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Never Meant To Hurt You….

Prologue

Sixteen years before…

"Lily, what's wrong?" A very young Remus asked. Remus was tall with dirty blond hair and almond-colored eyes. He was rocking Lily back as he was holding her, while she cried.

"James, I hate him," Lily replied burying her head father into Remus' chest. Lily sniffled every three seconds or so.

"Why? What did James do?" Remus said, still holding her, and now stroking her beautiful, wavy red hair.

"He is just a jerk, Remus, he is so nasty. And I know he likes me, but he doesn't treat me like a woman, or treat any woman like that. He treats me like I'm a snack he can have whenever he wants. And when he does something wrong, he doesn't say he is sorry or even try to make me feel better…" Lily said between sniffles, "I hate him so much, and I love him equally," Lily to Remus.

"Hate, Lily, is a strong word, especially for you," Remus told her, "James needs to grow up, but I a sure you, he is crazy about you. All Peter, Sirius, and I hear about is you, not that we don't like you, but he talks about you all the time," Remus told her. Lily looked up at him.

"Really?" She asked.

"Really. James talks about your beautiful red hair and your bright green eyes. He talks about how beautiful you look in your Hogwarts' robes. He talks about how every time there is a school dance he wishes you'd since with him, but your always dancing with someone else and he would punch them, but you would hate him more. He talks about your smile and how he loves it. He talks about how he wishes you were only his and you two were deeply in love. He talks about how he wishes to become a better man, so that one day you might love him. He talks about how he wishes you two would love each other, have a family and grow old. He talks about his love for you, that will never fade…" Remus starred straight into Lily's beautiful green eyes as he said this.

"You're not lying to me right, Remus?" Lily asked. Her big green eyes looking at him with hope.

"No Lily, I'm not," Remus said quickly. Lily gave him a tight hug and the kissed him on the cheek and walked out of the common room, actually she skipped. Remus caught her smile she had before she left, and this made him glad he lied. Lied? Yep, he lied, but to make Lily feel better. Sure James talks about her al the time, but he is the one that talks about Lily's beautiful red hair and Lily's bright green eyes. He talks about how beautiful she looks in your Hogwarts' robes. He talks about how every time there is a school dance he wishes she'd dance with him, but she is always dancing with someone else and he would punch them, but she would hate him. He talks about her smile and how he loves it. He talks about how he wishes she were only his and the two were deeply in love. He talks about how he wishes to become a better man, so that one day she might love him, too. He talks about how he wishes that him and her would love each other, have a family and grow old. He talks about his love for her, which will never fade…

Remus thinks about Lily and him. He thinks of what it would be like. He thinks of what it could be like. He thinks of how it should be like… And you know what?

That way is perfect…

Quickly, Remus got his quill and his journal and wrote about the events. He always wrote about his feeling in his journal. He did so, so he would never for get important thing, like things that were stupid and taught him a lesson, which someday would come in hand; like, "Love is a strange thing, when you're scarred of it." His mother told him that when Remus first owled her and told her he was in love, but Lily didn't feel the same…

September 8, 1970

Some people think love happens like that, some believe it is some think that takes time. Some people think there is no such thing as love; some people think there is. Some people think you should follow your heart, some people think you should follow you mind.

I wonder, if you love someone you should tell them even if it means losing a dear friend, who really doesn't deserve the special person you love. I wonder if you can even tell whether it's true love or not. I wonder if it matters…

I've been in love with Lillian Evans since I first met her on the Hogwarts Express seven years ago. I remember it so clearly; she was in the compartment next to her's and she started throwing up a cauldron cake, when I handed her my napkin. She thanked me, blushing, and we introduced ourselves. I was her first friend until she turned thirteen and hung out with girls. I was always a friend of James, Sirius and Peter even when I was friends with Lily. She always read, just like me and often got annoyed by James and Sirius picking on Snape, as much as I hated him…

She never liked me more than a friend and sometimes I wonder if she ever will. Sometimes I am jealous over James because she likes him, but he is my friend and I should be happy from him, even when I believe he doesn't deserve Lily…

I won't tell Lily I love her; I would never break my friendship with James. I guess I'll have to do what I have done all these years… See her get hurt, and comfort her when she cries…See as her beautiful heart is kept by everyone, but me…

I just want her heart for Christmas… There is nothing I can give her… She already stole my heart…

-Remus

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