Title: History Repeating?
Disclaimer: ….. Gravitation doesn't belong to me… isn't that obvious?
Summary: This story is set after Track 13. Yuki and Shuichi finally got used to each other and they are living happily after but Shuichi started having strange dreams. Is he going insane! Shuichi went for a concert in New York and stumbled over an ancient ground. Releasing a king who had been wandering his castle for 500 years, waiting for the return of his lover. Who is the king? If you had read my first story 'Till the End of Time', you should know. Shuichi is now reliving his past life once more. What will happen to our favorite singer and author couple? Who would Shuichi choose to stay with at the end?
Chapter 14 – I Love You (Last Chapter)
After their little conversation three nights ago, Shuichi and Yuki had been avoiding each other. Yuki was still hurt from the conversation they had, but Yuki can see that Shuichi is struggling right now so he decided to stay away from him until Shuichi is ready to talk things over with him again. Yuki would try to stay in his study as much as possible and only comes out when he is sure that Shuichi is not around. Shuichi was perfectly fine with that since he doesn't want to face Yuki yet because he still needs time alone.
"I am going to go crazy soon Tohma! I had already given Shuichi times to think things over but he is still acting like he doesn't care." Yuki said in frustration.
Yuki needed someone to talk with and Tohma was the only one he could think of since Tohma knows that whole situation.
"Eiri, you can't force Shuichi. He will come to you whenever he is ready." Tohma said, while typing on his laptop.
"Well, you know I am not a man for patient. I can't wait that long you know." Yuki said
"It's only been three days right?" Tohma said, looking up.
Yuki sighed. "But it felt like forever."
"Just let him be. He will come to his senses soon. Shuichi is just confused." Tohma said
"What if he is confused forever? You know, I can't wait that long for him." Yuki said.
Tohma nodded.
"What should I do? I really want to talk to him. What is he confused about anyways? I mean, King Yuki is already gone and the old castle had fallen down. There is nothing more to think about. What? Is he thinking about killing himself to go be with his Yuki-sama? Or is he comparing me with that old king?" Yuki said in anger.
"I don't think you should go talk to him just yet. And least not while you are still like this. With this attitude, you will only make things worse between you two." Tohma said.
"You are not helping Tohma." Yuki said.
Tohma just chuckled and shrugged.
Silence fell upon them. Yuki turn to look at the door.
"Shuichi is in studio 3 if you must know." Tohma said suddenly.
"What?" Yuki asked.
"I know you want to go see him. You two have been avoiding each other lately so I bet you haven't seen him for along time and you miss him right? Well… I told you where he is so you can go sneak a peek." Tohma said.
Yuki blushes. "Who would want to look at the idiot that even gets confuse in comparing a dead guy with a living person!" Yuki said angrily.
Tohma chuckled. "Getting angry that easily only proves that you care Eiri."
Yuki clutched his fists. "No… I don't care Tohma! He told me that he is regretting that he had pushed King Yuki away during the time they were together in that ghost world but King Yuki was very understanding. And now he is pushing me away instead, have he ever thought about my feelings? I am not that old king! Ok fine I admit it! I am not understanding! I can't be as gentle as that old king can. But so what? Is Shuichi just going to regret it again when I died?"
"Jealousy doesn't suit you Eiri." Tohma said.
"Tohma, which side are you on anyways?" Yuki said.
"Eiri, you are just thinking too much. There is no point to get this mad. Just leave Shuichi alone for a while; I think he will be able to clear his mind out soon enough. Don't push him…" Tohma said.
"Tohma, ever since I got here, you had been standing on Shuichi and that old king's side! Aren't you my brother in law!" Yuki said in frustration.
