Chapter One- History Repeats Itself

Xsparklespaz803X: just meet me ok?

16speakercar: emma…what do you want?

Xsparklespaz803X: jay…listen I wouldn't ask if it wasn't important ok?

16speakercar: your version of important is oh my god my hair won't match my outfits! stamps foot

Xsparklespaz803X: cute jay, cute rolls eyes and for your information hair can't match outfits. The park….10 minutes. Just do it, please

16speakercar: sigh you sure know how to beg…..fine

Ten minutes later Emma Nelson sat on the swings at Godfrey Park and pushed herself gently with her feet. Jay said he would be here…he said he would show up. She looked down at the ground and pushed her blonde hair out of her face.

"Alright what's so damn important that I had to drag myself out of my house for?" he asked skeptically as he approached.

Damn. Now that he was here…she had no idea what to say to him.

"Umm…what's up?" she asked lamely after a minute.

He looked at her. "Are you serious?"

She sighed. After their little thing at the ravine they had begun to hook up on a regular basis. And yes, she won't admit it to anyone, but Jay Hogart was also the first guy that she had sex with. Of course at that time she thought that they might have had something. Stupid girl, of course not. She was just something to pass the time. Alex and him ended up getting back together and Alex made it oh so perfectly clear that if she sees Emma in the same hallway as Jay then she'll kill her. They hadn't talked in two months…but it was time she thought Jay know what was really going on.

"Emma look I'm gonna go. If you dragged me out here for small talk…"

"No. Stay," she said getting up.

He turned back around. "Why?"

"Because it's time you know," she said eyes welling up with tears.

Now she had his attention. "Know what?"

"That one night like three months ago…"

"Em-"
"No, let me finish. Well, you were my first…just like I told you. It was great and all…" Jay looked away clearly uncomfortable. "But it kind of fucked things up," she finished.

"Fucked things up?" he repeated not getting it.

"Yeah…."

He sighed and looked around the dark playground. She was really starting to freak him out.

"Emma just fucking say it already," he snapped.

"Fine! I'm pregnant!" she yelled back and then suddenly grew silent when she said that.

He stopped and just stared at her. "You're what?" he whispered.

She nodded. "Three months. I didn't know until last week. I just thought that I was getting fat…"

"You couldn't like get one of those tests or something?"

"I wasn't supposed to get my period until two weeks ago!" she shot back.

He took off his hat and dropped it on the ground. "So…you're sure?" he asked seriously.

She nodded. "I went to the doctors this afternoon and they said so."

"Fuck," he muttered.

"Tell me about it," she rolled her eyes. "I mean I'm not expecting you to like be with me or anything…I just thought you should know…" she said softly not wanting him to get the wrong idea.

"I know…"

She shrugged and turned to leave but he stopped her with his words.

"I'm gonna help you know. I mean it's my kid too…I can't just leave."

She turned back around, tears in her eyes. "Wow…that's…really decent of you," she said surprised.

"What you thought that I would just write it off?" he asked with a tinge of hurt in his voice.

"I wasn't sure. I mean I know that you have Alex and I would only be in the way of y'all…."

"Let me worry about Alex ok? I'll take care of that…but I'm going to be a father Emma. That's not exactly something that happens everyday."

"Alright…"

"So now what?" he asked as he sat down on a swing next to her.

She shrugged helplessly. "I have no idea."

"So you're sure…?"

"No I just look like Violet because I get immense kicks out of it," she said rolling her eyes.

He didn't say anything, just looked at the ground.

"Who knows?"

"Manny."

"So the whole school?" he asked skeptically.

"No. Manny," she snapped. "She remembers what it's like ok? She was pregnant too once…she knows it's not fun. I haven't told my mom yet though…"

"Or Simpson."

She let out a mirthless laugh. "Are you still in school?"

"Right," he sighed. Suddenly a thought entered his mind. "Are you sure it's mine?" he asked looking at her.

"Are you serious?" she asked sounding upset.

"What?"

"You think I would just make up that you're the father because I just want you to myself? You think that I'm just oh so in love with your disgusting style and rude personality that I couldn't bare to be apart? Yes how on earth did you figure me out? I'm just so attracted to your shitty attitude that I decided to sleep with some other guy just so I could get pregnant and say that you're the father. Damn, I should really work on my ideas huh?" she snapped as she got up and started to stalk away.

How dare he say that she would make this up! She hadn't slept with someone since him…in fact he was the only one in her whole 16 years that she had slept with. But apparently in his mind she's just too much of a slut to sleep with just one guy. In reality after she had done what she did with Jay she holed herself up in her room for days on end just crying her eyes out. She didn't know what had gotten into herself…she always said that she wanted her first time to be with someone special, someone that cared about her. Not someone who did this on a nightly basis for kicks. She had given it up to Jay Hogart…and he thought that she was bullshitting him. Serves her right, right?

"Emma!" he yelled as he got up and went after her.

"What?" she snapped, not turning around.

"I'm sorry ok?" he said sullenly.

She turned around, tears streaming down her face. "I didn't plan this ok Jay? You are the only person that I've slept with and you damn well know it. I don't know what I'm going to do, and I don't know what to expect either. All I know is that I'm pregnant and it's because of you. Not because of the milkman."

He dropped his gaze down to the ground.

"It's not all my fault you know. You were there too Emma. You wanted it too."

"I know that. Hello, I think I realize that. I didn't say you raped me," she said rolling her tear filled eyes.

"Well what are we going to do? I mean we have to tell your parents…"

"We?" she asked a little surprised.

His eyes darted around. "Well I'm not about to fuck this thing up before it even starts," he said softly.

She smiled. "Thanks Jay. I'm….surprised."

He shrugged self-consciously.

She looked at her watch. "Wow, it's kind of late…" she said in amazement as she looked at her bright pink watch on her wrist.

"Need a ride?"

"Sure…that would be nice," she said softly.

She smiled and followed him out to the car. The ride home was a silent one, and not just the comfortable silence that people just love. It was the uncomfortable, awkward silence that you couldn't wait to get out of. Emma scrambled out of the car as soon as it stopped outside her house and she started to run around to her window.

"Hey Nelson," he called after he softly.

She turned and looked at him. "I think it'll work out. I mean…everything. I'll…see you…tomorrow," he said awkwardly.

She smiled softly at his attempt to try to make her feel better. "Thanks. Yeah, tomorrow."

He drove away quietly and as soon as he was at the end of the street she heard the music turn on to a blaring level. Emma just rolled her eyes, crossed her arms over herself and headed towards her window. She hadn't expected Jay to want to help her out with this pregnancy…and the forever that came with it. She was surprised…in a good way. She crawled through her window quietly and shut it behind her as she crossed over to her bed. She threw off her jacket and plopped down on her mattress, staring at the ceiling.

"Well at least he claims he wants to help. How bad could it be? I mean I take care of Jack all the time…it shouldn't be that much harder…" Emma said to herself as she rolled over. Although she told herself that it wasn't going to be that hard, she knew in her heart that it was going to be painful and hard to bring that baby into this world at the age of 16. Just like her mother did.