Title: How Can I?
Author: Sgt Maritza Cruz
It takes place before Sins of the Father and after Broken
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How can I tell him?

How can I tell him how much he means to me?

How can I tell him how much I care about him?

How can I tell him that if he ever leaves this Earth I'll be lost?

How can I tell him he's the one person whose opinion I care about?

How can I tell him I wish he didn't hate me?

How can I tell him I wish it was me he saved in the shooting?

How can I...

When I don't even have enough courage to go and visit him?

How could I not be brave enough to visit the man I supposedly love in the hospital?

How could I have thought about him and loved him, and still hurt him like I did?

How could I abuse his trust?

His ability to trust is as good as my ability to figure out how I feel. Once you have his trust, you can't do anything to make it go away.

And yet I did.

I did.

How can I ever get it back?

How can I make him see how much I need him to trust me?

How can I make him see how much I hate having him think of me as a criminal?

How can I tell him how much he helped me?

Helped me with my sister...

Helped me get my revenge on Warner...

How can I pretend how little he means to me?

How can I pretend how little I care?

How could I have given him those looks?

Those looks of anger.

Of hatred.

How can I hate the man I love?

How can I do anything but love him?

How can I love him?

All these questions I have in my head.

Unanswered.

They'll stay unanswered.

The most important question is, How can I tell him that I love him?