Come Sweet Death

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It was a dark night, chilly, especially for the black haired human sitting on a boulder next to a waterfall. Inuyasha looked up, staring at the stars and at the moonless night. He shivered slightly, cold on the outside as well as in the inside, remembering everything that had happened between him and the wolf demon. Tears streamed down his face, his violet eyes showing all his pain and suffering.

I know, I know I've let you down

I've been a fool to myself

I thought that I could live for no one else

Flashback begins

Inuyasha saw the way Kouga wanted Kagome, and he was hurt. Hurt because the young Alpha wolf wanted the miko, while he longed for the arms of the demon wolf. Inuyasha did what he always did in order to hide his emotions, which was to scream with all his might and show his anger at the world.

"Get the fuck away from me you dumbass wolf!" Inuyasha glared at Kouga, with an unreadable emotion glinting in his eyes. "Get the fuck away from Kagome!"

"You weak ass MUTT!" Kouga screamed his face red with hate "Why are you always fucking screaming at me? What the hell is your problem weakling? If Kagome wants to she'll leave with me. HA!"

Kouga looked at Inuyasha with contempt; he knew how to hurt the hanyou in the worse way. "Who would want a god for nothing half breed like you? You are the foulest thing to have ever walked in this world."

Flashback ends

But now through all the hurt and pain

It's time for me to respect the one you love mean more than anything

So with sadness in my heart

I feel the best thing I could do is end it all and leave forever

'I have no reason to live. He hates me….he..hates….me'

Inuyasha cries, his breath ragged because of this crying. The hanyou looked over the waterfall, watched as the water fell over, high, high above the ground. He knew he was a good for nothing mutt. He knew deep down that he wasn't worth shit. But that didn't mean that he didn't hope things would be good for him. He wanted to feel that he was worth the good things in life. But now Inuyasha knew better. He remembered Kouga's face, staring at him with disgust, how those beautiful blue eyes turned very cold toward his normally golden eyes.

'He was disgusted with me..by my kiss……by my love for him' the inu thought, remembering it all. Remembering the slap, the push, the hurt he felt inside, his world shattering into a millions pieces.

Flashback begins

What's done is done it feels so bad

What was once happy now is sad

I'll never love again

My world is ending

Inuyasha was talking with Kouga, actually talking, without insults, without screams, without fights. And he loved every single moment of it. He wanted to believe so badly that the wolf demon may love him, just like he loved Kouga. Kouga smiled at him, telling him something about the Council in his den. But he wasn't really listening.

"Inuyasha?" Kouga said, confusion lacing in his voice

Slowly I come closer to Kouga, closer to his lips. He really is beautiful. Those full lips, that jet black hair, those muscles, it all drives me crazy with desire. The inu closes his eyes, and feels his lips against Kougas. The puppy nips on his lower lip, trying to get his tongue inside the warm cavern of the demons mouth. But the lips beneath his are not responding. He feels Kougas body shivering violently. When Inuyasha opens his eyes he sees a look in Kougas eyes, emotions he cannot understand.

"Kouga" Inuyasha whispers, touching the young male Alphas cheek.

Kouga pulled away from the inu's hand and slaps him hard on the face. Inuyasha was shocked, tears streaming down his face as he held his cheek with his hand. He never thought Kouga would react this way. As the inu tries to get close to the demon, Kouga pushes him hard, making the hanyou stumble across a rock and fall on the ground.

"Don't GET NEAR ME YOU FUCKING MUTT!"

With that said, Kouga ran as fast as he could, forming a twister of dust as he ran far, far away from Inuyasha. The inu stared at the spot where the wolf had been standing, then suddenly, howled, the sounds of it so pitiful, so full of anguish, that everyone who heard it felt the heartache of the poor inu hanyou. He stayed on the cold ground, knowing that he messed everything up.

Suddenly, Kagome, Miroku and Sango come out of the bushes, with looks of anger and repulsion evident in their faces.

I wish that I could turn back time

cos now the guilt is all mine

Can't live without the trust from those you love

"Inuyasha…you are sick…truly sick" said Kagome. His friends deserted him, telling him to never look for them again. Who wanted to be friends with such a foul creature such as him?

Flashback ends

'I just wanted to show him what me means to me…and now I have ruined all.'

Eyes full of loath, full of revulsion, full of hate. Those are the eyes he has seen all his life. Those are the eyes he wanted to escape. He just wanted to be free from all this hurt, this unbearable pain the he felt deep in his soul.

I know we can't forget the past

You can't forget love and pride

because of that, its killing me inside

'I hate myself. I will end it all, all this pain. I cannot love again. There is no reason to exist in a world where Kouga is not with me. Where can you go when you can't even stand yourself? What can you do if you are already dead inside?'

I'll never love again

My world is ending

'Remembering all the fights, all the fights I started just so I could feel close to him.'

Flashback begins

Kindness is so cruel

Kouga smiles at the inu, hugging him. "You're not such a stupid beast at all"

Flashback ends

The hanyou prepared himself, giving in to all the hurt and pain. He is standing on the edge, with no one there to pull him back. In his human form, he would never be able to survive the fall. He would end it. Maybe the world would be a better place without him in it to fuck things up like he always did. He put his sword on the ground next to the boulder. Breathing deeply, with tears in his eyes, he looks around. He glances at the trees around him, at the nature surrounding him. It was time to end all this pain.

"Goodbye, Kouga, koi" whispered the hanyou, his voice hoarse from all the tears shed because of the love he felt towards the wolf, the love that was rejected towards him.

'I feel uneasy'

'I'm afraid of being hurt by people'

'I'm afraid of hurting other people. But I hurt them. I hurt the people I love

'Therefore I can't fall in love'

'So I hurt myself instead'

'I don't like myself'

'I hate myself'

'I mustn't fall in love'

'If I entrust my heart to others, I will be destroyed'

'If our hearts cross, he'll get hurt'

'So, I have to destroy myself'

The hanyou grabs his head, all these voice repeating those words over and over, jumbled all together until his mind was reeling with his pain. Inuyasha stands on the edge, and prepares to jump.

"Get away from there." Inuyasha looks back and sees Kouga.

Inuyasha is shocked, but then remembers the way he hurt the demon prince. He cries, his violet eyes showing the wolf his despair.

"I will never hurt you again" cries the inu.

It all returns to nothing, it all comes

Tumbling down, tumbling down, tumbling down

It all returns to nothing, I just keep

Letting me down, letting me down, letting me down

In my heart of hearts

I know that I could never love again

I've lost everything

Everything

Everything that matters to me, matters in this world

As Kouga runs towards the half demon, Inuyasha jumps, falling, falling towards his fate.

"INUYASHA!" "NOOOOOOOOOOO"

Kouga jumps, falling in the waterfall, knowing that he would not get hurt because of the demon blood flowing through his veins. But the hanyou was human, and no human could survive a fall that high. Kouga surfaced, looking desperately for the hanyou. Suddenly, he sees a form flouting on the water. The demon swam towards the body, recognizing Inuyasha. The humans face was pale, his body injured by the force of the jump, the force of the water against him. As Kouga takes the half demons body he hugs him close, trying to give the almost dead body warmth.

"I wish I could turn back time Inuyasha... I know I could never love again, not without you"

But the inu can't listen. Kouga takes the injured puppy to his cave, sobbing, fearing for his life.

I don't know if to leave it like this or to make more chapters. Well if you guys review you can tell me…and if it sucked then tell me too. Its my first time writing a story so I hope its ok.