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Chapter Two: Killing Myself

''I-Itachi..?'' I asked, my eyes still widened with suprise and fear.

''Can't you see it?'' I heard him ask. I lowered my head so he couldn't see my eyes.

''No..'' I whispered. ''I can't..'' I looked up. ''I can't..'' I whispered again. I tried to find my aniki with searching for a sound, but I didn't heard a thing. I couldn't even hear his breath. Trying to control myself I breathed in deeply a few times.

''Why didn't you tell me?'' Itachi's voice asked me suddenly.

My anger boiled up again. ''Why I didn't tell you!?'' I roared. ''Maybe because you killed them! You killed the ones I loved! You killed my family! Do you really think that I would write a letter to you that tells you exactly how my life is going?!''

''Not really, no..'' My aniki replied coolly. Somehow that only made me angrier. So angry that I just couldn't yell.. I think my face was whole red. But I couldn't look in the mirror to look if I was right.

''You- you-'' I sputtered. (A/N: No, I don't know if that's a word.. --)

''What?'' Itachi asked.

I breathed in for a moment and then said the most disturbing thing I have ever said in my life. ''When you killed them, I swore to myself that I would kill you when I saw you back. But unfortunately, if I would try it.. I think it would just take seconds to die for me.. So I figured out that killing isn't one of the options I had when I still could see you.'' Long story in a few sentences.. ''And by the way,'' I added, ''I had sworn when I saw you back. Not hear you back..''

''That can be a problem, yeah..'' Itachi said, not really noticing what his brother just told him.

''You're not listening, do you?'' I said, a sweatdrop hanging on the back of my head.

''Huh?'' I sighed. This was going to take a lot of my time…

''..and that's how it happened..'' I finally ended, after talking about hours..

''That's a long story..!'' Itachi exclaimed.

''Yeah, what did you think it was, a five minute story?'' I commented.

''You did ten minutes about telling me.'' Itachi told me.

''That's cool..'' I mumbled with my voice dripping with sarcasm.

''Little brother, I know that you hate me, I can't change a thing about that fact. But if you want me to help you.. After all we're still family.'' Itachi said, or that's what I thought that I heard him say. I blinked. Was this Itachi? Was this the brother that had left me seven years ago? I knew that I had changed, but it was almost weird to hear him say something like this.

''Aniki,'' I started, underwhile trying to find if it was my brother or not. ''..I don't even know if you're my aniki. I can't see if you're lying or not. I'm sorry.'' The last two words were whispered.

''It's not your fault,'' he answered. ''Do you remember the story I used to tell you, when you were little?''

''Of course I remember that, how can I forget something like that?'' I replied, slightly annoyed.

''Do you remember your sixth birthday, when we went to the beach together?''

I lifted my head slightly, in an attempt to look at my brother. ''Yeah, I remember that. You bought me icecream than.''

''Do you believe now that I'm you aniki?'' I smiled and nodded.

''Yes, only my brother could tell those things, so I believe you.''

''That's good.'' I felt a hand patting my head. Okay, I may believe my brother, but he doesn't need to do that. I pushed his arm away.

''No fluff.'' I said shortly.

''Whatever you wish..'' I heard my brother mumble. It's rather weird that when one of your sences disappears, the others will grow stronger. But it's also logical. When I lost my eyesight, I figured out that I heard a lot better then when I still could see. It explains a lot. It also has helped me.

''Thank you,'' I suddenly said, I don't know why, but I did. ''Thank you that you want to help me.'' I could almost feel my brother smirk, it was the way he was. That was why he was my brother. I let out a small sigh; there were things that would never change.

After a few hours of arguing, I decided that I had no choice than letting my brother inside the house. Damn, I was pissed. Very, very pissed. Couldn't he get a room of his own? Oh yeah, I forgot, he was a criminal. Criminals were searched and couldn't get a room in a random hotel. No, to make it even better, they couldn't go out without being almost getting killed. This was just great, so great that it just couldn't get any better. ''Ne, otouto, do you have any blankets?'' I sighed, okay, so it could..

''No, I don't.''

''But how can I sleep without a-''

''You're a shinobi, right? Than I'm sure you'll survive the night without blanket.''

''But-''

''No!'' I snickered mentally, it was fun to tease my brother.

