Kagome Higarashi a happy go lucky teen with everything a girl can want. So why is she so unhappy? When locked in her room she tries to stop her pain by replacing it with physical pain. She seems to have lost all self-control. So, what happens when she meets a half-breed dog demon will he be able to save her? Pairing I/K and M/S major Kikyo bashing here people My first fanfic ever so plz don't hate me and review and give me ur honest opinion on how to make it better Rating might go up
Disclaimer: No I don't own the hot and sexy INUYASHA ya happy there I said it! Wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I want him I want him I want him…
A/n: I use to be and still am a self-Injurer myself so I know exactly what Kagome is going through. I also struggled with an eating disorder long story but anywayz So some of the events from this story are taken from my real life experience. So thanx and on with the story then.
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RAIN
Let the rain fall down and wake my dreamsLet it wash away my sanity, because I wanna hear
The thunder I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down I'm coming clean
I'm coming clean.
-Lyrics from Hilary Duff's COME CLEAN
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It was a rainy day with large gray clouds just threatening to burst any moment and ground shaking thunder. You know the type of days where most people stay inside just wishing the rain would stop. Days like this most people wouldn't dare venture out into the darkness they'd rather stay inside in the warmth and safety of their homes, but Kagome Higarashi wasn't most people. There she stood enveloped by darkness letting each raindrop that fell upon her skin dance freely, there she stood letting the ice-cold rain, warm her and awaken a part of her that had been asleep for some time now, a part of her that had been long forgotten. Everyone that had passed Kagome had thought she was crazy and wondered what had possessed her to dare venture out into the dark. What was she thinking? Everyone that passed her sent rude glares her way and yet there she stood proud and tall with a content smile on her face not caring what they thought well at least not at the moment for that matter. They'll never understand me, thought Kagome. Heck not even I understand me! "Well I guess I had better start going home or mom's totally gonna freak," thought Kagome aloud. The rain began falling even harder than before, while people ran into shops to wait for the rain to let up a bit Kagome just kept walking hoping the rain would never stop.
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(At the shrine)
"Man we need to get an elevator or something! Well that was a work out I'm starving I wonder what's for dinner? Mom! HEY, MOM are you home? Hmm, guess not, she thought. "Guess I'll just have to make Souta and me something to eat then." As Kagome walked into the kitchen she spotted a note. . .
Dear Kagome,
Hey, honey! I had to work late tonight there are TV dinners in the fridge for you. Souta is staying at Jason's house he is spending the rest of the week with him and his family.
Love, Mom"Well at least I get rid of Souta for a whole week that little brat was driving me nuts with his Zenki obsession!" (A/n: Zenki is an awesome anime series that I just saw for the first time two weeks ago just thought you'd like to know it you've never heard of it before.)
Kagome just tossed the note into the trash and decided to go change before she caught pneumonia.
(Kagome's room an hour later)
She plopped right onto her bed and closed her eyes. " Now that was what I needed a nice long shower." She glanced at her clock, 9:00 PM. " I wonder how late mom's working today?" Well what did you expect her to be waiting in the kitchen with freshly baked cookies? " What was I expecting? Mom has been this way since dad died 3 years ago. They say time can heal, but it seems to making mom worse." Tears began to form in Kagome's eyes, " I miss mom and the way that things use to be I miss seeing dad's face." Soon enough sobs could be heard echoing throughout the house." Why does it have to hurt so much? Why do I have to hurt so much?" Kagome's body shook with sobs." Why? I …I don't understand why (sniff) why he had to (sniff) go It's (sniff) not fair.
She glanced outside and saw that it was still raining. Out there I felt at peace out there I felt happy. "Why is that? I don't understand I just don't understand anything anymore!" Soon enough the tears began to fall and her body shook with the force of her sobs. The last thing Kagome saw before falling asleep was the rain pounding on her window.
Inuyashafanaticlmv: OK A/N coming right up
A/N: Ok just so you know that school just ended for Kagome like two weeks ago so that's why she's not in school and another thing your not going to find out what happened to Kagome's dad until later chapters. Last but not least this is not for kikyo lovers a lot of Kikyo bashing shall be in this story I'm not to much of a kikyo fan.
Hope that clears up some things.
Thanx lots of love Inuyashafanaticlmv
Oh an sry I have issues with grammar ya know I never really know when to use commas and stuff and the sad part about it is that I'm in high school and only 13 neways thanx again