Chapter 1
My name is Faith from Boston. I don't want to tell you my last name cuz of my shitty family and all. I wouldn't call it a family. My mom was really a loving person. She was only 23 when she had me…but my teal dad left her. When I was about 8 years old my mom got married to a guy named Dave. He was a nice guy at first but when he got into drugs somehow he changed. He always beats us up. Sometimes when Dave was beating me my mom would pick up a broken glass and threaten him. That would stop Dave in beating me up but then he would come for my mom and drag her to their bedroom.
I'm not a child anymore. I know what he's doing to her. Sometimes when he was done with her he would left us and goes out for a drink or something. Then I would hear my mom crying on the floor with bruises on her face and her clothes torn. When I was looking at her like that I was always asking myself some questions.
'Why wouldn't my mom just leave him or something? Why can't we just run away? Does she love him that much that she would sacrifice her happiness for him? Is that how you love a person? Throwing away your happiness just to be near them? If so then…I won't be like that! I won't sacrifice my own happiness just for the sake of…love!'
I vowed that to myself. I know that it was kinda stupid but I kept my promise. I never did fall in love. How can I… when I don't even have friends at school. You're probably surprised that I even go to school what with my family problems and all. It was my mom's idea. I always told her that I don't need to go to school and that I should just help her with her bruises and all. Actually I was afraid that someday when I go home from school I might not find my mom….alive. I didn't say that loud. I just kept it to myself.
I don't want her to die. Heck…I don't want anyone to die…unless it's Dave. I hate him for doing this to us. I really hate him for doing this to mom. I want to see her smiling again. Just like when she didn't marry Dave. She must have sensed it. She puts both her hands on my cheeks and looked me in the eye with a slight smile on her lips.
"I just want you to be happy…I want you to have a different life…not like this one…"
'And school would bring me happiness….yeah right! You don't even know what I've been doing to school! The only thing that would make me happy is seeing you happy again.'
I am right. She doesn't know what I've been doing at school. Heck I don't even have friends! Plus I always get to a pretty nasty fight. And don't forget that the principal hates me. He said that one more time that he sees me in his office he would kick me out. Not unless I kick him first. But I didn't. I don't want my mom to know that I am always having fights. The only reason that the principal hadn't called our house is because I have given him a wrong number. That number that he's been calling is kinda broken. So I guess he stopped calling when he found out.
God! I am such a genius! Well actually not cuz I always flunk subjects. I wasn't really sure why I passed sixth grade! Yep, I'm in seventh grade now. Well not now but in about two days I think. Yeah…two days! I only have to enjoy my summer in two days. God that was so fast. Not that I'm complaining.
It was the best summer of my life! Well not really. It only became the best cuz 'Dave' didn't show up at all. He was kinda busy dealing drugs to a different town. Yeah my step dad a drug dealer…what an honest job….NOT! I know he'll be back cuz he kinda left all his belongings in the house. But if he does come back I am not going to sit by and watch him beat us up. But I don't know what to do.
Well so much from thinking that when school is only two days ahead! God, how I hate school. Not only because of the principal hates me but because all the student there is afraid of me. Well not entirely…two person there kinda likes me I think. Mark and Kelly was their name…I think…or was it Bart and…Felly? Fuck! What kind of a retard parent would name their child Felly or something! Maybe that's not her name. Ah, forget it! Anyway the only reason they like me is that I saved them from being turned into a bloody pulp. I saw them in an alley with Charlie and John. Those two must be bullying them so I kinda scared them off. They ran pretty fast.
Next thing I know Shelly just hugged me and saying 'thank you' over and over again while Dart is patting me on the back and kept smiling at me. Weird! That's not all…every time I was going to eat or something they would sit next to me and they would tell me what happened to them during class! Like I care! Well I don't mind…I could use the company…but maybe their just hanging out with me because they know that the other guys wouldn't touch them…that I'll protect them or something. Guess I'll ask them in two days. Yeah two days…
"Faith…"
What the…who the hell called my name? I turned my head and saw nothing but black. Where the hell am I? Where are all the people? What the hell is going on here?