After almost tripping over a chair, which made my brother fall of his own chair from laughing and me myself to yell at him for another quarter, I found my way upstairs to go to sleep. It was weird, to know that there was someone else in your house, even though you couldn't see them. I turned, now laying on my ear. But he had't told me why he was here. Was it because of a mission? A certain mission..

Flashback

''I can't really call it a dream, it's more an ambition. To kill a certain man. and the resseruction of my clan.''

End Flashback

I shook my head. I had to put it out of my head. I knew it would take time to forgive him, and I was still mad. I still wanted to kill him, but that wasn't possible, or at least, not yet.. What was I thinking? He is the only one that knows what going on, or at least cares. Why do I want to do this? Damn.. I'm confused. After another few minutes of arguing with myself I fell to sleep. Dreaming one of my worst nightmares...

Dream Sequence

I was standing there again, standing for the closed door that went to the livingroom. I heard the screams and shouts, but didn't move an inch. Shaking, I reached out for the doorknob, to find the horrifying scene that played in there. The floor was drenched in blood, blood of my own family. And I stood there, gaping for air. On the other side of the room Itachi gave me a cold look. And that moment I wanted to burst into tears, screaming why he had done it, like any other seven-year-old would do. But I didn't, I kept my mouth shut, and only stared. But the tears were streaming out of my eyes, even though I didn't make any sound. There was only one thing I said. ''Why..?''

My brother walked to me, and unable to move I remained where I was. I could only stare at him, with wide eyes full of shock and fear. ''You're weak, pathetic.. If you're worth my strength, I'll fight.'' 1 He just said those words, and even if we didn't had any physical contact, it felt like someone had slapped my face.

End Dream Sequence

I woke up, startled. My face was wet of my own tears and cold sweat. But there was something else. Something warm.. A pair of arms were wrapped around me, in a protective way. ''It was just a dream..'' I heard my brother whisper. ''You're here, nothing has happened.''

I let out a small sigh, relaxing my muscles. Turning around, I snuggled closer in the protective embrace of my brother, wishing that he would never let me go. For once I wasn't scared of the dark. For once I knew that someone did care about me. But the nightmare still followed me, confusing me, pushing me to the edge of screaming. Why was I doing it? He had killed my parents damn it! I pushed myself away, dropping on the ground. I didn't care. The bastard! When Itachi spoke again, his voice was soft, nearly choked out. I could hear it.

''Is it.. because of me?'' I stayed quiet. ''Because of what happened. Seven years ago..'' I let my back lean against the bed.

''What do you expect? It was that nightmare again. It hunts me down almost every night.'' I closed my eyes.

''I didn't know..''

''No, you didn't.'' I said harsh. ''You don't know a thing. At least, not of me.'' I remembered my brother. Looking serious, with that stern expression. That smirk on his face. I remembered every single thing, every detail. The Akatsuki cloak. The red Sharingan eyes that could glare furiously at you. ''I could never forget you, even in my dreams you're still coming back, no matter if they're happy or sad. I remember everything. But it's probaly changed. Everyone changes, that's just.. normal. But I can't see the changes anymore, even though I want to see them so badly.''

It was silent for a while. ''Sometimes I wonder how you are feeling, aniki.''

''Well, now you know. Helpless. Weak. Even pathetic. All the things you said to me then. You were right, I'm all those things, even more. I can't even take care of myself.''

''That's nonsense!'' I jumped at the outburst of my brother. ''Of course you're not weak. You didn't gave up, even though you couldn't see.''

''Failure isn't in my dictionary. What's the point of living when you don't have a goal to reach?''

''I don't know..''

I sighed. ''What time is it?''

''Three in the morning.'' I groaned. My brother continued speaking. ''I'll be downstairs if you need anything, but I doubt that.'' The squeeking of the bed made me jump for a second time this night. The door went open and closed with a 'click'. I sat down and thought about our talk. It was the most serious talk I had in a long time. A really long time.

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1 When I wrote this chapter I hadn't read the right manga chapter yet, so I'm sorry if it's not what you expected.

Note: Before I continue this (this note isn't about expectations for reviews, or anything like that), I wanted to let the readers know that have seen not all of the anime.Okay, so alot, not. I've seen 1 'til 31, and 80, 81, 82 and 83. Just wanted to let you know.
Second note: This takes place before Sasuke leaves Konoha, but after Itachi has visited Konoha. I know that the time doesn't completely fit with the anime, but this is an fanfiction, right? In fanfictions anything can happen.
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