Self Indulgence

Disclaimer: I don't own.. I borrow!

Spoilers: Ha..ha…no.

Rating: R for explicit content and language

Summary: Things aren't always as perfect as they seem….

Notes: If it hasn't been said, there will be no Diva search (if I take the piece that far) and I'm ignoring the house shows. I'm still trying to find my creative direction so I can update on a more regular basis.. Your patience is greatly appreciated. I'm still unsure as to the length (series wise anyway) and once I have that figured out, I'll let you know.

Thanks to: everyone who reviewed the last chapter and to everyone who has reviewed the story. I can honestly say, I didn't expect to get much feedback, but I appreciate each and everyone of you more than you'll ever know.

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It was in a state of tangled limbs, that Lita awoke late Wednesday morning.. Or maybe it was closer to Wednesday afternoon. The redheaded Diva wasn't quite sure, nor did she really care. Since yesterday afternoon, they had left the comfort of the bed to order take out and use the bathroom. Jeff had called once, to see if the pair was up to hanging out.. And before Lita had the chance to respond, Randy informed him that they were catching up on lost time. Lita, at least, had a moment to tell her amused best friend that they'd hang out with him tomorrow. When exactly, she didn't know.. But tomorrow would be better. Now, she was starting to think that hadn't been a good idea…considering the lack of sleep she had gotten last night. Added to that, she hadn't even gotten out of the bed yet, and from the current state of things.. She might not be moving anytime soon. Two arms, locked rather firmly around her midsection, prevented her from sitting up…and from making any sort of productive movements. Or at least movements that would lead to her getting out of the bed.

"You know, I did tell Jeff we'd hang out with him today." The redhead frowned slightly, "And the alarm clock is over there."

Randy opened an eye, "So? When have you ever known Jeff to be on time for something?"

Lita rolled her eyes at the wall, "Not the point, Randy.. I would like to get dressed at some point."

He shook his head, the grip around her waist tightening. "Give me a good reason why we should move from this bed."

She glanced over her shoulder, "Maybe because we haven't eaten anything since last night? You are the same person who informed me that you're a growing boy.. You had to--"

Randy smirked against the back of her neck, "I did say that and you're right.. We haven't eaten since last night. But you still haven't given me a good reason as to why we should move."

"I'll bite you."

"Kinky," he uttered against her skin, "I owe you one…by the way."

She turned in his embrace, an eyebrow raising at his 'innocent' look. "Don't even think it. Nobody knows about--"

"I know," Randy replied simply. "But that didn't stop me before."

Lita rolled her eyes, "You are too much.." Raising a hand to cup his face, she added wryly, "Sometimes I wonder what I'm gonna do with you."

Randy grinned, a suggestive glint in his eyes. "I can think of plenty of things.. And wouldn't you know it, none of them involve leaving this bed."

Lita shook her head, "As appealing as spending all day lounging around does sound.. I'm afraid it's not happening."

He traced abstract patterns on her lower back, "Why not? Come on, Li. We don't have to be anywhere until Monday."

"Because, that's why.." She waited a beat before adding: "And stop pouting at me.. That face isn't gonna work."

"It's worked every single time.." Randy chuckled at the incredulous look she gave him. "Face the facts, babe.. You can't resist me."

Lita scoffed, "You just keep thinking that.." under her breath she muttered, "cocky bastard."

He raised an eyebrow, "Calling me names again?" A smirk lifted at the corners of his mouth, "You know--"

"Don't finish that sentence," hazel eyes narrowed in mock warning. "Seriously though, we should get dressed."

"Again.. You give me a good reason why and fine.. We'll move." The movement ceased on her back. "I still don't see why, but--"

"If Jeff decides to drop by on a whim, which considering it's Jeff.. He might just do that." Lita held up a hand when he opened his mouth to retort, "I'd rather answer the door fully clothed."

Randy lifted his shoulders in a slight shrug, "I see nothing wrong with what you're wearing now."

"I am not answering the door wearing a bed sheet."

Randy opened his mouth to reply, when the phone started ringing. "Do you want me to answer that?"

Lita glared, "No.. just hand me the phone, please."

"Suit yourself," he reached back, handing the cordless phone to her. With a roll of his eyes, he added: "I'll be quiet now."

Lita rolled her eyes right back, bringing the sheet with her as she sat up against the headboard. "Talk to me.."

"Hey brat," Dawn greeted from her cell phone. "What are you up to?"

"Not much," the redhead replied easily. "I actually just woke up a few minutes ago."

"Uh huh.." Dawn stated somewhat disbelievingly, "Don't tell me you forgot.."

"Forgot what?"

Dawn rolled her eyes at the phone, "Mini trip.. Remember? Up to Pennsylvania or something? It's one of the few things that you and John actually agreed on last week when we talked about doing something between shows and stuff."

"Oops?" Lita responded weakly, the redhead pausing to swat Randy's hand away. "Where are you two?"

"At a gas station in Raleigh." Dawn paused to sweep her hair from her face, "We would've been there by now, but the car obviously ran out of gas."

Lita nodded at the phone, her free hand closing over Randy's wrist. "Cut that out.." she hissed quietly. "Umm.. Dawn? When do you think you'll get here?"

