Dear Journal,

I haven't written for a while. You have no idea how much time it takes to save the world. I've also been preoccupied with other things. Namely my Michiru. Everyone thinks I'm never scared and I'm always brave. But lately, Journal, I've been terrified. I told myself I'd concentrate on just sports and saving the world but lately I've been breaking my promise. It's been harder and harder to keep myself away from Michiru. I still remember the first time we've met as if it were only yesterday. I had just won the race against Elsa and I felt like a cheat. It felt like the only reason I won was because I thought it would distance myself from my destiny. Then Elsa came over and with her was the most beautiful girl I had ever seen. The feelings I got from her scared me more than I wanted to admit. Her destiny was as big as mine was and she had accepted. She had changed. For good or bad I didn't know. It made me angry that such a beautiful girl could scare me so much. That's why I turned away. I pretended not to notice the hurt look on her face when I did turn though it just made me want to comfort her. Over the next few weeks I could feel her presence close to me but whenever I looked around she was never there. Then came the day when that monster attacked. It scared me but not nearly as much as when I saw Michiru transform and take on the monster all by herself. I appreciated that she gave me fair warning about the transformation pen. I was running from my destiny and this could be my last race against it. But then I would leave my Michiru to fight the monsters alone and from what I gathered it would be a lot stronger than that monster that hurt her. I clamped down on my panic and refused to let it rule me as I grabbed the pen. It seems I got more than I bargained for. I think I love Michiru but I couldn't bear it if I told her and she didn't love me. I would die before I let that happen. So I love my goddess behind my mask of indifference though sometimes I think she can see through it and might even return my feelings. But that's just wishful thinking, Haruka you baka. I think I love Michiru and it scares me more than anyone can guess.