I lay on my bed, my head buried in my soft pillow, tears flowing down my cheeks and landing on my pillow. My sobs were barely audible, but they were there. Heart wrenching, painful sobs. I've been like this for three days. The day when Inuyasha left me for Kikyo. That was when I gave up hope, and gave up on trying to get Inuyasha back. Besides, he is probably in hell.
Hey you, living for tomorrow,
You sold your dreams for a pocket of change.
Hey you smokin up your sorrow,
Just pointing fingers at someone to blame.
Hearing a hand knock on my door 3 times softly, I don't even pick my head up from my pillow and mumble, "Leave me alone," in a weak voice. Luckily, I locked my door before I fell into my weakened state so that no one would bother me. So that no one would ask questions. I figured that if I talked about it, it would only hurt more, so I just kept it to myself.
"Honey, it's Inuyasha." my mom says, through my closed door, softly.
Instantly, I bolt upright and ask, "What?" Not my smartest response, but for all I know this could be another trick to try and make me open my door. They had already tried it once.
"Inuyasha is here. He says he wants to talk to you." Mom says again. She sounded genuine enough to me.
Hey you, you turn your back on your children
It's left you in the big burning bed
This life's like livin in the gutter,
All this pain just makes you feel dead.
Finally getting out of my bed for the first time in three days, I jaunt to the door, and unlock it.
"Where is he?" I ask quietly.
Mom looks at me like I'm dead. Of course, I can totally understand. Right before I opened my door, I saw what I look like. And believe me, I'm not a pretty picture. My face is dreary, colorless, and cheerless, there are dark circles under my eyes, thousands of tear stains are on my cheeks, and my eyes are also red. My hair is in tangles and I'll probably have to cut it off.
"Where is he?" I ask again, quieter than before.
"Downstairs. In the family room" Momma replies.
With a short nod of my head, I head towards the family room. Inuyasha had a lot of explaining to do.
You're just givin' it all, givin' it all away,
You're just givin' it all, givin' it all away,
Hey, hey, ey yey, y ey, ey,
Before I reach the family room sliding door, I suddenly turn away and start to head towards my room.
'Inuyasha want's Kikyo, not you. Let him be happy.' I think to myself. I already knew it was too late for me to run away though. After all, he most likely heard and smelled me. Hearing the family room sliding door slid open confirmed my suspicions, and I began to walk a little faster.
"Kagome, wait!" I head Inuyasha call out.
'Inuyasha want's Kikyo.' I think again. Whether it was my evil side telling me this, or my good side, I don't know, but keep going away from Inuyasha anyway. Even though he'll catch up to me in about ten seconds and he'll grab my wrist and make me talk to him. If he wants Kikyo, he can have her.
'Five... Four... Three... Two... One...' I countdown in my head, and sure enough as soon as I finished thinking one, Inuyasha had grabbed my wrist. Whipping my head around, I ask him in a soft anger, "What?"
"What do you mean what? Aren't you happy to see me?" Inuyasha asks me, a little surprised.
"The only reason why I left the Fedual Era was to keep myself from trying to steal you from Kikyo." I tell him, clenching my eyes shut.
Slow down just look a little closer,
You might find that it's not the end.
You wonder how your life could get better,
When you're alone you just tear yourself down.
"That's why I'm here. When Kikyo dragged me down to hell with her, it made me realize that I love YOU and not Kikyo." Inuyasha tells me gently.
Quickly, I snap my eyes open, and look at him in shock. "Wha?" I ask, dumbfounded.
"I love YOU Kagome, not Kikyo." Inuyasha tells me again, just as soft and gentle as last time.
"You... you... you do?" I stutter.
"Mm-hmm." he tells me, nodding his head a little. His eyes were filled with love and passion.
Still not convinced, I wrench my arm out of his hand. "How did you get back up here from hell?" I ask. Once he answered that, I'd believe him.
Inuyasha was quiet for a long while, but finally after a five minutes delay, he said "She killed herself, and then I was brought back to Kaede's hut. Then I came searching for you."
Noticing his eyes cast downwards I say, "Oh... I'm sorry."
An awkward silence then fell over us.
You're just givin' it all, givin' it all away,
You're just givin' it all, givin' it all away,
"I love you too." I mumble softly, knowing that my nosey family was spying on us around the corner.
Glomping Inuyasha, I smile happily. This was what I wanted. To be with Inuyasha. But for some odd reason, it didn't feel right.
"Feh, go pack so we can go back through the well." Inuyasha commanded.
Ah, that was it. Inuyasha was acting a bit odd. Smiling and nodding happily, I skip upstairs to go start packing.
You're just givin' it all, givin' it all away,
You're just givin' it all, givin' it all away,
Hey, hey, ey yey, y ey, yey,
Try and find your better half now,
Open your eyes and find yourself.
Hey girl screamin for attention,
Once you get it you throw it away.
I'm broken, i'm pickin up the pieces
I won't live in all your mistakes.
I'm just givin' it all, givin' it all away,
I'm just givin' it all, givin' it all away.
I'm just givin' it all, givin' it all away,
I'm just givin' it all, givin' it all away.
I'm just giving it up, givin it all away,
Hey, hey, ey yey, y ey, ey.