Just something I thought up whilst trying to do my English homework and failing miserably. At the moment I do plan on writing a couple more chapters but I might not.

I don't own anything cept the plot. If you don't like it fine but you're not the ones writing it. I apologize for any mistakes.

Summary: My take on characters thoughts and feelings during a few scenes from Chosen.

I knew it. As soon as I looked through her beautiful green eyes into her true heart and soul, I knew. Even if she did tell me we might be together in the future I know it's him she really wants. Why? I haven't a clue. Something inside me said that he's changed and would do anything for the woman that we now both love. I'd do anything to be able to shut that voice up once and for all but I knew that it was telling the truth.

I suppose that what I said was my own way of trying to convince myself that she was wrong and we would be together

Yeah, I was a little surprised. I thought she'd learnt her lesson after me. Seeing her told me otherwise. She was happy. That's all I ever wanted for her. Her heart isn't mine anymore it belongs to him and his to her.

She's moved on, has someone to make her happy, has someone to fall asleep with every night, has someone to wake up with every morning and someone to love who'll love her right back. I wanted it to be me, still do, but she's the only one who can change that and I know she won't because she loves him. He's her leading man now, not me. I see that we've grown and don't really fit together now but that still doesn't stop the feeling. I gotta do what she's done and move on.

I just hope that Spike succeeds where I failed with Buffy. If not? Then I'd just have to keep a stake handy with me every time I visited.

Note: I know it's a bit rambly but I just had to get it all down. It might not make sense to you. I just hope you like it and if you did you know what to do.