"Faith…"
I turned to were I heard the voice and started running. Nothing changes. The background was still black as if I'm in an abyss or something. But somehow I kinda know that I'm not alone…like I can feel someone. As I ran and ran I can see someone standing. Then there is light at her back. Her hair is shining. A blonde…?
"Faith…I'll be…waiting…"
As she said this I can feel her going away. It's like my energy is being pulled by her. It's like I'm…dying…
"Faith…"
I can feel someone shaking me…but I don't care anymore…its best if I just die here.
"Faith…"
More shaking…No…just let me die…please..just let me...die..
"Faith…get up! You'll be late."
"W-Wha?"
I slightly opened my eyes and saw my mom shaking me. It was just a dream? But it feels so real…
"I said get up or you'll be late?"
"Where's the…yawn…blonde?"
I said this as I gently rubbed my eyes. I looked at her and she was looking at me like I'm crazy. Then I realized what I said.
"Faith?"
"Uh…yeah?"
She began to hold my hand and looked at me with a serious look. It kinda scared me at first that's why I kinda backed away from her.
"Are you on…drugs?"
Now that really surprised me. Me on drugs? No way…I don't do drugs. Drugs are for person who are…losers. Maybe that's why 'Dave' took them. Anyway what the hell is mom thinking?
"What? NO! Geeez mom! I'm not into drugs!"
"Not even marijuana?"
"No!"
"Ok…how about cocaine?"
"MOM!"
"Alright! Alright! No need to be so grouchy about it…"
As she said this she began to head to the door. GOD! What the hell is my mom thinking? Don't she trust me or something? I slowly sat on the edge of the bed hands on my face. That dream just seems so…real. And what's with the blonde girl? Who the hell is she?
"Hey! You need to get up! You have school today remember?"
'Yeah…school…how can I forget?'
So here we are...school again! This sucks! Not only that...I just found out that Telly or whats-her-name is at my class! Now that sucks...big time! God how i hate school! So here I am sitting in class beside...Delly. She seem pretty glad to know that I'm in her class. Guess I have to spend a year with her. Which is fine by me!
"Okay class...were going to play a game..."
Oh...For pete's sake were in seventh grade! Oh yeah that bimbo who just talked was Ms.Owens our teacher for a year. Not that I'm complaining. She seems pretty nice...in a bimbo kinda way. Anyway she's kinda telling everyone the rules of the game. Like I care! I've got more things to think about than that stupid game of hers. Okay...what to think about...well there's Dave...nah too evil...uh Nelly...nah too noisy...Ms.Owens...too childish...Lark...too friendly...mom...thinks I'm on drugs...the dream girl...perfect. Yep! I guess I could think about dream girl. Actually it's not the dream that bothers me its the...girl. That girl said she'll be waiting but...for what and for whom? Don't tell me she's gonna wait for me? I don't even know her. And the way I felt when she was gone...it was if...someone is draining all my energy.
"Faith"
"What"
I was suddenly brought back to reality. I was startled to see that Ms. Owens was standing beside me holding a small box. I looked inside it and saw small pieces of paper. I looked at Ms. Owens and gave her a confused stare.
"Pick a piece of paper."
I did that and she began to walk away. I noticed Jelly laughing a little. She noticed it and began to laugh more. I began to look at her closely. She is kinda...cute in a different kinda way.
"You should have seen your face"
"Well you should have told me that Ms. Owens was calling me"
"Sorry...It's just that you were kinda thinking some...very deep thoughts. Ms. Owens has been calling you five times"
I must be thinking really deep thoughts then. It's because of that dream girl! I can't get her out of my mind! Dammit! Then I remembered the piece of paper. I opened it and something is written on it. 'Alexander Graham Bell' The fuck! Who the hell is this guy! Must be new. His name is kinda...dorky. I looked at Selly and saw that she was looking for someone.
"Hey...um..."
She must have noticed and approached me.
"Faith...I have a name you know..."
'Yeah. But I can't fucking remember your name! God, I must have called you 6 times with different names! I ought to call you Smelly so that it's not hard to forget!'
