Title: Regret
Author: Cheysuli
Rated: R (to be safe)
Pairing: Yami/Bakura
Warnings: OOC.
Summary: Yami does something he regrets.

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Yami stared blankly at the item that sat on the counter in front of him. He had been staring at it for hours now, trying to gather the courage to do what he knew needed to be done.

"Yami, what are you doing!"

"It's none of your business, Bakura!"

He should have done this sooner; should have done it after that first time...

"Of course it's my business! I'm your lover; I deserve to know-"

"Shut up!"

How could he have been so blind? Even when everyone told him, he still refused to see what was so wrong about what he was doing. Ra, he was so stupid.

"Yami, please! You need to stop this."

"You need to mind your own damn business!"

Thinking back, he couldn't really remember where it started. One had just somehow turned into another. And another and another and another... Until that was all that mattered; getting another.

No matter who got hurt in the process.

"Yami... let go! You're hurting me!"

"It'll hurt a whole lot worse if you don't shut up!"

He had been out of his mind; he'd had no clue what he was doing. Even now he couldn't remember everything he had done. But that was no excuse and there was no way to undo his actions.

"Yami... stop... please..."

"Shut up, you damn whore!"

There was no way to take back the things he said... or the things he did. No matter how much he wanted to. No matter how much the guilt of what he had done haunted him. No matter how hard he tried...

"Yami..."

"Bakura? Oh Ra... Bakura!"

...to be forgiven...

"What have I done?"

...to forgive himself...

"I'm sorry..."

...it was always just out of his reach.

"Bakura..."

But there was one thing he could do. One thing that could start him on the path to forgiveness... the path of redemption. One thing he should have done after that first time.

And finally, Yami picked up the bottle of tequila and poured it down the sink.

"I'm so sorry..."

Owari