Summary: They had been together for as long as they had known eachother, he just couldn't let her go. She was his and his alone, but now shes wondering why exactly she stayed with him all these years. Does she love him? Does he love her? She had never been with any other except him, but she knew he had been with others, and she just let him get away with it. But things are soon to change in their relationship, She was his for so long, now its time for him to become hers and only hers.
CHapter 1: Reflections
Title: How do you like me now
Author: LightningRose
((((((((((( Serena's POV ))))))))))))
Obsession,
Money,
Need.
Thats what life was about, it was never about love. We never even mentioned the word, never questioned eachother. He did his thing, and me?
I let him.
He has never told me he loved me but then again I never have either. I don't even know if I do love him. We have been together for so long...since middle school. It just felt right to be with him, I care in someway, i must have in order to stay with him for so long. We married right out of highschool feeling it was the right thing. After that we both went to college, unfortunately different colleges. I had never been without him by my side and it was a bit strange for me to have so much freedom. Other men talked to me and told me they liked me, in highschool I wasn't allowed to talk to other guys and he wouldn't let any other guy near me unless they were friends of his. He found out about these men though, when he came for a surprise visit, one of his many check ups on me. I didn't mind, I never thought I was doing anything wrong but of course in his eyes talking to another man when he wasn't around was a horrible act. He was always going to drastic measures to keep me safe or make sure I was always near, so he made me switch to his college even if it meant I had to change my major. It was like highschool all over again, I must say I didn't mind. For he was by my side once again. So here we are both doctors, young, making loads of money and still...I'm not completely happy with life. Not to mention he was my partner, we did surgeries together and worked together, our offices were next to eachother. I'm sure he had something to do with it all, he just never lets me go.
Back in out sophomore year in highschool I wanted to break up, told him I wanted to see what it was like to date other guys. I always had to watch him flirt with other girls, watched them come up to him while I was standing there and just flirt with him. Back then I would get jealous and try to say something to them but he would always give me this look then later lecture me on how I don't trust him. I argued back that he was the one who didn't trust me because he never let me talk to another guy. Sometimes he would become angry or just laugh when I fought with him but the next day we still would be walking down the halls holding hands, together side by side.
Till this day he is always watching over me. Were companions more than lovers it seems, we haven't made love in so long and its only been a few times in all the years we have been together. I know he sleeps with other women and it hurts, I think maybe i'm not good enough for him. But what can I do? I've never been with anyone else. Do I love him? Is that why I won't leave him? Is it the reason why when he doesn't come home at night I cry in our bed, when I know for a fact he's with another woman? I can't even answer my own questions...because I have never experienced love.
(((( End of POV )
Serena sat there at her desk in deep thought. Her friends who she still kept contact with from highschool often questioned her as to why she was still with him. And lately she had been asking herself the very same questions. Here she was at the age of 24, married to the same man she met in 7th grade and dated throughout highschool and married before college. She never even dated another guy, never been touched by another, how could she possibly know if he was the one for her if she had never been with another to test her feelings. Her time in college without him was enjoyable but she was used to him being there for her that she never though about it, not until now. She heard a knock on her office door and watched as her secretary Molly walked in.
" Ms. Serena, Dr. Anderson ask for your assistance in a labor. She says she won't tell your husband if you won't" The two women laughed as serena grabbed her white doctors jacket, put it on and walked swiftly down the halls, making sure her husband wasn't near. The truth was, she was deciding to work with Dr. Anderson instead of with her husband, but she just hadn't told him just yet. She loved children and helped in the child's ward on her breaks, delivery and children were Amy's field, so she wanted to work with her. Sometimes Amy would ask serena to help her whith a labor. Serena wanted a child of her own but she was afraid to bring it up at home. She and her husband never really talked about intimate matters, he never talked about children so she didn't know how he would react to her bringing it up. Getting back to where she was heading, she could see Amy running into one of the delivery rooms, which caused herself to run as well. For amy to be running something must be wrong. She came into the room and autmatically began working. Not really noticing the man standing at the door watching her.
"Amy we need to get this baby out now!" They were all running around trying to make it where the woman was feeling as little pain as possible, but the baby wasn't comming out, it was stuck. There was so much blood, on the floor on the nurses on serena and amy it was everywhere they would be lucky if the mother survived. The baby was peaking out its heard breaking through but it seemed as though something was holding the baby in, thats when they noticed the cord wrapped around the neck of the baby.
"Serena hurry, were losing them both!"
((( An hour later )))
"Good job in there serena, I can't wait for when you switch over to my area." Amy smilled at serena as they walked into the nursery to look after the brand new baby they just saved. Serena sat next to the makeshift crib and ran a petite finger along the babies soft chubby arm. What she wouldn't give to have the ability to call him her own. She looked into his small face and smiled imagining what it would be like to be a mother. Her thoughts came to a crashing halt as the sound of glass being tapped could be heard. Serena looked around to the glass window that peered into the nursery to see who was disturbing her when her eyes clashed with dark blue ones.
"Darien..."
AN: oh darn look at that, the end all ready. Now i dont want to hear any complaints about if its to short its just the first chapter. I'm trying here people ! ok anyways hope you guys like it, if not let me know! REVIEW!!