Decisions

Chapter 1: Christmas Eve

Ginny sat under the shower, as the water cascaded down her shouders.

"Filth, dirty, filth! Need to be clean. Forever dirty." Ginny mumbled repeatingly.

She had been in the shower for 2 hours, scrubbing her skin red raw.

"Ginny? It's Hermione. When are you coming out? It's 2:30am now. Please come to bed" Hermione pleaded

"I'm dirty, so dirty. Can never come out! Nope!"

"Are you OK?" Hermione called from outside the bathroom.

Ginny, finually coming to the realisation that Hermione was talking to her, "Oh, Hermione! Is that you? I'll be out in a moment"

Ginny's tone sounded cheerful, but that was far from the truth. A tear ran down her cheek as she stepped out of the shower and quickly got changed into her pj's. Hermione could never know, no-one could. What would Harry think? Harry would never love her now.

"Are you OK?" Hermione asked again once Ginny left the bathroom.

"Of course I am, silly! It's Christmas! I just wanted to be all clean and looking good for later!" Ginny smiled.

Hermione looked at Ginny sceptically. She knew if there was a probelm, Ginny would tell her sooner than later. She was hoping it was sooner. They went back to the dorm. As Hermione slept, Ginny mind was racing over what happened hours before...

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Chapter 2: Christmas Day

"Wake up Ginny! It's Christmas! I want to open my presents before Easter you know! Hurry up!" Ron yelled.

Ginny sat up and got changed, then walked down to the common room. She was greeted to a hug from Ron, Hermione then when Harry went over to Ginny to give her a hug, she flinched and stepped away. She didn't know why she did that, after all, he wasn't the one who did that to her, but she was scared of any guy who wasn't one of her brothers or her Father.

"What's wrong Gin?" Harry asked

Ginny stepped further away from him.

"Nothing wrong, Harry. Why would there be? I don't know why everyone keeps on asking me that question, really" Ginny replied nervously.

"I don't know, Gin. You just seem different"

Different. That word seemed to linger in her ears. From now on, she'll never be the same. Different. She began to really hate that word.

"I'm fine, really. Do you reckon we should go downstairs to get some breakfast now?" Not looking at Harry, Ginny thought she should change the conversation.

Ron, Hermione and Harry was staring at her now. They could see the difference, somehow they knew.

Her brother shrugged "Yeah, I'm starving! We can open our presents afterwards. Lets go!"

She could always rely on her brother to think of his stomach. Hermione and Harry glanced at each other sceptically.

Ron and Hermione walked hand in hand down to the Great Hall, Ginny's steps became smaller ad smaller. She didn't feel like being around anyone today. Or ever. She felt dirty again and all she could think about was going back to the shower. Harry, sensing that there was something wrong with the girl he was starting to have strong feelings for, he turned around to see Ginny walking slower and slower. Ginny beautiful face was now on the verge of tears.

"Gin, I know there is something wrong. You know that you can tell me anything"

Ginny edged defensively towards the wall. Harry stopped then walked towards Ginny. Her arms covered her body as she shook her head.

"Please Gin talk to me"

Ginny's head shook violently. She ran. She slowed down, composed herself and got ready to enter the Great Hall.

"Ginny! I need you to talk to me" Harry yelled. He reached her and grabed her arm carefully. Ginny jumped away from him and shook her head again.

"Harry, I can't. Not yet. Please leave me be!"

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Chapter 3: The Smug look

Harry looked at her confused. What had he done to her? Did he say something to her to make her so upset. Or maybe, it wasn't something he said or did. He opened the door to the Great Hall for the upset Ginny. A small table was set up for the few people that was staying for Christmas. Harry looked around the room to see Hermione and Ron snogging each other senseless, Dean and Neville singing some carols at the top of there lungs, Malfoy, Goyle and Crabbe whispering quietly in the corner and ten other students from different years. Harry sat next to Ginny on the other side of Ron and Hermione. Ginny slid slowly away from Harry.