"Eiri, you are taking this whole thing the wrong way. I am not taking side! I don't want to get into this to tell you the truth. I mean, I really do feel pity for King Yuki since he just wanted to see Shuichi again. He doesn't deserve your blames. He did nothing wrong Eiri. He is already dead; he can't fight with you for Shuichi anymore." Tohma said
"How is stealing your own descendant's lover nothing wrong huh! Ya, I know he is dead and all but even with him gone, Shuichi still thinks about him! Is like I don't matter to him anymore since he has another guy that he loves in his life! I don't want to share Shuichi! Especially not will some dead guy! You are all against me!" With that, Yuki stomped out his brother in law's office.
"Eiri!" Tohma called after Yuki, but Yuki didn't turn back.
Tohma sigh and slumped down into his chair. Why does Yuki have to be so difficult sometimes?
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Yuki sped down the highway. He was mad, really mad. He doesn't get it, why would Tohma help Shuichi and that old king's side? I mean, he is HIS brother in law. He originally planned to talk to Tohma for comfort but it only got him into a worse mood afterward.
"I hate life! What's the point of giving Shuichi back to me then, God! What's the point of him coming back if his heart isn't here anymore? Things wouldn't be this bad if Shuichi never came back! At least I still have happy memories with him that I can live on with but now… everything just fell out of place!" Yuki said angrily.
"I am the one who cried for him when he was having a good time with King Yuki back in the ghost world! I was the one who missed him the most when he was flirting with the king Yuki back in the ghost world! IDIOT! I didn't even force him to tell me what happened back in that ghost world after we came back to Japan because I trust him and I can feel that he is sad. I don't want to ask him what happened, I want him to come to me and tell me himself instead. I was being understanding and caring these few weeks… but he never saw that… he was only thinking about the other Yuki…" Yuki said as tears started sliding down his cheeks.
"It didn't even hurt this much when I thought Shuichi died… even though I have Shuichi here with me, but his heart is with King Yuki… and now he doesn't even want to come near me anymore! I am all alone again…" Yuki said.
"Shuichi is not mine anymore…" tears still continuously run down Yuki's face.
"May be he was never mine in the first place… I thought we have love between us… but if it was really love, then how can Shuichi love another Yuki this fast? Maybe he just felt pity for me, that's why he forced himself to love me and care for me all these time…" Yuki said sadly.
Yuki's head and heart was hurting so badly and his mood wasn't helping either. At the end, he couldn't take the pain anymore so he turned his car to the right and it crash on to the side walk and stopped when it hit the nearby mailbox.
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Shuichi was at the studio recording their newest CD when he received a call from Tohma saying that Yuki had went to the hospital due to a car accident. After that, Shuichi left N-G. They all thought that Shuichi would be going to the hospital to see how Yuki is doing, but later when they all went to visit Yuki, there were no sign of Shuichi or that he had even been there before.
The truth was, Shuichi went straight back to Yuki's apartment. He didn't know what to do. Is not like he didn't want to go see Yuki, but is just that he couldn't face him… at least not after what happened between them. Is just too soon for them to meet face to face again.
It had been three hours since Shuichi had gone back home. He had been sitting in the same spot all these times. Staring into total nothing… thinking… But he couldn't think of what to do next.
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Yuki began to stir and slowly open his eyes. Tohma was the only in the room.
"Tohma… you are here." Yuki tried to get up but Tohma pushed him back down.
"Ouch! What was that for Tohma?" Yuki said.
"Opps, sorry Eiri, but you shouldn't move right now. Just lay down and rest." Tohma said.
"Fine… you are the only one here?" Yuki asked.
Tohma shook his head. "We are all here. Is just that you weren't awake when we were here and everyone was getting hungry so I volunteered to stay here to watch you and they will bring some food back for me."
Yuki nodded. Silence fell upon them…
"I want to talk to him Tohma, can you please tell him to come up here right now?" Yuki suddenly said, breaking the silence.
"But Eiri… he is eating right now, we better not distract him right now. You know how Shuichi can get when he is hungry…" Tohma said.
