tip entered the top my shoulder… I shut my eyes, ready for the worst pain of my life… that is, except for my broken, shattered heart…
!SLASH!
Down my shoulder, over my elbow, and through to my wrist… pain striking throughout my body like a million arrows piercing me at once… all finding an individual spot on my body… I bury my head into my pillow to keep down my screams of agony… some escape… but I don't worry… I'll be gone before they make it up the stairs…
I'm losing blood at an amazing pace… I think my hand is white now…
It's not enough… these two cuts could be stitched and bandaged easily… again I pick up the blade… now my entire body is convulsing… I can barely control my hand anymore… I take up most of my strength to cut a deep gash across my stomach…
Now I can't help it… the scream of agony fills my room… most likely someone heard it… maybe not… Shigure can only… hear his own… laughter at Mii… Yuki must… be at that stupid… secret base of his… and Tohru… must be in the… house some… where…
Damn… look at me… I'm so… so pathetic… I'm such a coward… I ran away… with death… as my ticket… now my breath is… shorter than ever…
Isn't this… when my life is… supposed to flash… in front of me? Heh… I guess… I should be happy… I … didn't have the best life… I'm about… to die and… I'm actually… smiling…
Well… this is it… my…visions… fuzzy… and the room… is sp-spinning… this is good-bye…
I… still hear… something… the door…? I musta… forgot to lock it… no…! They might… find… me and… try… to… save… me…
She's standing… right over me… I think she's… yelling but… I can't… hear…
"Tohru…" I manage to say… she looks my way… there are… tears in… her… eyes…
"I love… you… bye…"
A single tear… falls down my cheek… as the darkness consumes me…
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