Ginny didn't feel hungry. She played with her eggs every now and then. Ginny heard her name being brought up in a conversation. She looked up to see Dean winking at her smugly. Suddenly, she felt sick, she couldn't stand it any more. She ran, towards the Gryffindor common room then to the showers. She scrubbed. How could he be so, so cocky about it?

"Ginerva Molly Weasley! Come out now and talk to me" Hermione yelled at her from outside the bathroom door.

"I c-c-can't. I just can't! I need to be clean" Ginny replied shakingly

"Please. I know you need to talk to me." Hermione said sternly. Her tone began to sound remarkingly like Professor MacGonagall.

Ginny, realising defeat, steped out f the shower, got back into her clothes again, excited the bathroom and fell into a hug from Hermione. Ginny began to cry uncontrolably.

"Come on Gin, lets go to the dorm to talk."

The two girls walked slowly to the dorms. Ginny layed herself onto her bed, still crying.

"Now, are you going to tell me what's wrong or do I have to get some Veritaserum out for you?" Hermione asked.

Ginny wiped her tears, cleared her throat and began to tell Hermione what happened last night. Hermione looked at Ginny shocked.

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Chapter 4: The Thomas Charm

"Please don't judge me Hermione! And please don't tell Ron and Harry."

"Oh! Ginny! It wasn't your fault. Why would I judge you?" Hermione said comfortingly. She begun to hold Ginny again, tighter then she had ever done.

"Yes it was. I should of been more careful. I should of- of-of- I don't know what I should of done!"

"No Ginny, he had no right to do that! It's something that no-one should beable to get away with. Don't ever think it is your fault. You never asked for this to happen to you. We have to tell someone. You can't let him get away with it!"

"I can't Hermione! The shame of it! Noone must know. And I mean no-one!" Ginny demanded

Just at that moment, they heard voices.

"I can't believe he is sending me away from here to go to Durmstrang! Just because I was having a little bit of fun!"

"What fun, Dean?" They heard Neville ask.

"Well Neville, even though you wouldn't understand, let's just say I got a bit tipsy last night and saw a bit more of a certain red hair that anyone else has!"

"You didn't?"

"Well, all the girls can't get enough of the Thomas charm!"

"You're foul! You disgust me, Dean!"

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Chapter 5: Ron's Priorities

They heard Neville storm off out of the common room. Hermione, wanting to punch the living daylights out of Dean, was restrained by Ginny.

"You can't! Please Hermione! I need you here." Ginny pleaded.

Hermione turned to her friend to see a tear run down her cheek.

"I'll stay. But he can't get away with it." Hermione explained

"He hasn't. Dumbledore must know. Why would he be sent to Durmstrang?"

"How would Dumbledore know?" Ginny asked

"Well, you know Dumbledore, he knows everything. I'm surprised though, they didn't expel him. They might need your testimony" Hermione replied

Ginny thought to herself. She couldn't do that. Let the whole world know what happened to her. That would be worse than anything in the world. If she did testify, Harry would find out. She couldn't bear it.

"OY! Gin! Hermione! Are you guys coming down to open our presents?" Ron yelled

"Good to see that Ron has his priorities right!" Ginny smiled weakly.

Ginny cleaned her face up and walked down with Hermione even though she wanted to rest in her bed. She knew Ron would be bugging her until she came down anyway so it's best to get the presents over and done with then she could go and rest.

"Were have you two been?" Ron asked

"In the dorms.Just been having a deep and meaningful." Hermione explained

"About what?" Ron asked curiously.

"That's none of your business Ronald!"

Ron looked at Harry then to Hermione and last to Ginny for an explaination but none was given to him.

"Well, are we going to open these presents or not!"

Hermione pasted the presents from under the tree around to each of them and they begun to unwrap their gifts. Ginny left her presents still wrapped when she walked back up to the girls dorm. She could sense that someone was following. She walked quickly, they still followed. Ginny ran. She locked the dorm door.

"NO! Not again! Never!" Ginny yelled

"What have I done Gin?" Harrys voice came from the other side of the door.

"Sorry Harry, you've done nothing. I just need to be alone now" Ginny replied

Ginny layed her head down on her pillow, crying herself to sleep. She slept away Christmas.