A/N: Well, this has been sitting on my computer and in my LJ since August, because I was too damn nervous to just post it already. First try at anything Kingdom Hearts. It was only written because I was feeling rather depressed and needed to write something... Please RR? Reviews make every writer better: )

Black Reflection
By Bunny-Chan

Looking upon your angelic face, I'm reminded of who I really am.

There is darkness within every heart.

There is darkness within my heart.

I'm not worthy of you and your purity. Your beauty. Your happiness.

The red hair framing the face of you, my angel, reminds me of the blood that I have spilled, and reminds me that to have you would be to kill everything you are.

To have you would be to take you, and rip the wings from your back, bloodied feathers falling to the ground, leaving you crippled and never able to fly again.

To have you would be to trap you, broken and bathed in your own blood.

I hate myself for what I'm putting you through. Just by knowing you. By touching you. By speaking to you.

How can you forgive me so easily?

All I wanted was to bring you back. All the time I was fighting. All the time I was killing. All the time I was battling my best friend.

All I wanted was to save you.

But I wasn't your hero.

He was.

Sora was.

Somehow, though I had been the one who made the most sacrifices trying to revive my angel, he became the selfless hero.

And it became a race, to see who could save you first. Who could bring you back.

And like always, he won.

I am stronger. I am more willing to sacrifice.

But he always wins.

Am I so worthless?

It's said that he's "chosen".

Chosen for what?

Aren't I chosen as well?

Aren't I just as worthy as he is?

I think so.

But I'm not you.

I don't make your decisions.

I can't make you choose me over him, your hero.

I'm taking a great risk to see you though, even if you won't see me.

Because being surrounded by my enemies certainly isn't safe at all.

Standing next to Sora puts my life in the greatest of dangers, in all reality.

And that's why I have to leave, before I even get to speak to you.

Ironic, isn't it?

We both began this adventure, hoping to save you.

And now I'm the one that you all expect to save.

Goodbye, Kairi.

/end

A/N: Well, how was it? Mm, gotta love Riku.