A/N: So I got inspiration last night (a new idea, hehehe) and so hopefully I remember enough of it to work it into this chapter.

My Dear Reviewers: I thank you so much for coming back to read and for reading for the first time in one case. I also thank you for your support, I did confront my bullies and they for a time left me alone, and school's out now so I'm pretty good off. Oh, I'm sixteen years old now!

Please: Two days ago a boy named Neil died in an accident. Neil, my cousin, and myself used to hang out together. And so I'd like to ask you, if you're at all religious, please pray for him. I didn't talk with him much, actually, I hadn't talked with him in over a year, but he used to play Magic cards with my cousin. I was never good at Magic... So I'd play DDR and my cousin would do both at once.

Disclaimer: ((eh he... nearly forgot this ...)) I don't own Card Captor Sakura, but I do know a girl that's nicknamed Sakura and she's totally awesome!

Previously:

Tomoyo's dreams have been horrid, but then she has the dream that for a time fulfills her longing desires.

Chapter 27: Resolution Making with a Movie for the Slaughter

She had missed the beginning of school, slept through until noon. Somehow she felt refreshed, alive, ready to go to school. So she did what before she wouldn't have had the strength to do; she ironed her uniform, got re-dressed, braided her long hair, brushed her teeth, ate lunch, and then walked to school.

She walked through the front door of the school with her head held high and a smile upon her cheerful face. She walked into the office for a pass to go to class, said that she had gotten bad sleep and just slept in, and then headed up to her locker.

Two minutes later she was feeling slightly nervous as she walked into her seventh period classroom. Her heart skipped a beat as she saw Eriol, looking as handsome as ever, smiling at her. She practically skipped over to the teacher as she gave him her late pass. Before she knew it the school day was over. Two more periods had passed in the blink of a lovesick eye belonging to a cheerful lovesick girl. And happily she hopped onto the bus and plopped down into an empty seat.

She sighed and closed her eyes, imaging again the feel of his lips against hers. It may have only been imaginary, a fantasy dream demented to her obscure liking, but it had left for her an endless sensation. So lost in her dreams was she that Tomoyo barely noticed the rough hand caressing hers.

Her eyes jerked opened as she realized that he was sitting beside her, that he was caressing her hand, and that she was cornered between him and the bus wall. Startled she jerked her hand away from him quickly.

"Hey, calm down, would you sweetie?" Kai chuckled. "You're uptight today. So where've you been? I missed you baby."

Tomoyo inhaled shaky breaths, trying to calm herself.

"No need to panic, sorry that I startled you. Were you sleeping?"

Tomoyo nodded her head numbly. Why did he have to come and sit by her? Why couldn't he leave her alone? She was mainly nonresponsive for the rest of the way to her bus stop. He was caressing her hand and occasionally her cheek, she wanted to slap him, wanted to hurt him for ruining her fantasy, for making her feel this way.

As she ran into her house she had to stop the tears from flooding her eyes.

"Hi honey!" her mother called out to her.

"Hi mom!" Tomoyo shouted back. "I'll be right back down, I'm gonna go get changed, kay?" Tomoyo ran up to her room and knocked the CD of the W-inds off of her nightstand and pulled the one of Gackt off. The more she heard his voice the more she loved it, and now she needed its soothingness. She briefly thought of the razor blade but tossed the thought from her mind, she didn't need it. She wasn't dependant upon it.

Hurriedly to the calming music of Camui Gackt she pulled off her school uniform and dressed herself in black pants and a blue t-shirt. Tomoyo unbraided her hair and ran her fingers through it, pulling out a few small knots. Then she pulled it up into odangos and tied blue ribbons around them.

She walked down to the kitchen and poured herself a glass of white grape juice.

"Hey Tomoyo honey," her mom began, "I know I haven't been around in a while, so let's go to the movies together! We can watch two, one that you want an one that I want."

Tomoyo smiled. "Sure mom, I wanna see the new James Bond movie!"

Her mother laughed. "So we'll watch that one and the one I want, which will be a surprise!"

Tomoyo put on a pouty face as she looked at her mother. "But I wanna know what it is..."

"The fun is in not knowing!"

Tomoyo smiled at her mother's comment, she was right. "So when are we going?"

"In one hour!" her mother happily exclaimed. "So if you need to shower before we leave and want to change into a different outfit you'd better get at it!"

The teenage ran up the stairs. She'd keep her outfit, but a shower was sounding like a good idea. She hummed happily to herself as she showered, letting the cool water run over her skin refreshing her. She'd decided something, she wasn't going to let Kai make her feel bad!

An hour later Tomoyo walked with her mother into the theater, with tickets in her hand for the new James Bond movie and for Moon Child, a movie with both Gackt and Hyde in it.

When she walked into the viewing room her breath caught in her chest as she saw who was also sitting in it.

A/N: Sorry that it's so short (and that the chapter title is weird...). I was going to make it longer, but I started it and then left it sit for a month, and then just started typing on it again today.

And so the question is, will Tomoyo stick to her resolution to not let Kai make her feel bad, or will things unhappily crash down and crush her. Can she rise above the pain, sorrow, and suffering of her life to become the new Buddha (or at least "normal"), or will this pain of hers lead her to the grave?

Find out in the next chapters of Shattered and Shattered Again, see you then!