"Uh...yeah...whatever...so um...do you know anyone named Alexander Grand Ball or something"
I must have said something wrong cuz the next thing i know she's laughing so hard that tears are running down her eyes. Yeah. Laugh at poor Faith when she asks a question. I was frowning a little as I saw her claming down.
"It's Alexander Graham Bell."
I looked at the paper and saw it again. Fucking stupid! Grand Ball? What kinda name is that! No wonder she kept laughing. I really suck at names.
"Whatever...so um do you know him"
"Well we haven't really meet but he kinda invented the telephone."
What this geek invented the telephone? Then he must be fucking rich now! I looked at her with a confused stare. She's telling me his life. BORING!
"So where is he"
"In the ground where he belongs! Faith...that guy is dead like...I don't know...many years ago"
That was a surprise. I must have looked like a child caught stealing or something cuz Helly is looking at me like I'm crazy. Well why the hell did the fucking teacher gave me a dead guy!
"Then what the hell am I supposed to do with this guy! How the hell am I supposed to interview a guy who is dead"
Must have surprised her cuz she's staring at me with wide eyes. Then she's shaking her head as if disappointed at me or something. What the hell! Why is she doing that? It kinda gives me the creeps.
"Faith...now I know how very deep in thought you were minutes ago. What were you thinking about anyway? A guy? Are you having a guy trouble? Cuz if you are then"
"Hold on"
A guy? I wasn't thinking of a guy...a girl maybe...but a guy. Hold on... that kinda sound like I'm a lesbian or something. Not that I'm against it or anything. I'm straight as a tree. I held a hand to her face as if to stop her from talking. Good thing it worked too.
"I wasn't thinking about a guy alright? Now...why don't you calm down and tell me what I'm supposed to do with this damn paper."
I saw her take a deep breath and released it. Geezz...she's so uptight. Well at least she listens.
"The teacher gave us a piece of paper right"
I nod. Yeah I know that. So tell me something I don't know...maybe like your name? I began to smile a little at that thought.
"Well some paper has an inventor written in them...and some of them the things that they invented."
"So basically I just have to find the one that he invented right"
She nods. Fuck! That's all! I sighed at the thought.
"So...what does your paper say"
"Light bulb"
"Thomas Edison right"
She nods again. Fucking stupid game!
"Well I think you better look for your partner."
"The telephone right? Don't worry I think I'll just let him find me."
As I said this I laid my head on my table. Yeah...I'll let him find me...then he'll be to scared to talk to me. I couldn't help but grin looking at the empty chair.
"Ok. I'm gonna go now...or do you want to talk a bit...about your...problem"
I know she means the one with the dream girl. But it's kinda nice to ask.
"Nah...just go get your Edison or something..."
"Ok. Good luck finding yours"
Yeah...like I need it. You should be saying that to the other person cuz he's definitely going to need it. Couldn't help but smirk at that. My thoughts were interrupted by a person standing to were I was looking. Guess this is the person. Better greet him...or her. There stood a girl. Brown hair same as her eyes, has a slim body and when you look at her back you can see that she has a very big...butt. Okay...Big butt running on the loose.
"Hi..."
Yeah...it's big butt alright. I thought their kind is extinct now. Guess not. She was smiling at me. You wouldn't be smiling if you know what I'm thinking. Guess I'll say hi back or I could say...'Omigod! Did a couple of bees sting your ass! I think it's swollen!' God that would make my day! I must be laughing a little cuz she has a confused stare.
"Uh...sorry I was just thinking of something. Anyway does your paper say 'Telephone'"
"Yeah. So yours must be that Bell guy."
"Yeah..."
"Great! I've been kinda looking for you for minutes now. You mind if I sit here"
Do I mind? No please put your royal butt in the chair your highness. Oh wait a minute! That chair must be hard for you. Let me get a pillow. A BIG pillow...so that your royal butt will be comfortable...NOT! I shook my head and she sat at Helly's chair.
"So...your Faith huh"
"Well yeah. How did you know"
'Geez! Stupid question! Everyone here know me! Even the faculty!'
"Well...you're kinda popular here...you know."