Yuki gave a laugh. "And then what? After when they all come back, you guys are gonna tell me that Shuichi was getting tired from all the work that he had been doing today so he went home to rest but he will come back and see me tomorrow? Then tomorrow, you guys are gonna tell me that he had an emergency concert downtown so he will not be able to come tomorrow either! Don't lie Tohma, I am not stupid. That brat didn't come did he?" Yuki asked.
Tohma look away.
Yuki gave a sad laugh. "Ha, I see… so he really doesn't care anymore? If it was before, he would have run all the way here and his loud mouth would have waked me up already..."
Tohma walk over to Yuki and put a comforting arm on Yuki's shoulder.
"This already proved one thing Tohma. Shuichi had already made it perfectly clear." Yuki said.
"And what is that Eiri?" Tohma said.
"I lost… I lost Shuichi to that old King. He won't even come and see me now." Yuki gave a laugh.
"Eiri…" Tohma said.
"Can you believe it? Yuki Eiri lost in a love war. What more worse is that… I lost to a dead guy that had died 5 centuries ago. Haha… if everyone found out about this, they would all laugh at this stupid loser, who couldn't even be compared to some dead guy in his former lover's heart. Haha… how funny is that?" Yuki said.
"Eiri… you are taking this too hard…" Tohma said softly. "Do you want me to go and get Shuichi for you? I will force him here…"
Yuki shook his head. "What's the point? I couldn't hold on to him… I couldn't even hold on to one idiot… how funny is that? Haha… Even if he will come and see me, we wouldn't have anything to talk about… he had already left me… the old Shuichi which I loved had left me already on the day that he went to New York for the stupid concert… He won't come back to me again…"
"Eiri!" Tohma said.
"NO!" Yuki yelled. "LEAVE ME ALONE! LEAVE NOW! I DON'T WANT TO SEE ANYONE RIGHT NOW! JUST LET ME THINK!" Yuki yelled at the top of his lung.
"Ok ok Eiri… calm down..." Tohma said, backing away from Yuki.
Yuki began to shake. Tohma sighed and left the room, closing the door behind him.
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Shuichi was still sitting on the same spot. Suddenly, there was a knock on the door. Shuichi just ignored it but after a while Shuichi didn't answer, the knocking became banging. But still… Shuichi just ignored the noise and continue to stare off at space.
"Shindou Shuichi! I know you are in there so open up right now!" Someone yelled from behind the door.
'Tohma.' Shuichi thought.
The banging continues but Shuichi still made no move to open the door.
"OK! FINE! DON'T OPEN THE DOOR THEN! BUT I AM STILL GONNA SAY WHAT I CAME HERE FOR AND YOU BETTER BE LISTENING!" Tohma yelled.
"Yuki is in the hospital right now and I know you already knew since I was the one who informed you over four hours ago! The way you had been acting lately is breaking Yuki apart! He is going crazy soon if you don't show up to see him. Think of all the things you and him had done together in the past! All those memories! Can it really get replaced by this easily? I know you feel sorry for King Yuki; I feel the same way too! But that's not an excuse to ignore the Yuki that you already have back home! He had been really worried about you but you never even took a moment to even say a sentence to him! I know that Yuki was always the one that blocked you out but he had changed! Why are you doing this to you and him! You are not only hurting yourself! You are also hurting the one that loves you the most!" Tohma yelled.
Tohma received no answer.
"Oh… so this is your answer then? Shuichi, I know you still care for him… please… even once… just go see him… I beg you." Tohma said.
Still, there was no answer from Shuichi.
Tohma shook his head and walk back to the elevator.
Shuichi was actually listening to everything that Tohma had said. He understands that Tohma is trying to help and Shuichi is not saying is wrong or anything. Is just that he is the problem. He couldn't face Yuki.
"Haha, come to think of it, it had really been an interesting year with Yuki. From the first day I met him in the park to the World Music Festival, everything happened were very memorable." Shuichi said.
'Then do you love him Shuichi?' A voice suddenly said inside Shuichi's mind.
