A/N: So I'm sure a lot of people know me for putting off fics... and it takes me years to finish them. Well this fic I pretty much finished before started to post... Makes it easier on a lot of us. Haha. But this is the edited version (meaning no lemons). You can find the unedited version on It has the same title and it's the Teen Titan category under Cartoon/Anime... NOT comics. Heh... XD

Disclaimer: I do not own Teen Titans. Man... I wish I did. I love it!

Chapter One

Raven felt the tight squeeze in her chest while hugging her knees and trying to remain calm on her bed. The others had knocked on her door plenty of times, to make sure she was ok, but she rudely sent them away each time in hopes they would give up. She was frustrated and excited- and hardly able to keep these emotions in check. She feared for her friends and herself.

Raven walked into the bathroom and stared at the edge of the sink. Slowly she looked into the mirror and her decision had been decided... she had to leave the Teen Titans.

She knew telling the Titans would be too hard so she decided to leave unnoticed. She packed her things and hid them beside her bed, where no one else could see them. She left her room and joined everyone in the living room, where they crowded around on the couch, ate pizza and played video games.

"Raven! Do join us!" Starfire's voice rang in Raven's ears, and though Raven, at first, found this girl to be... how should she put it... too happy? Annoying?... she would miss Starfire and her rambles of friendship. Without a word, Raven sat on the edge of the couch. It was Cyborg and Robin playing- Beast Boy was giving all of his energy to the game, but from the sidelines.

"Sleep much?" He jiggled his eyebrows at her with a grin.

"Must have been tired." She told him. She gave a small smile and Beast Boy nearly fell over, but before he could say anything she looked away. What else could she give him as a good bye gift? This was the one who had never given up on her... even allowed himself to be the butt of her jokes. She loved Beast Boy, and this would always be treasured. This was the last day she'd see her friends. This was the last day she would be near him.

Cyborg gave a huge yawn and shoved half the pizza in his mouth. Amazing how much this group could eat. Raven herself took a slice and looked across the room at Starfire and Robin. This couple, it had been decided, was the perfect match. As Beast Boy had never given up on Raven... Starfire never once turned her back on Robin. Starfire was happiest when she was with Robin- and the feeling seemed to be mutual.

Beast Boy was now battling Cyborg. They always got more worked up than anyone when playing a game. Raven stood and made way to go back to her room. The others would be going to bed soon. It was late and she had been in her room all day.

"Hey, can I talk to you for a second?" Raven turned and looked at Robin. Looking for something to save her, she changed directions of the conversation.

"Where's Starfire?"

"Making something in the kitchen." Robin frowned. He was not so easily fooled. "Let's go outside."

"...I'm rather tired." Raven lied. She hated herself.

"It won't take long." With force this time, Robin grabbed her hand and let her outside. Raven stood at the very edge of the rocks, watching wave after wave roll up and touch the tip of her shoes. She wanted to stay as far away from Robin as she could... one slip up and she'd be telling him everything- then they would all know she was leaving. "Are you alright?"

"Yes." Raven said, her eyes directed at the water. She would not cave. She was not weak.

"Should we talk about this?" Robin's voice was quiet.

"...No." Raven told him. "No." Before more could be said, Starfire was waving out a window and yelling about having made something to eat. Raven made this her escape to go back inside and to her room- the one true sanctuary she had ever had.

She had figured everyone would be asleep. She was wrong. As she stepped out the front door she heard Beast Boy's yawn and a question even she couldn't answer.

"Where are you going?"

"For a walk."

"Oh. Mind if I come along?"

"I want to be alone." She saw Beast Boy's eyes trail to her side and did her best to cover the suitcase of belongings with her cape.

"...Are you coming back?"

"Don't tell anyone." She frowned. "Please."

"I have to tell someone." Beast Boy said. "They'll find out when you don't come out of your room, ever. Though you usually don't anyway."

"Don't tell them." Raven said, with more force.

"Where are you going?"

"I don't know." Raven could finally tell the truth.

"...So you don't know where you're going and you don't think you'll be back." Beast Boy was getting angry, which wasn't common. "Don't you think that's a little selfish?"

"Selfish or not, it's going to happen." Raven sighed. "At least don't tell them until I'm gone. Please, Beast Boy... this is really important."

"You expect me to just let you go?" He was doing his best not to yell. "We're a team here! There's nothing you can't tell us."

"...That isn't true." There were plenty of things she couldn't tell them... like that she was going to destroy the world someday. And that this team would probably end up having to take her out. "I'm not in the team anymore." She took off her Titan badge and shoved it at him. "Good bye, Beast Boy." She left him standing there, her badge in his hands, and had never hated herself more.