"Yeah. I know. Stupid question huh"
"No it's not. I kinda know everything about you."
"Ok...tell me...what do you know about me"
I was really interested in what she knows about me. I don't even know why...maybe because I know she's new here.
"Well I know that you fought Steven when he said something about you...you also fought Gary...Bruce...Jake..."
'Okay...she knows me too well. Did I really fight them all? Oh yeah...she's not finished yet.'
"Nick...you also fought a boy as I recall it..."
I smirked as she mentioned that. I remember it. He was bullying a girl taking her lunch so I taught him a lesson. A good lesson. I held him up to his feet. He kinda cried. Then a couple of hours later I am visiting the principal's office. But luckily the girl kinda helped me. She told the whole story. Oh yeah she also told me her name. It's Cathy. Kinda cute. Has blonde hair and her eyes were strikingly blue. Calls me 'sis' which is fine by me. She's gonna grow up beautiful.
"Oh yeah...you also saved Clark and Terri...which is kinda sweet..."
"Who"
"Clark and Terri...you know...the one you saved from Charlie? Your...buddies"
So it's Clark and Terri! God am I glad I finally knew their name! It's Terri not Smelly or Kelly or whatever! God am I stupid! I smiled at her and she smiled back. She's kinda cute when she smiles...
"Oh I forgot...You also joined the dance club when you were on fourth grade..."
That did it. My smile slowly disappeared and turned into a frightened look
'OH.MY.GOD. She knows that! How come she knows that! Nobody remembers it...so how come...My deepest darkest secret exposed by...big butt.'
"Faith? Faith! Are you alright? You look pale..."
I looked at her and saw her eyes. Is that concern on her eyes or am I just imagining it? That didn't matter for now. My secret was exposed by an unknown girl...wait a minute...I don't even know her name. I shook my head from the memories of me joining that club. I don't even know why I joined that club. All I know is thinking about it gives me the creeps.
"Uh...yeah I'm fine."
"I'm glad...you kinda freaked me out..."
"Well I'm fine now..."
She smiled at me. Guess I really freaked her out. Heck she was the one who freaked me out. Telling me I joined that club...
"Didn't catch your name..."
"Oh..um...sorry...It's Julia."
She offered her hand for a handshake. I slowly took it...you know to be nice or something...which I'm not used to. We broke our handshake and gave me a smile again. What's with her and her smile? Is she trying to show her lips or something? And why does her name sounds familiar?
"So...how did you know I joined that club"
"You don't remember"
"Should I"
She looks disappointed when I asked that. It's true! I don't remember! I don't even recognize her face.
"Well I also joined that club."
"Oh..."
'Well at least she's honest. Guess that means she's not a new student. Which brings me to my earlier question...Why didn't I at least know her by her face?'
"It's alright if you don't remember...it has been so long."
"Well...yeah I guess...but if you don't mind...well...um...could you...um..."
"I'm not going to tell them if...you wouldn't tell them that I joined it too."
"Yeah of course"
Wow. Can't believe she knows what I was going to say. Can't blame her if she's embarrassed about it too. Guess she's kinda...ok. My thoughts were interrupted when the bell rang. Lunch time. I was kinda disappointed cuz I wanted to talk to her. I was kinda curious about this girl.
"Well I guess I should go...it was nice talking to you Juls..."
She nodded and smiled at me widely. Whoops...did I call her that? Better ask if she's ok with it..
"Hey...you ok with the Juls thing? Cuz if your not..."
"No! I'm cool with it."
"Great. Well...later I guess..."
"Yeah later."
I was heading out of the classroom when someone called my name. I looked at the direction and found Terri calling me. God am I gald I know your name...FINALLY!
"Hey Ter...what's up"
She looked shock when I said that. Her mouth was slightly open too. What the hell? Is she broke or something? I kinda knew she was a robot!
"What"
She shook her head and gave me a wide smile. Ok...robots can't smile...she's human.
"It's just that...it's the first time you called my name. Well not my whole name but I'm still glad. Actually I thought you didn't know my name"
"Whatever...so you coming or what"
"Geezz rude much"
I just shrug at her and we went to the canteen.