Shuichi's eyes widen in surprise. If it was before, he would have said yes instantly. But now… he is not so sure anymore. If he really did love Yuki, then how come he is feeling pain right now?
Silence fills the room.
Shuichi suddenly got up and grabbed his coat and wallet. 'Well… no matter what the answer is right now, Tohma is right about one thing, Yuki needs me right now…'
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It was 11 at night when Shuichi finally got to Yuki's hospital room. Shuichi stood staring at the door for about 3mins then decided to go in since it won't do him any good just by standing there staring at the door. Shuichi slowly opens Yuki's door and stepped inside, before closing the door as quietly as possible behind him.
Shuichi walk over to the hospital bed and find that Yuki had already gone to sleep. Shuichi took a seat beside Yuki and stare at his 'lover'. He can see traces of tears on Yuki's cheeks.
'He cried… he cried because of me…' Shuichi thought.
Shuichi raised his hand to touch Yuki's cheek. 'I never deserved him… that's right… me and him doesn't belong together…' Shuichi thought sadly.
Suddenly, another hand grabbed hold of Shuichi's hand.
Shuichi was taken back. "Yu… Yuki! You are awake?"
Yuki weakly nodded, before sitting up on the bed. "So…"
Shuichi look down on to the floor.
"You are here… Tohma forced you to come didn't he?" Yuki asked
Shuichi stayed quiet.
"I don't want yours of any other's pity! I can manage perfectly fine by myself thank you!" Yuki said in frustration.
Shuichi stayed quiet.
"Why aren't you answering my questions? Did you come here just to see if I am going to die yet or is K outside right now with a machine gun?" Yuki said.
Still, Shuichi stayed quiet.
"Please leave then. If you really hate me that much now, just leave me then. You don't have to say anything to me, just leave if you want to. I am not going to force you to stay here with me." Yuki said.
"Yuki…" Shuichi finally opens his mouth.
"NO! Don't say it to me! At least leave me some pride! I don't want to hear you say 'sorry' or anything." Yuki said, covering his ears.
'Yuki would not act like this in the past. Have I really hurt him this much?' Shuichi asked himself.
"Yuki… I… I thought you wanted to talk with me… Well… here I am now…" Shuichi said.
Yuki look up at Shuichi. "You wanna talk now?"
Shuichi nodded.
"Ok… did you think things over Shuichi?" Yuki asked.
Shuichi nodded.
"And….?" Yuki asked.
"I had thought about King Yuki a lot lately and I know you already know this but I kind of compare you two together." Shuichi started.
Yuki nodded.
"Well, to tell you the truth, when I first met King Yuki, I find that his personality is completely the opposite of yours and I wasn't use to it at first because even though you two look the same, you guys are so different and he is treating me so good, so I rejected him. But as time goes on, I got used to his treatments and I guess I came to like his personality. I guess I just find something he gave me that you never did, which is his understanding and caring. I am not saying anything, I know you are understanding and caring in your own ways but I loved it when he treats me like a precious treasure." Shuichi said.
Yuki's eyes widen in surprise.
"So then I started to compare you two and I found out that he is more… reliable since he is willing to kill himself in order to wait in the castle until he gets to see me again. This is something that author Yuki wouldn't do. Right?" Shuichi said.
Yuki look down on to the floor. "Get out! Get out right now!"
"No, Yuki… listen to me... please! You see… he used to tell me different stories of what he and the past Shuichi did together when they were both alive. I can tell, he really do love his Shuichi because no matter how much time had passed, he still remembers him. But I know he knows that I will never be the same Shuichi but he still treated me so nicely. But at the end, I remembered… I remembered everything." Shuichi said.
"So, your memories were what are bugging you?" Yuki asked.
Shuichi nodded. "Yes… The pain and guilt I felt was so unbearable. I rejected his love. I pushed him away. I felt that I don't deserve anyone anymore… and everything time when I look at you, you will remind me of King Yuki. And the pain in my heart will start aching again."
