Deep Blue

a Kingdom Hearts fanfic by Dreaming Wistfully

Those deep blue eyes...

I want to see them so bad.. those deep blue eyes...

I sat up from my sleeping position, gasping for breath. All was fine until my 15th birthday, the first one I had where he wasn't there. Of course, I had some birthdays like those before I arrived at Destiny Islands, but that was beyond my point. My point is that I miss Sora. When I blew out the 15 candles on the carefully decorated cake my mom baked for me, I was constantly reminded of that promise he was going to keep.

He will keep it, right?

I feel so guilty, moping around like this, after everyone has tried so hard to keep me from remembering him. All knows what happens when I do.. And let me tell you the truth, the Keyblade Master is not viewed as a savior and someone who should be adored by all here. Rather, he is viewed with bitterness, and occasional hatred. People believe he was the source of all trouble.. the reason heartless appeared, the reason I was ungodly sad.

They don't know how wrong they are.

Then again, they are right about the latter.

It's not his fault, after all. The Keyblade chose him, and he had no choice but to accept his duty and keep his heart strong. But who would've thought that he would break countless amounts of others to fulfill it? Mine being one, and his mother. Oh, Mrs. Jacobs. She was never the same after everyone was able to return to their usual lives, except for Sora, and those who loved him dearly.

I dragged my feet to the side of my bed, rubbing my eyes and making sure I indeed, was not dreaming. I stood up and swaggered like a drunk woman to the bathroom, where I stared straight at myself.

"He won't keep that promise." the reflection told me. What was that? I was confused with myself. Was I the one who said it? Or my mere reflection on the mirror? It was hard to believe that I, me, Kairi, was the one who said that. But it was just as hard to believe that a reflection would talk back. I shook my head furiously and got the tap running. I want cold water. Hot will damage my skin, warm will make me even more sleepy. Cold will make me feel good.

I cupped my hands under the said cold water and it filled. Shivers ran through my arms from the contact of cold water. But it didn't matter. It was my face that needed the cold. I bet down and splashed the freeze onto my face. How refreshing.

Yes.. cold is good. Ice is cold too... and ice is associated with the color blue.. like his eyes.

Ever since that birthday, every single thing that runs through my mind has some demented connection to him. I stood up straight again and looked at myself in the mirror. I watched as the droplets of water trickled down my face. I reached behind me for a small lavender towel.

Lavender. It's such a pretty color, like the flower he gave me when we were little.

I threw the towel away from me. I'm starting to scare myself a bit. I reached for a paper towel instead. After wiping my face with the rugged surface of the paper towel, I crumpled it in frustration and threw it into the trash can.

Thank God it's Saturday.

I desperately did not want to show myself to school that day. Even if Riku was there with me. Things will never be the same between me and him.. not after Kingdom Hearts.. not after he gave into darkness and was saved. Every time I look at him, I remember Sora. So in a way, I want to hide from him.

Even after the splash of cold hitting my face like a sour punch, and the feeling of roughness rubbing against my skin, he was on my mind. I changed into my usual clothes and opened my curtains a bit to see how things were outside. It was still twilight, the end of darkness and the beginning of a new day. Twilight..

What if Sora was in twilight somewhere? Lost in the midst of darkness, but waiting ever so patiently for the beginning, the new light.

Where are you?

A/N: Wowwie, my first angst fic. I hope you guys liked this. I know in the announcement in my profile I said this was a one shot, but you should've known that I changed my mind because I was too excited to post it! Heh heh.

Please review.. for Kairi's sanity!

Disclaimer: Kingdom Hearts and all its characters are property of Squaresoft and Disney.