Summary : MY FIRST FIC! Botan accidentally causes Hiei to have a breakdown and he leaves for Makai! One year later Botan sees Koenma get murdered, but with the team broken up, where will she go for protection? HB (A little KB) P.S. I stink on summaries!

Please be nice, this is my first fic!

When You Can't See The Light

Chapter One : Prologue : Soliatary Shadow

Hiei's POV

2 years since the Makai Tournament. Mukuro finally left me visit Ningenkai. It's not like I really wanted to come. But anyway I stop by Genki's temple. As suspected, everyone was there, Yusuke, Kurama, baka onna, the oaf, Yusuke's women, the oaf's sister, Koenma, and...and Yukina... I stood near a tree by the window, hiding in the shadows and masking my ki. There was the baka carrot head gloating to my beloved sister. Ever so quietly, I leaned in to hear...

Normal POV

"I'm so glad everyone's here!" Yukina said. Quickly her voice saddens. "everyone but Hiei..."

Hiei stops complete shocked. Making sure he's hearing clearly he moves a little closer.

"Aww don't worry Yukina-chan! The great Kazuma Kuwabara is here! You shouldn't worry about that shrimp anyway! He's so cold and uncaring!"

"KUWABARA!" Botan came in, "You shouldn't say that about Yukina's brothe...MMMPHHH!"

Kurama and Yusuke quickly silence her, but it's too late.

"SHRIMP'S YUKINA'S LONG LOST BROTHER?" Kuwabara shouted so loud people in Reikai could hear him. Hiei felt his anger rise. 'THAT BAKA ONNA! SHE JUST SIGNED HER DEATH WISH!' He clutched his katana.

"Hiei-san..." Yukina said in a quiet, hurt voice. Hiei couldn't bear it. He knew she would be disappointed in him... The forbidden child of Makai... Heck his life had always been hopeless. Abandon at birth by heartless koorimes, hated for being born. He had his mother's tear gem and Yukina was safe, he had nothing to live for. He dashed away, protecting himself from the words she would say.

One day later

Hiei was going to kill her! Botan knew it! The rain beat down harder and harder. Botan had just come from the market and was hiding in Ningenkai from a certain fire youkai. Holding a shopping bag in one hand and an umbrella in the other, she walked back to the apartment Koenma rented for her. That's when she had a noise, it was faint but it sounded hurt. An animal, or a human she didn't know it was hard to make out because of the rain. Curious as she was, she followed the noise. It lead her to a dark alley where her eyes widen as she made out what she saw through the cold, harsh rain.

Botan's POV

"Oh my...Hi...ei...?"

My shopping bags dropped to the hard wet ground. There lied Hiei, drenched from head to toe from the rain, crouched in a small dark corner bleed profoundly through his wrist. His katana, with blood trickling along the shiny, cool blade, lay unsheathed next to him.

"Sht..." Hiei said in such a weak voice I barely heard. He slowly got up to try to run, but before he took one step, he fainted on the floor. He looked so weak and fragile. 'What am I going to do? I can't just leave him here!'

Quickly I picked him up and hurried to Kurama's house...

A young boy ran through the barren ice land with two A class demons closely behind. They had been chasing him for a sometime now. The boy was tired and had cuts all over his body with a huge gash in his stomach. Yet he still ran. When he almost slipped he noticed that they were now on a frozen lake.

"Give us the stone you brat!" one of the demons shouted.

The boy continued to run. He knew he couldn't stop... he would die before he gave those demons his mother's hiruisaki stone. The demons stepped on the ice, cracking it, yet they continued to pursue the boy. It wasn't long before the ice split open right under their feet. All three youkai fell in the icy water. The two bigger demon sank right away, falling to the dark depths of the lake. The boy being light, began to swim to the top. He frantically began to search for a crack to get out. It was too late, the crack was closed off by two large ice sheets. He banged hard on the thick ice, no luck. He banged harder, and harder, desperate for air. His eyes slowly began to drop as he fell deeper into the darkness...

Hiei woke with a start. Beads of sweat all over his face. Slowly he regained his normal breathing pace. He looked around to see where he was. He was in a living room, sleeping on the couch.

"Kurama's house..." He looked at his wrist which was warped with a clean cloth. 'Baka onna! That was twice she ruined my life!' It was dark. He searched for a clock through the darkness. '4:48 A.M, perfect...I can leave quietly.' Hiei began to search his katana but couldn't find it anywhere. 'I can get a new one in Makai anyway. I just leave now!' He reached for the window.

ZAAAAPPPPP! Hiei swore loudly. His hand was burnt black. Maybe he could use his jagan... He tried to pull off the bandanna on his head but it wouldn't come off. He yanked harder, and harder only to get no where. He began to search for a knife or something to cut the bandanna off. He rushed to the kitchen checked to find something that might help. There was nothing, the knives, forks, plates, even the spoons were gone. Hiei growled.

"I see you've found out about the wards." Kurama spoke in a calming voice appearing through the shadows.

"What did you do kitsune!" Hiei harshly snapped at Kurama.

"You almost DIED Hiei, you didn't expect we would just leave you alone to die!"

"Hn"

"You were lucky Botan found..."

"I NEVER WANTED TO BE FOUND!"

Kurama, a little taken back by Hiei, saw his blackened hand. "Come here, I'll treat you."

"Don't touch me."

Roughly, Kurama grabbed Hiei's hand and began to clean it. Just then everyone came in with sad looks in their faces. Everyone came in, everyone but Yukina.

Yusuke, the first one in, walked right up to Hiei and punched him hard on the cheek. Hiei didn't even move, he just let the blood trickle down from his mouth.

"Yusuke!" Keiko held Yusuke arm to stop a second punch.

"YOU STUPID IDIOT! I CAN"T BELIEVE YOU! AFTER ALL WE'VE BEEN THROUGH! YOU'RE SO FREAKIN' SELFISH!"

"Hn"

"Why you..!" This time Kuwabara stopped him. Kuwabara looked at Yusuke and shook his head. Quietly he turned his head to Hiei.

"Hiei.." Kuwabara's voice was, for once, serious,"Yukina's waiting for you..."

"You..." To everyone dismay, Hiei chuckled and licked the blood on the corner his mouth "You don't care about me...All you care about is Yukina...aren't I right?", His eyes looked so sad, like a child wanting the truth. 'Yukina does deserve it though. She's pure and innocent. Everything I'll never be.' Hiei thought to himself. He put his hand over his eyes and began to picture her, her silky sea green hair, her ruby eyes were much like his own, only her's were filled with the same purity that layed in her soul. "Yukina... my sister... mt twin..."

Everyone was stopped by Hiei's comment. There was an eriee silence, but that wasenough for Hiei to understand. He smirked to himself knowing he was right.

"Just leave..." Hiei curl into a ball on the couch, hiding his face from the others like a child.

"But Hiei..." Botan began feeling hot tears burn her amethyst eyes.

"JUST GO!"

Quietly everyone headed for the door. After everyone left, Kurama shut the door and replaced the ward on it, leaving Hiei alone.