"As long as genius here, doesn't get lost.." Dawn rolled her eyes at John. "It shouldn't be too much longer.. An hour at most."

Lita squeaked, "Can you hold on a minute?" She didn't bother to wait for a reply, one hand cupping the phone. "Ya know.. You're making it really hard for me to carry on a simple conversation."

Randy shrugged, "Then you shouldn't have bitten me last night.. I told you I'd get you back for that."

The redhead rolled her eyes, "Did you have to pick now? I'm kinda on the phone, here."

He made an open gesture with his hands, "I'm not stopping you."

"If you could keep your hands and your teeth to yourself, I'd appreciate it." She sent him one last warning glare, before she brought the phone back to her ear. "I'm really sorry about that Dawn.."

Dawn smirked, tossing her hair over her shoulder as the car pulled out of the gas station. "Tell Randy we said hi." Shaking her head she added: "I take it he's coming with us?"

"Why the hell not," Lita rolled her eyes at the ceiling, "Look.. I have to call Jeff and cancel whatever plans he had.. Plus, I need to take a shower so, I'll see you when you get here."

"Alright.. We'll see you two in an hour."

Lita waited until she heard the dial tone, the blanket wrapped around her bare form as she moved from the bed.

"Where are you going?"

She tossed a glance over her shoulder, "To take a shower.. Dawn and John will be here in an hour."

Randy nodded, "And where are the three of you going?"

"Camping," she replied from the bathroom, the redhead currently standing in front of the mirror. "You can come with us.. If you want, anyway." She leaned forwards, craning her neck slightly to examine the mark on her neck. "Damn it."

Randy stood behind her, resting his chin on her shoulder. "You know Dawn and John won't judge you for that." He waited a beat, "And why are you going camping in the middle of winter?"

"It's either camping or skiing.. Something like that. If we go skiing we're heading up to Pennsylvania." Lita shrugged, "Either way I do need to take a shower. And I have to call Jeff and--"

He pried her hands loose from the blanket. "Then take your shower.."

xoxox

With nothing else holding up the blanket, it soon pooled into a pile of fabric at the redhead's feet. But, since they did have to meet up with Dawn and John soon, the two settled for separate showers. Both knowing full well that showering together would just lessen their chances of meeting Dawn and John on time. And while Lita was taking her shower, Randy called Jeff. Granted, Jeff was more than a little skeptical about the phone call, but the Cameron native accepted the excuse easily enough. In turn, Randy informed the redhead that he had already called Jeff; Lita getting dressed while Randy took his shower. And by the time he was halfway through his shower, the doorbell rang. Lita silently thanked the person who invented turtleneck shirts, the redhead hastily making her way downstairs to let Dawn and John inside.

"Come on in," Lita opened the door, standing to the side so the two could enter. "I'd offer you coffee but.. I haven't made any yet.. Where are we heading again?"

"Snow's good in Pocono, so were thinking of heading up to Alpine Mountain or Jack Frost." Dawn replied as she took a seat. "Where's Randy?"

Lita flopped down on the couch, "He's taking a shower, actually."

Dawn nodded, "And have you two made up your minds about whatever it is you're doing?"

"Sort of," the redhead rolled her shoulders. "We haven't really talked about it yet, but--"

The brunette Diva sighed, "Li.. Honey, you have got to do something. I talked to Vikki after you just up and disappeared."

"I needed some time to think," Lita stated calmly. "I had wanted to get some time alone but…he followed me."

Dawn almost looked impressed, "That's a start then.." She crossed her arms over her chest, "And what about Stacy?"

"About that," the redhead grimaced. "There's something you really need to know.."

Dawn raised an eyebrow, "Oh? We have some time before we--"

"Dawn.. John.." Randy greeted as he walked downstairs, waiting until he had taken a seat with the redhead. "How're you two?"

Dawn sent the redhead a look, "We'll talk later.." her attention drifted back to Randy, "We're good, thanks."

John offered a nod, "'Sup?"

Randy shrugged in response, one arm draping loosely over the redhead's shoulders. "Could be better.. Could be worse."

"Like I just told Li, we're heading up to Pocono… or at least somewhere that these two can hit the slopes." Dawn gestured between Lita and John, before she directed a warm smile to Randy, "You're more than welcome to join us."

The third generation wrestler nodded easily, "Sounds like fun.."

Lita bridged her hands together, "We could just see if one of the places over in West Virginia has space available."

Dawn nodded, "If you have phone numbers handy.."

"If I don't, I'm sure Jeff does.." Lita rested a hand on Randy's thigh, "Could you hand me the phone and--"

Randy handed her the phone first, "Jeff wanted to talk to you, anyway."

The redhead raised an eyebrow, "He didn't believe you, did he."

"Nope," Randy rolled his eyes. "Didn't believe a damn thing, I said."

Lita smiled wryly, rising from the couch, "I can't say I'm too surprised.." She offered an apologetic smile to the three in the living room, heading then to the kitchen to call Jeff.

The brunette Diva turned her attention to Randy, "Since I haven't had the chance to talk to Li yet.. How are things really going?"

