Wizarmon…

"Why? Damn it, couldn't he have saved himself? Couldn't there have been another way? At least HE died without any regrets…" Tailmon thought, still remembering… "At least HE was just happy to have met me… I'm Hikari's digimon, I should have protected her!"

But I tried, didn't I? I stood in front of the night raid, prepare to sacrifice my life for her… But then…

The bats came, he jumped in front, not letting either of us fall… His hat knocked off, I finally saw his face, just before the end…

"I don't have any regrets… If I hadn't met you, Tailmon, my life would never have had any meaning…"

"Wizarmon… If only I could say the same… If only I could just accept your death, if only I could die without any regrets… But I'm the one who brought you into this… Even if I was the only one who brought you happiness, I also brought about your death… I know, you'd probably rather I forget you, move on, turn my feelings to Hikari or something… But… It's just not possible…"

"Wizarmon, I know how much I meant to you, how much that one act of kindness I had almost forgot about finally gave your life focus… Your history of wandering, ended, your life, finally worthwhile… And then look what I brought you…" She said sadly, looking over to her gloved paw, or perhaps through the gloves to the scar underneath… "Vamdemon… How could I have brought you to him? How could I have done this to you?"

"At least if you hadn't met me, you'd still have life… And if I wasn't so damn stupid, we could live together in happiness… If I had never introduced you to Vamdemon… If I had been there, if I was able to stop Hikari from going with Phantomon… I know, she's kind, she can't bear to see people suffer… But if I could stop her, you'd still be alive!" She yelled, tears pouring from her eyes… "So many things I could have done to save you… Vamdemon may have dealt the final blow, but ultimately, I'm the one who brought about your end…"

Still, he died happy… He had no regrets, his soul isn't so torn… I'm the one who feels bad, I'm the one who needs him… Wizarmon's death hurt me more then it hurt him, it seems… Even with all the pain the bats inflicted, at least HIS spirit didn't suffer… He died smiling, after all…

"And I viewed his death with only tears… I cried for him, I suffered more then he ever would… Ultimately, I still needed him, why'd he have to die? He could have not sacrificed himself, Hikari's strong, she'd have survived…"

I loved him, didn't I? Yes, I did, I did care that much for him, even if I was sometimes cold to him… And even though I've found Hikari now, I miss him so very much…

Wizarmon, I will never forget you, I never can… You said if you had never met me your life would have no meaning… After what you did for me with my past, I can say the same to you…

I'll try to care that much for Hikari, I know you would want me to be happy again… If only it were that easy… Then again, if we could forget the ones we love and care for that much so easily, what would be the point of caring?

"My suffering has been vast, I've gone through so much at Vamdemon's hands… So why does this hurt so much more then any whips or bats he could inflict on me?"

It's because you cared so much for him… It's because you loved Wizarmon, even if you would never admit such a thing…

Wizarmon… I'll never forget you, This pain will be with me the rest of my life… I just hope I can move on, I just hope I can love again, no matter how much pain it brings me…