OK so what has it been like 2 year's?
I AM SO SORRRY!
SO I'm not going to say much just that here is my new chapter.
I woke up the next morning and got ready. I kept trying to shake my mind from his kiss.
But how could I?
Darien and I…
No that's a sentence that should never be started.
But what if…
NO! No what ifs today!
Just go get Rini ready Serena and act normal.
Normal… haha I couldn't do that if I tried.
Sitting in the kitchen feeding my daughter I wondered what we would do today it was after all Saturday. Maybe we can go to the beach. Yeah that would be fun. Maybe I will call Rei and see if she wants to come….
About 2 hours later Rei Rini and myself were sitting on a soft blanket on the white sandy beach. Rini was rolling around on the blanket her blonde curls getting sand in them. I winced knowing tonight was going to be a long bath. Rei sat laughing next to me.
" You are going to have to scrub her head tonight to get that sand out. "
" Yeah it's going to blow. But that's what mommy's do." I smiled and rolled on to my stomach still watching Rini.
" She looks so much like you Ser. She really does. " Rei made a face a silly face a Rini and rolled on to her stomach to. " How is Darien handling it?"
I sighed... My mind still consumed by our kiss last night. " Wonderful..." I began to play with Rini " he is so good with her Rei. He acts like he has known her his whole life. And he… well just looks at her so caring and loving." My voice went soft at the last note.
Rei looked at me her violet eyes filling with a knowing that something was going to change for the better. " And how does he act with you?" she questioned nonchalantly.
I sighed my eyes drifted from Rini to the ocean then to Rei. " He is looking at me the way he use to. He is even calling me Buns again. And…..and I don't know what t do Rei. I tell myself I cant be falling for him again not after everything that happened, but I think I am. I think I am falling for him Rei." I starred at her. She smiled at me warmly and wrapped me in a hug.
" You never fell out of love with him Ser." She whispered in my ear.
We pulled back from our hug. And I just looked at her. " You think so?"
She shook her head " No. I know so."
Tears began to well in my eyes. " What should I do?"
Rei just looked from me to Rini and then to ocean. " Tell him. Tell him how you feel. You deserve to be happy Ser. After all this you deserve happiness."
" You really think so."
Rei grabbed me and hugged. " Yes meatball head." She said laughing.
I smiled. " Thanks Rei."
She just nodded. " This you falling for him though, doesn't make him any less of a douche bad though." She stated matter-o-factly.
I laughed. And rolled my eyes. " Okay."
She smiled at and flipped her sunglasses down and began to tan.
I placed Rini under the umbrella and popped her in the small portable crib that I brought.
I rolled on my back. My mind began to swim with all kinds of different thoughts. How was I going to tell Darien that I still loved him? Closing my eyes I tried not to think about it right and just enjoy that fact that he was back in my life.
And things seemed to be getting better.