"Like I said already.." Randy leaned forwards a touch, "It could be better, but it could be worse."

Dawn shook her head, "I'd like a real answer.." Raising an eyebrow, she added: "I'm not going to judge the two of you.. I think you should've handled things differently but, you can't do much about it now."

The third generation wrestler nodded, "I don't really know what's going on. I want to be with her--"

"Li?"

Randy rolled his eyes in spite of it all, "If I didn't want to be with her, I wouldn't be sitting here right now."

"True," Dawn conceded with a nod. "So, what happens now? Are you two together or what?"

He shifted slightly under the brunette's scrutinizing gaze. "We haven't talked about it yet."

Dawn sighed, "Well you should.. I don't mean to pressure either one of you, but.. You should sit down and talk about it. Figure out what happens. I'm not saying you should make a long term commitment here, because honestly, I don't think either of you are ready for that.." She smoothed down sleeves of her sweater, "At the very least, you two should sort things out.. For both of your sakes."

"We will talk about it," Randy threaded a hand through his hair. "It's just, right now.. I'd rather just take things day by day."

Dawn sat back in the chair she was occupying, "Do you love her?"

Randy shook his head, "Funny as it may seem.. We don't know each other well enough. I care about her, I care about what happens to her, but--"

Dawn held up a hand, "That's all I need to know.." Her eyes softened a fraction, "Li will be getting the same third degree here, so.."

"I kinda figured," Randy rolled his shoulders. "I've already been warned by Jeff, Matt and Shane.. I'm expecting the same from Victoria, Chris Jericho and probably Chris Benoit."

Dawn smirked, "That sounds about right.. It's just.. None of us want to see either of you getting hurt. Admittedly, yes, we're looking out more for Li but--"

Randy held up a hand, "I understand, alright? I won't make promises that I can't keep, but I'll be damned if I do hurt her in any way."

Dawn gauged the look on his face, scrutinizing him carefully for any signs of falsehood. "If you do.. I know Jeff, Matt, Chris, Chris and Shane will be after your ass like white on rice. You can damn well bet I'll be right alongside them."

"Jeff's dropping off his season passes for us.." Lita mentioned as she walked back into the living room. "They're for Winterplace Ski Resort in Ghent, West Virginia."

Dawn nodded, "Do they have rentals and stuff?"

"Yeah, they also have snow tubing if you aren't up for skiing." Lita set the phone back on it's base. "There's a few hotels in the area, too .. One of them should have openings."

John sent her a questioning look, "You got directions or something?"

"I know how to get there," Lita replied confidently, the redhead soon finding herself re-seated on the couch. "We'll probably have to stop in Greensboro or Winston Salem before we hit the West Virginia state line."

The West Newbury native nodded, "So long as one of us knows where we're goin'.. thanks to Dawn here, I got lost."

Dawn rolled her eyes, "If you had just stopped and asked for directions.. Or taken the directions I had given you, we wouldn't have gotten lost."

Lita snorted, "A guy taking directions? Keep on dreamin' Dawn."

"Alright then, know it all.." John crossed his arms over his chest, "Since you women think you don' need no directions.. You drive us there."

"Whatever," the redhead shrugged it off easily. "I don't really care either way.. But, I do need to pack before we go."

Dawn waved the Sanford resident upstairs, "If you aren't down here by the time Jeff stops by, I'll take the passes."

Lita grinned in response, she and Randy exiting the living room shortly after.

The brunette waited until they were upstairs, "I hope they know what they're doing.."

"Dawn, baby.." John moved from his spot, perching instead on the arm of the chair the brunette Diva was occupying. "You jus' gotta let them be. I know you're only tryin' to look out for Lita, but give 'em some space."

"I know that, John.." she rested her head on his knee, "I'm just worried.. I don't want to see her get hurt and--"

He rolled his eyes good naturedly, "I know you're worried.. But just let 'em be. They obviously got a lot to sort through right now.. An' I doubt they need ya helping."

Dawn half nodded, "I'll try to back off.. " at his dubious snort she added: "I will. I've kept my nose out of it until this point, as is."

John nodded in response, the two falling into a comfortable silence soon enough. And that brief moment of silence was interrupted both by the front door opening and by a pair of footsteps coming downstairs. Dawn took the liberty of collecting the passes from Jeff, the redhead following behind her to make a small request from her best friend. John and Randy, meanwhile, gathered suitcases… the two passing by Lita and Jeff to load the car. Once Lita was finished speaking with Jeff, she and Dawn exited the house.. John tossing the car keys to the redhead. In turn, Lita slipped into the driver's seat with Dawn and John taking the back seat. And once Randy was settled in the passengers seat, Lita backed the car out of the driveway. While it certainly was nice to take a little break from the normal hustle and bustle, Lita wasn't entirely looking forward to the mini trip. Granted, spending time with her friends was nice.. And of course, spending the time with Randy would be most welcomed. She wasn't, however, looking forward to the inevitable conversation with Dawn. The redhead knew full well that Dawn wouldn't take the news lightly, but the brunette Diva needed to know, none the less. Lita could only hope that Dawn wouldn't lash out on her.