Lunch Time
We were having our lunch when Clark showed up. He was quiet and I wasn't really used to that. Guess something happened to him.
"Hey! are you alright?
Terri asked as she pat his back. I can see that she's worried but I guess there is something more to it. I can tell that she really cares about Clark. Guess he's just stupid to see it.
"Yeah Clark...You alright or something"
Guess they were shocked when I said those. Maybe I wasn't really friendly to them last year but I kinda felt bad so...I'm being nice now.
"What? I was just being nice. And yes I know your name."
Clark smiled and Terri kinda grinned at me. Geez. Don't they believe that I can be nice sometimes? That I'm not always thinking of fighting?
"Well I'm just kinda...disappointed...you know with Julia not being my classmate this year. I was
hoping that...you know...I could ask her out or something..."
Terri looked kinda disappointed. Guess she has a little crush on our friend Clark here. Wait a minute! Julia! Is that the same Julia that Clark's been talking about last year? So that's why the name sounds familiar. Clark has a crush on her! But...I'm not sure if it's big butt. Better ask.
"Is this Julia big bu...I mean...has a...um..."
How the hell am I gonna ask this! 'Is this the Julia that has a big ass or what?' No...he'll probably get mad for insulting her. But How! Terri seems to read my thoughts or something cuz the next thing I know she's looking at me...still grinning.
"It's ok Faith...you don't need to ask thaaat."
Terri said while giving me a wink. Guess she really knows what I'm thinking about. Clark saw this and began to look at us both with a confused look on his face. Terri sighed and began to look at Clark with a serious look.
"Clark...Julia is on our class. In fact...she and Faith kinda talked for awhile."
Guess that really gave him the energy cuz the next thing I know Clark was holding my hand and looking at me with a slight smile on his face. I think this guy got it bad.
"Did she said anything about...me"
"Oh...um..."
I looked at Terri so she could help me. She had a sad look on her face. It was as if she was ready to accept her defeat. Not if I can't help it!
"You know C...do you mind if I call you C? Cuz your name is kinda long."
"Uh...no...call me whatever you want..."
"Whatever I WANT? Are you SURE? Ok how about I call you tweed."
He must have saw me grinning at him. I wouldn't say that if I were you. I could call you skinny or something worse.
"Uh...on second thought I think I prefer C. But this isn't the time to talk about names! You have to tell me all the things Julia said about me."
"Ok...I'll tell you what she said about you...let me think..."
"What is it already"
"Shhhhh. I'm trying to think here..."
"Well I think it's time to stop thinking and start telling"
"Wait for it please..."
He must be getting impatient cuz he was tapping his foot loudly. I looked at Terri and found her looking at me with confusion on her eyes. I winked at her and she finally smiled.
"C'mon! Hurry up"
"Oh now I remember! She told me..."
He was leaning at me looking at my lips.
"...nothing..."
I couldn't help but laugh as I saw his reaction. It was very funny. Like he's having a heart attack or something.
"That wasn't funny..."
"Aw c'mon! Lighten up a bit! I was just teasing you..."
"Well your teasing could have given me a heart attack."
"I know."
More laughing now. We were interrupted by Julia walking towards our table. At first Clark didn't notice but when he did he almost choke at what he was drinking. I just rolled my eyes when he did cough. Am I glad I'm not an idiot like him. Julia gave us a smile.
"Hey...You guys look happy...mind if I join you guys"
"N-N-N-Not at a-a-all. Please s-sit down."
I rolled my eyes again. Julia looked at me as if to ask permission.
"Uh...sure Juls. You can sit beside tweed there."
Clark glared at me. What? Why is he glaring at me? Oh. Don't want to embarrassed tweed there infront of big butt.
"So you gave Julia a nickname too."
"Well yeah...She doesn't mean to mind."
I just shrug and looked at Julia. She gave me one of her smiles again. I looked at Clark and saw him looking at Julia without blinking with a smile on his face. Terri wasn't good either. She kinda have a frown on her face as she looked at Julia.
