(Yusuke's POV)

Blood.

It was everywhere, I've seen a lot of blood in my time but it was to who the blood belonged to that was shocking.

Botan laid on her side; she had a peaceful almost happy face on her. Kuwabara however had a cold harsh look and was laying in Hiei's arms, he had caught him before he fell harshly on the ground.

I looked around in disbelief while Kurama healed each of their wrist wounds, they had obviously been slit. Hiei was looking at a kitchen knife with a shocked face, I knew it was Botan's blood, so was Kuwabara's.

But it wasn't possible; they hadn't done this to themselves, had they….

"I've sealed their wounds, we just have to hope we can get to a hospital in time before anything drastic happens" said Kurama in a shaking voice.

I turned to him he was very pale. That wasn't good news.

I looked at my best friend and my best girlfriend; I noticed each had a sheet of paper in their hands.

"Hey Kurama what's that in their hands?" I asked unsure of myself.

Kurama bent down and took the letter from Botan's hand he opened it and began to read.

His expressionless face suddenly turned to confused, than worried, followed by sheer horror and last was sorrow. Tears began to fall down his face, as he kept reading the tears turned into loud sobs, he was actually shaking.

Hiei and I watched in bewilderment as someone as strong as Kurama could break down emotionally with just a simple letter, I was actually became scared.

Kurama gently leaned down and grabbed Botan's body carefully as in fear that she would break. He grabbed her and pulled her into a very close hug and sobbed into her shoulder.

Hiei went and snatched the letter, I was curious so I went and grabbed the letter in Kuwabara's hand almost afraid of what I might read.

I began to read… This couldn't be possible… It couldn't it was too much…

I didn't realize what was going on anymore, I didn't realize the fact that I was sobbing uncontrollably, that Hiei was staring at Botan with pure shock with a hand extended to touch her and make sure everything was false and it was simply a dream.

We sat there crying, well at least Kurama and I did, Hiei might have I don't know… I read Botan's letter it was almost as depressing as Kuwabara's I couldn't bear it.

Out of all the people that I would have thought capable of suicide neither of the two were included.

And you know what the worst thing is?

They died thinking that I hated them, it struck me so hard. I knew I loved them as much as I could they were family to me. How could have they…

But they were right, all I ever did. Anyone did was to criticize them. How could have I been such an idiot. All of us. Out of all of the Tantei they were probably the most noble. They hardly showed pains to anyone. No matter what.

Kuwabara was so right; when I messed up everyone especially him and Botan would be the one to tell me that all would be fine and that we would win…

But when he lost… We would all laugh and tell him he was worthless, we were so stupid…

If Botan ever screwed up she would always get criticized, and most off all the name-calling and rude remarks behind her back would begin. It was all-true…

Two friends had killed themselves that evening, and it was his fault…

He could have stopped it….

It all crashed onto him at that precise moment of realization and as if the world was put on mute he could only hear his own thoughts.

'You're the worthless one'

True, so very true…

'You're the idiot'

Even truer than the last statement.

'Then why are you alive?'

'I don't know…'

'Is it fair?'

No…

'No your right it isn't'

But life isn't fair….

Hiei walked up to me, and said something. His lips were moving, but I heared no sound. After a few moments of waiting for a response he walked over to Kurama and said something. Kurama didn't react at first but then shook his head slowly. Hiei gave a growl and walked up to him and tried to get him away from Botan's form.

Kurama grabbed her delicate body and pulled her even closer to him and shook his head frantically, his lips were also moving and it looked like he was yelling.

Then I remembered, we had to get them to the hospital. Almost instantly all sound returned and I could hear Kurama's frantic yelling of 'No'

I walked up to him and smacked him in the face he looked up shocked.

"We've go to get them to a hospital NOW" I yelled at him.

This seemed to put sense into him and he stood up carrying Botan's limp body. Hiei was carrying Kuwabara.

They both assured me they'd use their demonic speed and get there quicker than an ambulance, they told me to please get Koenma, Shizuru, Keiko and Yukina. I nodded. And we all parted in different directions.

I hope we make it in time…

########## End Chapter/ Author notes ##########

Ok first chapter to Tic-toc. Another rather angsty piece. If you don't understand what's going on then You probably haven't read Sorrows of two beings, which are in Botan's and Kuwabara's POV's. Just a couple of chapters long and then comes the Alternate ending fics.

Next is probably Kurama or Shizuru's POV.

Thank you for reading I hope you enjoyed, please R&R.