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hey everyone i know it has been a long time since i updated and i probably lost all my reviews i just hope you come back with this new chapter. i don't offer any excuses for why i didn't update, so i offer another chapter as my penance.

This time:

Three weeks had passed since that night and Shang had done the same thing every day waiting for Mulan to wake up. Shang would eat breakfast go to the temple and pray for Mulan to recover until Kaede had finished applying healing herbs to Mulans injuries and rewrap them, then he would eat lunch and also help Mulan eat some food and water but never ate much of it and since lunch he would stay by her side holding her hand and begging her not to leave him and each time it was the same she would just lay limp on the floor dreaming an endless dream. Eventually two months passed by easily and Mulan's wounds had healed but she still hadn't woken up. Kaede had decided that since Mulan was all better that she should be moved to another room since she still needed that one for other patients, So Mulan was moved to the room right next to Shangs where she once again slept in her little dream world. After about three more weeks Shang had given up all hope of Mulan waking up but still spent his days the same eating, praying, and watching over Mualn, she had become very thin and her skin started to lose life as her hair just laid still and dead along with her body. But in three days Mulan's deep sleep ended, for the first time in almost three months Mulan opened her beautiful browneyes and saw Shang sitting over her, just as she knew he would when she was allowed to join her love. Shang had been feeding her lunch some waterd down ricewhen her weak and tired eyes opened to see him.

"M.Mulan?" he asked his voice full of shock just as his eyes were.

"Sh..Shang?" she said softly her voice choppy and her body still made her look fragile.

"Oh Mulan I thought I would never see you open your eyes again" he said as he picked her top half up and hugged her tight, her make-shift robe that Kaede had given to her started to fall off her shoulders from how thin and boney she had gotten. "I thought I'd lost you" he said as tears nearly came to his eyes. Mulan didn't return the embrace she just let him hold her not making intentions to hold him back. Her arm still feeling disconected to her body but felt her own tears coming to her eyes for finally being able to be with her love once again.

"Mulan I love you!" Shang said as he looked into her eyes and saw thetears and if he didn't know her better he would think she was fully with him, fully Mulanbut her saw what he knew wasproof of his love for her, henoticed that she wasn't all there only a part of his love was there. Her eyes didn't hold that much life to him, they seemed to only hold partiale of herself in them.

"Shang why did you leave me?...I tried to join you but something kept pulling me back.. I'm glad we both died together even if I was late…" Mulan said with a lop sided smile fully believeing her own insane thoughts.

"died…?" 'she thinks that we died from the fall she believed it so deeply she thinks it's real.'Shang thought as panic slowly started to grip at him with it's cold hands."Mulan we didn't die we are living right now" Shang said trying to convinve her, hoping to snap her out of what she drove herself to believe and be fully Mulan.

"NO WE died we had to from that fall and the painful river ride we had to die from it" Mulan said as she was having a mental break down her voice once loud as a scream now soft as a whisper her body shaking with worry. Making Shang's heart break for his love.

"shhh Mulan shh" he said as he held onto Mulan's shaking form tighter making sure she didn't hurt herlsef while thrashing about "your right Mulan we did die this is heaven I'm sorry you had to wait so long leaving the living world" Shang said trying to soothe her and soon enough Mulan stopped thrashing.

"where are we in heaven Shang?" Mulan asked

"we are in a small town we were taken in by an old nice couple we've been here for about almost three months."

"we must be troubling them"

"no they said they enjoy us here" Shang said in a soothing voice as he brushed some of her hair out of her face.

"Now rest a bit my love, i'm going to feed you okay? you need to build up your strenght so take it easy okay?" Shang said as he placed her back on the small futon andpicked up the chopsticks and scooped up some rice for her and placed it in her mouth.

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