This story is extremely short. It's a one shot and its very depressing, hell I was crying while I wrote it. It's Yaoi, which means MALE/MALE RELATION SHIPS. You don't like that then don't read. Also one of the YYH guys dies (I'm not telling who, you have to read!) so if you don't like that either then you definitely shouldn't read this. But if none of that bothers you then I insist that you read it. This story is told in Hiei's POV FYI and it's based of a song with the same title as this stories title, by Anmerie
Disclaimer: I don't own YYH or the characters in it so don't sue. You'd only get about fifteen cents anyway.
My heartaches, my chest burns, my eyes are becoming blurred with water.
Why is this happening? I've killed many for various reasons, I've slayed thousands for no reason at all. So then why?
Why did it hurt to kill you?
I warned you, I pushed you away from me, I even threatened you on more than one occasion. But you were so damn stubborn…. so damn persistent! You wouldn't listen to me when I told you off. Your ego wouldn't let it go. Or was it that human heart you possessed? What ever it was, it made you try to get into my mind, my world and try to figure me out. It compelled you to try to break through the barriers that I have spent years re-enforcing. Walls of emotion I have built strong to never fall down.
Like I would ever allow that.
Now, as I sit here covered in blood, your blood, memories flash through my mind, consisting of only you. Your sweet smiles, your angered shouts, your foxy grins, your saddened pouts. I can remember all of it clearly, which upsets me even further.
My chest burns more fiericly.
Tears fall willingly down my cheeks.
You were getting to close to me. You were tearing down to many of my walls to fast.
You were getting to close to me.
It scared me. It scared me to think that one day I might become as weak as you were and give in to human emotion. It was frightening and I didn't know what else to do.
So I prevented you from ever getting any closer.
I killed you.
Every one was so surprised.
Hell, even I was surprised. But I did what needed to be done and that was that. But if that is true then why am I crying? Why am I so upset by the sight of your dead body?
I grab your lifeless body and hold it tightly to mine, embracing you.
"I'm sorry Kurama……" I said apologizing to him; he deserved it after all.
"What's done is done. But I don't regret it." I cried hugging him more tightly against myself.
What was worse was that he replied back.
"I'm just glad I got to…die within the arms of the…person I ..."
"Kurama…I thought you were…"
" My body died yes, but I refuse to die until I tell you this." Kurama said in a whisper. Hiei pulled him away enough to look at his face.
"I love you," he said with a smile on his face. He slowly closed his eyes and let himself go.
I shut my own eyes and embraced him once again, tighter than the last time.
"Good bye… my friend." I said as I gently let go of him and layed him down on the blood soaked grass. I picked up my katana from the ground and walked on.
Now, Forever I will be cursed with the memory of your dying face and words.
My final barrier, the one you had yet to break through, crumbles to pieces.
Damn you Kurama.
Owari
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