"Shuichi… King Yuki loved you for who you are. He didn't care if you pushed him away, he just want to love you. You are the one who just said that you felt pain and guilty for rejecting and pushing him away right? Well then, why are you doing the same with me? I thought you really love me." Yuki said.
Shuichi nodded. "I do Yuki. And I am sorry. I know that I had hurt you. But my mind is clear now. I had been seating alone for the last 4 hours, thinking. I have clear things out already and I am certain on one thing for sure… I love you Yuki."
Yuki look up at Shuichi in surprise. "So… you have think things over and you chose me? You are coming back to me?"
Shuichi smile. "I never left you Yuki."
Yuki glare at Shuichi. "Ya, you were physically here but you were mentally with King Yuki."
Shuichi gave a nervous laugh. "Eh… is never too late to change your mind right?"
Yuki pull Shuichi towards him and wrapped two protective arms around Shuichi.
"Don't you ever dare to leave me again!" Yuki said.
Shuichi nodded.
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Yuki and Shuichi's relationship finally went back to normal now since they had finally talked things out with each other. Yuki didn't want to stay in the hospital anymore after a few days so he decided to check out and go home instead but the doctors say that even if he is going home, Yuki would still have to sit on the wheel chair for at least one more week so his legs can take time to heal.
Shuichi would still wake up early and tidy up before going to the kitchen to prepare breakfasts for Yuki and himself. Then after everything is ready, he would go and wake Yuki up and bring him to the washroom, where Shuichi would help Yuki get the toothbrush and stuffs. Then they would enjoy breakfast together and afterward, Yuki would go into his study room to type and Shuichi would go to work.
'If me sitting in a wheel chair will let me spend this much times with Shuichi, I am willing to lose my legs forever.' Yuki smile, as he watches his lover cooking in the kitchen.
"Are you sure Yuki? I mean, I won't mind taking care of you but you won't be able to out by yourself anymore." Shuichi said.
Yuki look up in surprise. "Did I just say that out loud?"
Shuichi chuckled. "What do you think, Yuki?"
Yuki growled.
"Oh Yuki, can u please go get my backpack for me? Is in our bedroom." Shuichi said.
"Why do you need your backpack for?" Yuki asked curiously.
"Oh, I still need to wait for the turkey to finish cooking in the oven so I want to work on my lyrics in the mean time and since you are not busy right now, I was just wondering would you be so kind and get it for me?" Shuichi said.
"Um… I will think about it…" Yuki said.
"YUKI!" Shuichi half yelled.
"Ok ok, fine. Geezz, don't have to be so pushy about it." Yuki said.
Shuichi just laughed.
Yuki turn his wheel chair around and began driving to their bedroom.
Shuichi stood there watching Yuki from behind. Shuichi can't help but smiled.
'King Yuki, I finally understand. You said that you regret never being able to be with Shuichi longer right? Well… God already gave you a second chance. Me and author Yuki are together and we are both you and past Shuichi's reincarnations. I will love author Yuki as much as the past Shuichi loved you. You had taught me to treasure what is important to me.' Shuichi thought.
Yuki suddenly look back. "Why are you just standing there like a complete idiot?"
Shuichi shook his head and look up at the ceiling. 'No matter where you are right now Yuki-sama… I am sure are still looking at me with that warm smile. I won't let myself regret again... I promise.'
Author's Note: LoL… FINISH! THIS IS THE LAST CHAPTER! I am sorry if the ending isn't as good as you all expected. I guess the whole point is just that after the whole thing happened, Shuichi and Yuki both learned to treasure each other more. Lol, I am sorry, I know I haven't updated for a week but I was thinking about how I should write it. Please tell me what you think. THANKS FOR ALL THE PPLE WHO LEFT ME A REVIEW IN THE LAST CHAPTER! I hope you guys enjoyed my story. I will miss all of you!