"No I don't mind. In fact I like it."
"See...Guess my charm worked on her too."
I winked at her and she gave me another smile...but somehow it feels like this one is different. Nah! I realised that Clark was still looking at her. Isn't he going to make his move? How slow can he get! I kicked Clark on the feet.
"Huh? What"
Clark looked at me with a confused stare. I looked at Julia then him as if to tell him to do something. He must have noticed so he looked at his hands then to Julia.
"Um...Julia...if your not doing anything um...maybe we could...I don't know...hang out after school"
"I'd love to but you see...I have to help my mom with something so maybe next time"
"Uh..yeah...sure...next time."
Poor tweed. In love with a girl who doesn't even like him... We talked for awhile until the bell rang. It was kinda fun...for Julia and me cuz Clark was too busy staring at Julia and Terri...well she was busy glaring at Julia.
Many days have passed since the first day of class. Dave was still out of sight which is very cool. My mom was now happy which is soo okay! Terri was dealing with Clark's love...Julia. Clark was still Clark. He's not giving up with Julia although it's so obvious that Julia is always making excuses for her not to go. Which is pretty smart for Julia and pretty dumb for Clark. And me...still the same, although I'm not getting into fights.
Well here I am again in school. Another boring day! Nothing but lectures. Mr.Davis our Science teacher is currently teaching gravity. Why the hell is he teaching us this crap! We know it already! It's the thing that makes us stay on the ground. Why not tell us something we don't know!
"I am happy to announce that we'll be having a seminar about the subject in the auditorium today. Unfortunately...only three students are going there..."
'Yey! I'm so happy! I hope he chose me...NOT! Hope he doesn't pick me.'
"I guess I'll be picking...James...Julia...and..."
He's looking at me and I couldn't help but frown. Oh boy...Don't you dare pick me...
"...Faith...So you three should go down now. I guess it's almost starting. You don't want to be late don't you"
I kept frowning as I head outside of the classroom. Oh yes...I don't want to be late...NOT!
I rolled my eyes. Julia was behind me and James went beside me. He was smiling to me which is pretty creepy.
"So Faith...I'm James you know...the guy from your third class"
"Uh...yeah...whatever..."
"So tell me about yourself...you know...about your fights cuz I'm pretty much intrested in your fights especially with John. You know I always hated that guy"
'Ok...he's not stopping is he! God I already have a headache!'
"He's always so...bossy you know? And don't forget about Nick. He is such a"
"OK! OK! Cut the crap already! Look I don't care about those guys...plus I have a headache! So would you please shut the fucking up or I will fucking make you"
I must have scared him cuz the next thing I knew he was beside Julia. I didn't care so I went ahead of them.
"What's with her? I was only trying to be friendly."
"I guess she's just not in the mood."
"Yeah not in the mood...maybe she's just crazy or something."
"I heard that! You better not make me hurt you"
James went behind Julia who was laughing very hard.
"Geez Faith...take it easy...he's just joking."
"Joking huh? Well whatever! Take care of him Juls or I might get really crazy..."
Auditorium
I was sitting next to Julia while Julia is sitting next to James. They were talking about which I'm not really interested. There's a man in front talking about some crap about school and stuff. Pretty lame if you asked me. Kinda boring too. I looked around and I saw some students sleeping. Some were really listening. Geeks... And some were talking...like the one beside me.
I looked at Julia and saw her smiling at James. Sometimes she would laugh at what stupid things he's saying. What the hell is she laughing at...it's not like it's funny or anything. Stupid James! I didn't realize what I was thinking. It was as if I was...jealous?
'What! No way! I'am not like Clark! I'm not jealous of James...am I?'
The more I think about it the more I look at them Julia must have noticed.
"What is it? Is there something on my face"
"Um...no it's nothing..."
She bought that but she's still talking to James. I just looked at the speaker and tried to listen to him so that I couldn't think of Julia and James.
"Faith..."
It's the blonde girl again, holding a stick or something. There's something weird about this girl whenever I'm close to her. I kinda feel a tingle on my body and it feels...warm. Like a blanket over my body. I'm not horny if that's what you think! I just feel...warm
"Faith..."
