To Save Her

Chapter 1: The Big Change

Usagi lay in bed, she couldn't sleep for once in her life; it was 3am and one sentence kept replaying itself over, and over in her head.

"Love doesn't exist Usagi, you can dream and dream but all those dreams are never going to come true. Love doesn't exist."

In that one instant all of Usagi's beliefs had been shattered, the man she loved had told her that love didn't exist. And he's right. She admitted bitterly to herself, Love doesn't exist; it's just a delusion, part of the imagination. You've never had a boyfriend, all your crushes are duds; yup, it's pretty certain. Love does NOT exist.

So, what am I going to do? Usagi wondered, I can't continue this way, I keep getting hurt… There's only one thing I can do, I have to harden my heart, I have to stop feeling. I'll just be. No more innocent, naïve Usagi; from now on I'm a new person, from now on there is no love, no dreams, no hope.

Usagi leaned over to her bedside table and turned on the lamp; she stood and moved toward the mirror. Her hands reached up to her odangos and she pulled them lose; first taking out the hair elastics, then the bobby pins holding them in place. The pale girl shook her hair loose, then, shaking, picked up a pair of scissors (left over from an art project) that were lying on the table.

Usagi took a deep breath, pulling together all her resolve, and raised the scissors to her hair, let the breath out, and cut. A piece of blonde hair, pale by moonlight, fell to the ground, abandoned, but soon to be followed by more.

Each piece of hair hardened Usagi's resolve, she would never let a man get that close to her again, she no longer believed in love. The naïve Usagi was of the past, this Usagi would be the future.

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Usagi's hair was now a little longer than shoulder-length, and layered around the face (A/N: Let's just forget about her fringe, shall we?), styled professionally. She had been to see a hairdresser that morning, after waking up early (and shocking her mother into a faint), and making her way to Mina's hairdresser.

And now she was on her way to the Crown Arcade, not for a chocolate milkshake, but for something resembling healthy food. Usagi was dressed in a mini-skirt and a top showing a lot of cleavage; guys were staring as she walked past, and, unlike usual, she was giving them flirtatious looks back.

The revamped teenager walked around a corner, and saw the Crown just ahead, her pace slowed as she saw the one person that had changed her.

"Mamoru…" Usagi breathed, slouching, then quickly straightening, tightening her will. He was not going to stop her, he would not hurt her anymore.

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Mamoru was walking, as per usual, to the Crown Arcade for his morning coffee. He knew that Usagi wouldn't be here, Yeah, its too early for her to be up, even if it is 11:00. He snickered internally.

The college guy in the horrible green jacket looked up from the pavement in front of him, and found the most beautifully sexy girl he had ever seen in his life. For the first time in his life, Mamoru felt like doing that obnoxious whistle that player guys are famous for. She was blonde, with legs up to here, and the most amazing chest he had ever seen.

The resemblance to Usagi didn't even occur to him.

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It wasnow a year and a half after Usagi's miraculous change, but it hadn't been a change for the better. She had ditched her old friends, and started hanging out with The Group, you know the one I mean.

Mini-skirts, and mini-tops had become her clothes of choice; she'd had 5 "boyfriends" in the last 2 weeks. And her so-called-friends, well, they were all trying to be here. That's right ladies and gentlemen, Usagi had become The Popular Girl. Her sexual encounters were rumoured right around the school, and all the jocks knew exactly what she was like in bed.

Gone was the old Usagi, this Usagi did everything you ever bitched about, and got away with it. She was the ultimate popular girl, and the ultimate slut, with everything entailed in those descriptions.

She felt nothing however, each guy just left her falling further, pulling her further away from the girl she used to be. Rei, Mina, Ami and Mako watched sadly, knowing there was no way they could save the girl they once considered their closest, warmest friend, the one who would always be there.

There was only one person who could save Usagi, and he approved of her change.

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Welcome to my new SM fic, obviously its AU, and its going to have pretty adult/older teenaged terms/storyline. All i'm saying is, it isn't going to get much better for Usagi... Tell me what you think!

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