She's standing there again smiling. it's as if she's waiting for me to come to her but I can't. It's as if my body is stuck or something.
"Faith..."
"What is it that you want from me"
She pointed at me but I still can't see her face. It's not clear enough.
"...You..."
"What"
"...Forever..."
"I don't understand you..."
"...Chosen..."
She's fading away. And I still feel the emptiness in my body. It's as if a part of my body is slowly being taken away.
"Please don't go! Wait"
"Faith..."
"No! Don't go"
"...Waiting..."
"NO"
And there's nothing but black. Someone is shaking me. I slowly open my eyes and there infront of me is...Julia. Looking at her shoulder which I have used as a pillow. Must have dozed off… I lifted my head and rubbed my eyes, yawning.
"You ok"
"Huh? Uh...yeah."
"Are you sure. Maybe you had a bad dream...you kept saying no."
"Uh...oh..it's nothing."
"Really? Well if you want to talk about it..."
"Whatever! So is the seminar over now"
"Well yeah just a couple of minutes ago."
"Well you could have woke me up."
She just shrugged. I stood up and began to stretch. I noticed that James was missing, so I looked at the seats. No James there. I looked at Julia and saw that she's heading towards the exit. I walked beside her.
"Hey, where's James"
"Oh...he said he's going to go to the library."
"Why didn't you go with him"
She looked at me and smiled.
"Well...I remembered a certain girl leaning on my shoulder sleeping."
I don't know what I could say to that. I felt hot on my face. Was I...blushing?
"So...I couldn't go with him could I"
'Can't talk...still blushing! Geeez talk to her already!'
"Well if ever...um...I wasn't sleeping...would you go with him"
Was there hope in my voice? I didn't know...but I know what answer I want. I want her to say no.
"C'mon! Even if your not asleep I'm not going with him."
I sighed. Why am I relived to hear that? Why am I so nervous? What's happening to me? We continued walking. I was thinking what I'm feeling at the moment. But I want to ask something that's been bothering me.
"Do you like him"
It came softly. Like a whisper. She didn't hear it.
"What"
"Do you like him"
She looked horrified by my question. Was it really that scary?
"No! Why would you ask something like that"
I shrugged.
"You two looked like you know..."
"No I don't know..."
"Like...um...lovers"
She looks like she's going to kill me. Frowning like that. If looks could kill I'm probably dead by now. BB (Big Butt) looks angry. I was asking! It's not like she's guilty or something...or is she?
"What! I'm just asking"
"Well I don't like what your asking."
"Why? Is it because it's true"
"No! Geezz Faith...where did you come up with this shit"
I was shocked.
'Whoah...did she just swore? She's getting mad!'
I looked at her and she has her hand on her mouth. Eyes wide. Her face soften when she looked at me.
'Now that's the real BB I know.'
"Sorry...I didn't mean it. I guess I was just you know...overreacting about your questions."
"No worries. I guess it was partly my fault."
She looked at me and smiled at me.
'What! Is there something on my face!'
She must have read my mind.
"Did Faith...the bad ass chick...admits that she's wrong"
"No! I just said that it was 'PARTLY' my fault"
"Well you will admit that your wrong...sooner or later"
"No way"
"Maybe the first person you can say that would be someone you truly love."
"What! I don't fall in love."
"Really? Not even once"
"Yeah."
"Why"
"I...guess...its just not me. I'm not the type to fall in love...you know..."
"No...I don't know..."
"It's just...complicated."
She leaned close to my face and I can't help leaning back. Her eyes are full of...compassion? Or is it pity? She puts her hand on my left cheek and caressed it softly.
"Everybody falls in love Faith...even you...and when that happens...it will be the most wonderful feeling that you will encounter. Remember that..."
Her voice was very soft. I can feel her breath on my face. She gave me a smile and went to our classroom. I didn't even notice that were here already. I leaned at the wall and looked at the ceiling.
'Is she right? Is falling in love really feels like that?'
I sighed and went inside the room.
'Guess I'll find out when the time comes...until then...I'll wait.'